Face To Face
I quickly snubbed out my cigarette as Andreas drove up. "Hey!" I smiled as I hopped in.
"Hey yourself. You excited?" I fidgeted with my wristband and fingerless glove before nodding. "Great. The guys will be so surprised." His grin was a mile wide.
I gave him one of my many fake, practiced ones. "I bet they will be."
As we made our way to the front of the stage I saw Bill poke his head out to watch the growing crowd. I giggled to myself and thought, Same old Bill.
As the concert got flowing, so did the crowd. Andreas pulled my frail body in front of his own, strong one, protecting me. Tom looked down and winked at his friend, who's arms were on either side of me. My breath hitched slightly as I tried to shake the feeling of being forgotten.
As everyone was cheering at the end of the concert we made our way back stage. "Hi Andreas!" Tobi greeted.
"Hi Tobi, can we go back there now?" We both flashed our passes.
"Sure thing. The guys should be happy." He smiled at Andreas and gave me a polite nod.
You could still hear all the girls screaming and crying. How so much had changed. "Andi!" Tom called. "Come over here!" He embraced his friend. I stood off to the side and the dreaded teen noticed. He waggled his eyebrows. "Who's your friend?"
Andreas looked at me and I nodded, holding back the tears that threatened to surface. "Hey Bill, get your skinny ass over here!"
"I'm coming!" He jogged over. "What's up?" He flashed a quick look in my direction, did a double take, shook his head and looked back to his friend.
"Guys." Andreas pulled me into the small circle. "Do you remember Star?" Realization dawned in Bill's eyes. Meanwhile it took a few seconds before Tom's face looked like his brother's.
"Oh my god!" Bill spoke in a breathy voice. "How are you?"
A stray tear fell. I shook my head as I looked towards Andreas. "I'm sorry." I whispered. "I thought I could do this, but I can't." He made a grab for my wrist, causing my studded wrist band and glove to fall off. "Please?" I asked and he nodded, letting go.
As I was walking away I felt someone's eyes on me. Soon a set of long fingers grabbed my bare wrist. I felt his fingers brushed over the scars and fresh scabs. I turned to face Bill, slightly angry. He just looked at me sadly and asked, "Why?"
I turned and ran. I just kept running and running. Soon all I could see was one foot falling before the other replaced it. After a while I stopped and sat on the sidewalk, shivering. When did it get so cold? I thought.
Someone plopped down beside me. "Fuck, you're a fast one." A breathless bill spoke, bringing my shaking body into his embrace.
Just then a dark vehicle pulled up. "What the hell are you doing Bill?" An irrate Saki asked, jumping out of the vehicle.
"Sorry," He sighed, looking slightly irritated. "Saki, this is my old friend, Star. Could you maybe take us back to the hotel?" Saki nodded, as if he could ever understand. We rode there in awkward silence. I squashed as far as possible to the door, trying to make the distance between me and my former best friend greater. "Please look at me Star." He begged, tears threatening to steal his composure.
I shot him a side glance, taking in his wind tousled hair and slightly smudged makeup. I quickly turned back to face the front when he caught me looking. I heard him sigh and lean back against the leather.
When we reached the room I finally spoke when I heard the door click shut. "Why are you at a hotel?"
"Relatives were staying at our place so we told mum we'd stay here until they left." I nodded. He got a pained look on his face. "I'm so sorry Star." He sat down with his face in hi hands. I just stood there watching him. Eventually he looked up. "We said we'd never forget you. Why didn't you call or something?"
This made me really angry. "Fuck you. I did call. I did email! All my calls reached dead numbers. All my emails were returned, saying the email address no longer existed. I heard about what you guys were up to through Andreas and the media!" I shouted, trying not to cry.
He got a gob-smacked look on his face. "We never gave you the new numbers and email?" I just shook my head. "Man, are we dumb-asses." He pulled me to sit beside him. "Please forgive me?"
I looked into his eyes, allowing him a window to my soul. "Bill, you forgot me. How am I supposed to forgive you for that? You abandoned me when I needed you most!"
He traced my scars. "Will you please tell me why?
I sighed. "Ok. Shortly after our last phonecall my dad left us. I tried calling you, I knew you'd understand but your numbers were already changed. I started getting bullied at school because we were broke. The first time I cut myself was one day after school when I had gotten beat up. They laughed at me between the punches, laughing while telling me you guys weren't here to protect me anymore."
He traced the one scar, the one of their symbol. "I'm sorry. I'm so, so, sorry." He kept muttering.
"It is my release. It's how I cope with life."
I looked directly into his dark eyes. Slowly he pulled away his fingerless glove. "I used to cut too." I saw the star shaped scar and started to cry. "I'm sorry I left you behind."
We sat in an embrace for a long time. No words were spoken but surprisingly, the silence wasn't awkward. After a little while I pulled away. "I better get going."
"Can I come with you?"
"No!" I answered a little to quickly and he looked hurt. "I don't want you to see where I have to live. You don't have to see the piece of shit let alone the crack-heads that stay there."
He just looked at me before handing me a piece of paper. "Call. Whenever you need to talk it doesn't matter, just call." He hugged me again, leaning his forehead against mine. "I'm sorry." With that I left.
XXX
"Where were you?" Mom shouted as I quietly walked into the door. "Your sisters were home three hours ago!"
I pulled my sleeve over my itching wrist. 'I was talking to Bill. We had a lot of catching up to do."
She looked surprise for a second. "Oh really. How are the boys these days?"
"Fine. Mom, I'm exhausted. Can we talk later?" She nodded. "Goodnight."
Slowly I dragged my feet to the smell, cramped bedroom I shared with my sisters. "Hey Sammy." Annie sat up with a huge grin. "How are the guys?"
I rolled my eyes and went into the bathroom. I searched the medicine cabinet. Found them! I mentally cheered, holding the bottle of sleeping pills triumphantly. I quickly popped three into my mouth and washed them down with some tap water. Lately I need to take more just to get sleepy. Before they could take over I grabbed a razor and went to put it in my pocket. My fingers brushed over the piece of paper Bill had given me. Slowly I replaced the razor, maybe this hard reunion was for the better.
XXX
I walked into the school on Monday, trying to be strong. The leader of the plastics walked up, scrutinizing my outfit choice of the day. I was wearing my new Tokio Hotel shirt (I still had to support the guys!), my black skinny jeans, my studded belt, as well as my regular fingerless gloves and wrist bands. I was also adorned in jewelry.
"Hey Cinderella. Looks like Prince Charming is back in town. Better get him before the clock strikes twelve." She smirked over her shoulder as she walked away. I could here her clones giggling as I pushed past.
I sighed and sat down heavily at lunch. My tray hit the table with a loud clatter. As I was eating my apple Brandon, the football team's captain, walked up. "Hey Sam. We used to be friends. Wanna suck me too? Maybe you'll worm your way into my room too!"
The cafeteria erupted in laughter. "Piss off." I spoke to my pudding.
"What was that? Right now? Are you sure, I mean, in front of all these people?" He smirked as the room erupted in laughter once again. Someone squealed in the background but I payed no attention. "Come on Sammy, You know you want me." His face was mere centimeters from my own.
Just then he was abruptly pulled away. "Keep the fuck away from her." Andreas threatened in a low voice while Tom delivered a blow to his stomach.
Bill sat down beside me and wiped away the tears that fell. "Why are they doing this to me?" I asked, definitely not expecting the answer I got.
"I'm sorry." He wrapped me in his arms. "It's all because of me." He placed a tabloid on the table. I sniffed before reading.
KAULITZ' NEW GIRL
Bill Kaulitz, lead singer of the sensational band Tokio Hotel, has been spotted with someone who could very well be his new girlfriend. Kaulitz has been rumored to be homosexual because of his makeup, hair, and clothing choices. The pictures on page 6 suggest he is in fact, a heterosexual. (Turn to Page 6)
I looked at him briefly before turning the page. Right away the pictures jumped out at me. The first one was of us running. You couldn't see my face but the look on Bill's was determination. It almost looked like we were playing tag.
The next one we were sitting on the sidewalk with his arms around me.
In the last one it was a picture of our backs. We were walking down the hotel hallway. Bill was slightly ahead. I blushed lightly as I realized what it must've looked like to everyone else.
I leaned my head against his chest. "It's not your fault Bill." I sighed inwardly as he rested his chin on top of my head. "It's the stupid paps."
We sat like that until Tom gave an awkward cough. We separated almost instantly, brought out of our stupors. "Care to skip your afternoon classes? It's the weekend!" I nodded in reply to Tom's question.
"But I need to babysit from three-thirty until six tonight." The nodded this time.
"So we'll drop you off and pick you up so we can hang out later." I agreed enthusiastically. "Let's go." Both the twins grabbed one of my hands, pulling me to my feet.
Just then the warning bell went. I threw away my left overs and we started walking to the doors. Andreas and I have the same class after lunch. As we walked by the door our teacher poked his head out the door. "Andreas, Sam, where are you going?"
"Run!" Andreas shouted as we made a break for it.
We made it outside and I looked around. "Where to from here?"
The twins grabbed my hands once again. "Saki is waiting in the car." We walked to the parking lot.
When we got to the dark car Andreas opened the door. "There's only three seats." I pointed out. "Who's going to sit in the front? Not me!"
The three of them all answered at the same time. "I have an idea." Bill announced with his smile growing. "Star can sit on my lap."
"Ok." We all agreed it would be fine.
"Are you sure you're OK?" I asked for the tenth time in five minutes. "Am I hurting you're legs?"
"No, you're not!" He sighed, leaning back against the cool leather.
Just then the bodyguard took a corner particularly viciously. I slipped off Bill's lap, across Andreas', and onto Tom's all the while giggling like crazy. "Hey beautiful." Tom smirked.
I rolled my eyes. "Hey dumb-ass." We hit a few bumps when I got a great idea. "Eww Tomi, quite thinking like that!"
"Thinking like what?" He asked, confused.
"I will not have a three-some with you and Bill." Both the twins looked horrified as Andreas and I tried not to laugh.
"We are fucking brothers!" They both exclaimed at the same time.
"Oh I bet you are." I snorted, despite my best efforts.
"You are twisted." Tom shook his head.
"Where are we going?" I asked.
"Wait and see." They covered my eyes. Once they were uncovered I grinned like crazy. "It's the big-mac you like, with a medium fries and vanilla milkshake right?" Bill asked.
"Oh my god! I can't believe you remembered I love McDonald's!" I hugged him. "Thank you so much. You guys are the best." We ate happily before they took us to our next destination.
Author's notes:
Another chappy, and a long 1 at that! I've written this in my spare time (usually in math class ;-) Hope ur liking the story!
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Becky
