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A/N: As Ginny Weasley is around, I cant be held responsible for eating her. She is rather delicious. ENJOY CHAPTER 2!

"Did you sleep with him?"

"Yes, Lily I did. I lost my virginity to someone who I was not in love with and it was probably the worst mistake of my life."

I could't wait to get out of the Red Room, as soon as the deed was done and Neville had fallen asleep I grabbed my clothes and sprinted, with some difficulty, to my dorm. I cried all night.

When I woke up the morning I could barely move because I was so sore, the only relief I could find was to curl up into a tight ball and stay there.

Despite the best effort of my friends I felt no better by dinner time, the soreness has eased, but the feeling of guilt hadn't. I felt awful because of what I had done to Neville. To him the night before had gone spectacularly, I wasn't looking forward to telling him that there wasn't going to be a repeat performance. I also felt guilty for Harry, having used Neville in order to get his attention wasn't something I'd ever thought I'd do. I'd betrayed him, and that feeling of betrayal was something new and I absolutely hated it, but it was the only way forward. Then the feeling of shame hit me like a tidal wave, I felt dirty and horrible but it was nothing compared to how disgusted at myself I was for betraying the man I loved.

The dorm was empty and a short, sharp knock awoke me from my musings. Without uttering a word, Hermione strode in with her robes billowing behind her. Her eyebrows furrowed in a look of disbelief mixed with intense curiosity. She pulled back the covers.

"This isn't what I meant when I said: 'Get Harry's attention."

"What do you mean?" I opened my eyes and waited for Hermione to explain further. Hermione sat down on the edge of my bed. She sighed.

"I just overheard Neville telling Harry about you two, last night."

I heaved myself up so I was leaning against the solid wooden headboard.

"Yes, and?" I retorted.

"Oh Gin, what have you done? I want to hear it from you, I want the truth."

Hermione's stern glare was fixed on me, I suddenly felt like a seven year old child again.

"I slept with him." I began quietly, I saw her eyes widen slightly at my confirmation. "I found a room on the seventh floor, it just came out of nowhere and it was like Hogwarts was encouraging me."

"The Room of Requirement." I heard Hermione state. "And is that the way you wanted to lose your virginity? To get to Harry?"

I shrugged nonchalantly, stood up and got dressed. Hermione just rolled her eyes and left the room and only then could I breath a sigh of relief.

Harry's eyes never left mine as I entered the Great Hall for lunch, I smiled a little as I sat down. Ron was completely oblivious to anything that didn't involve food so he just nodded at me and continued shovelling food into his mouth. All throughout the meal I noticed that Harry kept throwing glances in my direction, the barely-there smile never left my face every time I caught him.

I thought that my plan was working until he cornered me that evening and told me that if I was happy with Neville then he was happy for both of us.

In my head i was screaming.

"NO NO NO NO I DONT WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY FOR ME! I WANT YOU TO FIGHT FOR ME! "

I gave him my brightest smile and brushed passed him to get up the stairs to the girls dorm.

I'll have to up my game.