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So here's chapter 2. I'm just going to say sorry in advance if this chapter is kind of confusing or if the characters seem a little OOC. It was completely unintentional. This chapter was just not wanting to come out right, but hopefully it's still good enough for your guys' taste. :)
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Song Lyrics are in italics
One of the songs in this chapter is "Ashes and Wine" by A Fine Frenzy. I absolutely love that song!
A few changes to canon.
Also, Quinn cheated on Finn with Puck, but she didn't get pregnant. I guess you can say that Puck and Kurt first got together towards the end of season one, but Mercedes never dated Puck. Puck never stopped throwing Kurt in the dumpster, even after joining Glee Club.
Chapter 2
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Kurt woke up the next morning feeling extra tired. He probably only got about 3 hours of sleep, if that. The thoughts of everything that happened yesterday hit him with full force. Between the make out session, to Noah basically saying he's straight, to running out of that house, he has never been so embarrassed and hurt in his entire life, which is saying a lot considering the countless slushy facials, dumpster tosses, and locker shoves.
Escaping to his bathroom for a well needed hot shower, he turned on his stereo to one of his favorite songs to listen to when feeling depressed and sung along with it.
Don't know what to do anymore
I lost the only love worth fighting for
I'll drown in my tear storming sea
That would show you, that would make you hurt like me
All the same
I don't want a mudslinging game
It's such a shame
To let you walk away.
Kurt felt the song somehow fit his situation. He knew he was being a little melodramatic, considering the fact that Noah was his first love and everything, to compare him to the "only love worth fighting for". He just couldn't help but be affected by this. Heart break was agonizing pain. He'd prefer a hundred dumpster tosses and slushy facials over this constricted chest pain. There's nothing he could do about it. It was time to begin the healing process and what better way to do that than letting all his tears out with some sad music?
Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie,
Noah was just waking up. He's got a massive headache after drowning his regret in alcohol last night. He couldn't process what happened and it just irritated him not knowing what to do. Naturally, alcohol is the easiest thought suppressant. He contemplated not going to school, but he knew he needed to go to sort things out with Kurt. He owed him some kind of explanation for his odd behavior. But did he even have an explanation? Somehow saying he had an "off night" didn't seem to justify his actions. He was so fucked.
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see.
Kurt Hummel strode into McKinley, holding his head up with such pride. He's a master at hiding his emotions, his mask almost impenetrable. He arrived at his locker, lost in thought. The only person he could ever really let his walls down with was Noah, but look where that got him? He wasn't even that open with his best friend, Mercedes, though that was kind of expected after how she acted towards his relationship.
*Flashback*About a year ago*
Mercedes dragged Kurt into an empty classroom the moment she saw he was alone. She didn't need anyone interrupting.
"Sit the hell down, white boy." Mercedes demanded. She was exasperated. What the hell was going on in her best friend's mind?
"What is it?" Kurt deadpanned. He knew this was coming, but he thought it might be smarter to act ignorant so that Mercedes can let out all her frustrations.
"You know damn well what it is. What is going on in your head, boy? Are you really that lonely to go with PUCK of all people? Not only that, but I had to find out about your relationship from Rachel! You know that girl cannot stop talking once she gets going!"
"What do you want me to say? I really like him and have for a while now. One thing led to another, and now we're dating. Why can't you just be happy for me?"
"O hell to the no! You weren't saying you liked him yesterday when he was tossing you in the dumpster. You know, like he does every day? I'm your best friend and I've only got your best interest at heart. But this is Puck we're talking about! He's straighter than a freaking pole. There's no way that he could be genuinely interested in you. Puckerman is messing with your head! This must be his new way of making your life a living hell!"
"Wow Mercedes. Thanks for enlightening me about my own repulsiveness. It's not like I'm reminded of that every single day of my life when I'm insulted by those mindless Neanderthals our school calls 'jocks'." His tone was icy. Mercedes just now realized her mistake.
"Baby boy, you know that's not what I meant. All I'm saying is that you need to open your eyes. You hate Puck as much as I do."
"Correction: I hated Puck, emphasis on the –ed." He doesn't know when or how it happened but, somehow, his view of Noah Puckerman changed. He wasn't the mindless Neanderthal 'puck' anymore. He was the surprisingly respectful and kindhearted 'Noah' now. He wasn't going to let Mercedes get him down. He was honestly happy now. If she couldn't see that, then she didn't deserve to be in his life anymore.
It killed him to say as much. "If you can't accept my new-found romance, then maybe we shouldn't be best friends."
Mercedes face fell. She couldn't believe she was hearing this. "You…c-can't be serious, Kurt. After all we've been through, you're going to just drop me like that? Over a boy?"
"If that means keeping my relationship, then yes; we can't be friends if you can't accept this. I really like him, Mercedes. You of all people should just be happy for me." Kurt was practically begging her to see reason. He didn't want to lose his best friend, but what else could he do?
"He's already changing you, Kurt." Her eyes started to water. "Just don't come to me when this all blows up in your face."
With that, she was gone.
*End Flashback*
In a way, maybe Mercedes was right. This did blow up in Kurt's face. Not that he was going to let her know it. He had way too much pride for that.
Since that day, Kurt's best friend was Rachel. Shocking? Of course, but she was the only one to completely support his relationship with Noah from the get go. Plus, Kurt could never deny the drastic similarities between him and the fashionably challenged soprano. Both their final destinies pointed towards the Broadway stage in New York. That alone was enough to permit their friendship.
Speaking of Ms. Berry, she was quick to meet Kurt.
"What's wrong?" Rachel asked. Kurt was looking paler than usual; not even his moisturizing routine could fix his sunken face.
"Nothing, Rachel." Kurt answered. He was really hoping to keep this embarrassment to himself, but that didn't look like it was going to happen.
"Kurt, you're my best gay. You know you can trust me with anything."
"I'd rather keep this to myself." Rachel wasn't the best at keeping secrets. Although she had good intentions, almost anything private she was supposed to keep to herself exploded out in the most dramatic way possible.
However, Rachel wasn't one to give up so easily. "You look depressed, Kurt. Want me to give you my therapist's number? He's greatly helped both of my two gay dads. He can help you too!"
"Rachel," Kurt began, his voice loud enough to gather the surrounding student's attention. "Enough is enough. I said no. Leave me alone." With that, Kurt stormed off leaving a stupefied Rachel behind.
As Kurt fumed down the hall and turned the corner, something caught his eye on the opposite side of the hallway: a Mohawk and a Letterman jacket. Suddenly, Kurt went numb. Blue-green eyes made contact with chocolate-brown ones. Time slowed down. The world could have ended right there, and neither of the two boys would have noticed; they were lost in each other's eyes.
Rachel caught up with Kurt, insistent on finding out what's wrong. She looked up at Kurt in wonder at his sudden stunned physique. Looking down the hall at what Kurt was staring at, she immediately understood. Noah and Kurt were having complications. Her heart clenched at the thought. Nobody would ever say so, but Rachel Berry was very observant. She was also psychic, well at least she believed she was. Mixing those two gifts together gave Rachel a fantastic ability, the ability to see true love. And what Noah and Kurt had, was true love. She knew this the moment they first got together, solidifying her and Kurt's friendship, and this heartfelt look only proved her opinion right. It'll be a tragedy if what they have ends. She knew for a fact that Kurt would be broken, reverting to his earlier state of shutting everyone out.
Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down,
Noah couldn't handle this stare-down and dropped his gaze. It was screwing with his head and making him feel worse than he already did.
He cared about Kurt; that was undeniable. Twenty-four hours ago, Puck believed he was unconditionally and completely in love with Kurt. He was his princess; he never felt anything similar, not even for his best friend's girl. What changed? He flipped out. He couldn't handle another guy's dick, even if that dick was as pretty as Kurt's. Fuck, why was this so hard? Was he having regrets? Yes. The only question was whether he was having regrets over freezing up or having regrets over his relationship with Kurt.
Puck raged off. He shoved a nearby freshman into the lockers, something he hadn't done since he started dating Kurt. He blinked away his unshed tears and took off in the direction of the locker room, away from Kurt.
Now I don't know what to be without you around.
