Just a little something before you read.
I know that this chapter isn't very good. Like I mentioned before I'm not very good at writing but I do hope to get better with practice.
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Chapter Two: Courage
"Oh man, this blows." Kevin slammed his text book shut and buried his face in his arms on top of his desk. He recalled his previous words from yesterday, "After a whole year, I'm finally gonna make my move guys." He sighed, "Yeah nice one Kev, but easier said then done. Man, this really sucks." The red head couldn't bring himself to focus at all. He couldn't get his mind off the beanie wearing nerd for anything. He let out a grunt, the teen was beyond frustrated. He had no idea how to go about seeing the dork this weekend. All he knew was that he had to come up with something before the end of the day. The jock sighed and shifted himself back up into a slouching position. "Come on, think...there has to be something."
Kevin turned his attention to the window beside him since trying to retain anything today was obviously pointless. His eyes brightened as he caught sight of the raven haired nerd. A slight smile graced the red head's lips as his eyes followed the dork who was desperately trying to keep up in gym class. The football player let a small chuckle escape him as he watched Double Dweeb slump over from exhaustion.
"Is there something you would like to share with the class Mr. Barr?" Kevin's eyes darted back to the front of the classroom before promptly averting them elsewhere to avoid his teachers irritated gaze. "Mr. Barr?" He persisted. Kevin rolled his eyes.
"No sir, nothing. My bad." The red head nervously rubbed the back of his neck, eager to get the attention off of himself. The teacher sighed at the young boy's unfavorable mannerisms before turning back to the board.
"Very well, Mr. Barr. But please do pay attention." He stated as he proceeded to write on the chalk board. "You all have a very important exam coming up this Monday and it would be in your best interest to study this weekend as best you can." Kevin breathed out a very unenthusiastic, "Will do, sir." before his eyes shot up in excitement.
"That's it! I've got it!" Exclaimed the red headed jock, jumping up from his desk.
"Mr. Barr!" The teacher warned. Kevin froze and slumped back down into his seat as he pulled his hat down over his face. "Whoops.."
"Sorry...again." Still, Kevin's excitement remained. He finally had a plan to get the Double Dork to talk to him. Sure, he had been a bit rough towards him for the past year and a half but I mean it's not like the dweeb hated him or anything, and he was so nice, there was no way this wouldn't work out. A sure fire plan. An oversized, confident grin stretched over the red head's face as he thought about the little nerds reaction to his request.
The minute the bell sounded off, Kevin was already out of the classroom. Lunch was the only period that Kevin and the dork had together, which was obvious seeing as Double Dork was super smart and in all the advanced classes.
"Hey, Kev! Wait up, dude!" Kevin slowed down a bit at the sound of Nazz calling out to him. But he was just too fidgety and couldn't wait any longer to get to the cafeteria.
"Sorry Nazz, but I gotta hurry! I'll see ya at lunch!" And with that he sped off to meet the raven haired dweeb. Kevin couldn't help but feel somewhat nervous, he hadn't said more than two words to the dork in an entire year. The smitten red head had surely tried on multiple occasions, but each time he fell short of what to talk about. Unfortunately, Kevin being Kevin, he usually filled in those blank spaces of not knowing what to say with some sort of insult. "Jeez, real smooth Kev." He shook the thoughts of the past out of his head, he didn't have time to be thinking about all that right now. At the moment, all that mattered was- BAM! Kevin bounced back a bit after colliding with another student.
"Ouch, hey! Watch it will ya!?" The red head shouted irritably while picking his back pack up from the floor and dusting it off a bit before slinging it back over his shoulder. Shifting his eyes to the idiot who had just cost him some valuable time with the object of his affections, he blushed. "Shit, no way."Down on the floor was the pale, beanie wearing nerd, picking up all of the books and papers Kevin had just knocked out of his thin little arms. The jock face palmed. "Of fucking course it would be Double D, right? Oh, man." The red head dragged his hand down his face as he let out a defeated sigh.
"I do apologize. I will be sure to pay closer attention to my surroundings next time I assure you." The nerd uttered the words nervously as he collected all of his things. The raven haired boy stood up, dusted off his knees and brought his gaze up to meet Kevin's. The dork's eyes widened after locking with the red head's sea green orbs. A deep red spread quickly across the nerd's face and he immediately dropped his gaze to the jock's feet instead. Pulling his beanie down lower Eddward nervously spat out, "Um..uh, I am terribly sorry about this...w-well, I must be off now, goodbye." Before Kevin could fit a word in Double D was gone, lost in the crowd of kids.
"What just happened here?" Kevin tried to wrap his head around the events that had just taken place. Was the little dork afraid of him or something? Maybe he was wrong and his harsh actions really had caused this guy to hate him. "Fuck." Suddenly he was ticked off and without a second thought the jock ran after Double Dweeb. He spotted the raven haired teen's beanie in the midst of the crowd. Pushing and shoving his way past the other kids he finally caught up.
The nerd felt a tug on his shoulder and jumped which must have caught Kevin by surprise because he jumped too. Eddward immediately spun around and proceeded to stare at the red head in what seemed to be half confusion and half disbelief. Once again eyeing the floor the nerd spoke up, "S-salutations, Kevin. I must say this is quite unexpected. D-did our run in from earlier leave us with some unfinished business?" The dweeb looked back up at the red head with a certain shyness that threatened the football players composure.
Kevin closed his eyes and clenched his teeth as well as his fist as he put all he could into not turning bright red in front of the dork for the thousandth time. He took a deep breath and then spoke. "Nah man, if anything I should be the one to apologize for that. It was totally my fault, I was way too caught up thinking about…" He stopped himself. "Man, that was close." -the upcoming test I have for Geometry next Monday." He exhaled nervously. "Yeah, nice save bro." The dork's eyes softened a bit and slowly became sympathetic.
This was good, right? That look was a good look, right? He continued, "Yeah, I'm really in trouble. I need to pass that test or I'll get cut from the team…but I can't learn all that material on my own, ya know? I'm just not as smart as some people." The red head looked up at the raven haired nerd to see if his little speech was still working. I mean it's not like anything he mentioned wasn't true. He really did need help if he wanted to pass, but he would be lying if he said that he wasn't extra motivated to use this as an opportunity to get closer to Double D.
Eddward gave the boy a look over. "Hmm." The nerd thought to himself. He was obviously still a bit suspicious of Kevin's true intentions. Back in the day, Eddward had thought that he and the red head could have been seen as friends of some sort. Of course not very good friends, Eddward would have hardly been his favorite person, but they never really seemed to have anything against one another except for when the other Ed's were involved (which they usually were.) But all the same. So when Kevin started being excessively awkward and rude to him, he was taken a bit by surprise. Half of him knew it was only to be expected but the other half was hurt by the sudden harshness bestowed upon him.
After their entire freshman year had passed without any kind of improvements to Kevin's new found coldness, Eddward gave up on ever being able to socialize with Kevin normally again. Truth be told, Eddward had actually developed somewhat of a crush on the athlete. It wasn't news to Double D that he found men attractive. He had figured that out about himself during his middle school years. But being interested in Kevin was something the raven haired boy had tried to avoid at all costs. I mean he had no chance with a guy like Kevin. He was just so popular and Eddward wasn't. Besides, the jock had made it clear on more than one occasion that the Ed's drove him crazy, and Eddward happened to be one of them. He told himself for two years that it was just feelings of friendship and that he couldn't help that he found the boy attractive. But each time he saw the red head, he caught himself staring at his handsome features, wanting to know so much more about him, and getting lost in those mesmerizing sea green orbs.
Still, his feelings didn't fully hit him until the summer going into their freshman year. Kevin had just started dating Nazz and the news hit him like a ton of bricks. Eddward could recall the deep, sick feeling in the pit of his stomach after hearing the news as well as the wave of unexpected tears that wouldn't stop spilling out from his eyes that night. The next morning Eddward had given in to his feelings, and even though he knew it would be painful, he endured it.
Even now, after being so cold toward him, Eddward still had feelings for the jock. He couldn't help it, no matter what Kevin did, there was something about him that kept pulling Double D right back into him. But the two of them hadn't actually had a conversation in so long, this sudden change in Kevin was highly suspicious. He had no idea what to make of it. And while he wanted to protect himself from getting his hopes up yet again just to be let down, the fact that Kevin was turning to him in his time of need made Eddward feel positively jubilant.
The dork blushed, "Well Kevin, as you may know, I am very well versed in Geometry as well as other subjects. If you would like, I could spend this weekend helping you prepare for this upcoming exam." He pulled his beanie down lower to cover his redness, "T-that is, if you wouldn't mind me..." The nerd hadn't looked up at him once throughout his entire response and it made Kevin wonder if his request was a bother, but he quickly dismissed the thought. This was no time to be unsure. He wanted to spend time with Double Dweeb and it was going to happen whether it bothered the dork or not.
The red reached out and cupped the nerds chin. Lightly he brought Double D's face up to meet his own and smirked as a satisfying, crimson blush deepened on the raven haired boy's face. His bright blue eyes sparkled up at Kevin.
It took all Kevin had to not pounce that beanie wearing dork right then and there. But he had some self control and he held himself back. "He is so fucking cute. Fuck. Fuck. Fu-" "K-Kevin?" The gap toothed boy asked nervously. The red head snapped back from his thoughts and let out a gentle chuckle, releasing the boys chin.
"I would like that a lot Double Dork." The red head smiled and patted the dweeb on the head. "I'll see you at my place; tomorrow night, five o'clock. Got it?" The nerd only looked up at him and nodded shyly. "Why the fuck was he this cute? I mean, I always knew he was cute but today he is just fucking adorable! I can't take it, man."
The jock rubbed the back of his neck nervously, the Double Dork always brought out the loser in him. "Sweet. I'll see you then, Double D." Eddward's eyes lit up instantly as he watched Kevin walk away. He had just called him 'Double D'. He hadn't called him that in a long time. He missed it...really missed it. The raven haired boy felt a sudden closeness with Kevin that he hadn't felt in years. Maybe he was just thinking too much about it. "Kevin was just being normal. He needs a study partner for this big exam that is all there is to it. Don't get your hopes up Eddward. This doesn't mean anything." But no matter how hard the nerd tried, he just couldn't get rid of the big gap toothed smile that was spread across his face in that moment.
"Hey Kev!" Nazz waved to him from across the cafeteria and pulled Nat along behind her as she made her way over to Kevin.
"Sup Nazz, how goes it Nat?" He inquired. The small blonde girl couldn't help but notice the incredibly wide, confident and self-assured smile plastered on her best friends face. She giggled and slapped him on the back.
"What's that look for, Kev?" Nazz joked. Nat looked over, also interested in what had caused his best friend to have such a look on his face. "Let me guess," The green haired boy and Nazz shot a knowing glance between themselves and smirked. "it has something to do with Double D, right?" Kevin's smile only grew wider with her question and she let out an excited squeal as she jumped up and brought the red head into an enormous hug. "I'm so proud of you, dude! I knew you had it in you!" Nat patted his friend on the back and smiled at him.
As far as Kevin was concerned this day couldn't get any better and his relationship with Double Dork could only get go up from here on out. Nazz let go of the football player and began to ask him all kinds of questions about the conversation that took place between him and Double D and with every new answer he gave her, she let out another ear piercing squeal of excitement.
With all of his previous nervousness out the window, and his date (well at least that's what he wanted it to be..) in place, the red head couldn't help but begin laughing uncontrollably with his friends. He felt as if a weight had been lifted right off his shoulders and it felt great.
