How could you leave me with a broken heart
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AN: I got a lot of people asking me to continue so I will, but its not going to be a long story maybe 5 or 6 chapters maybe more who knows but for now that's where its at. Thankx to every1 for all the comments you guys rock!!
Chapter 2:
RPOV:
5 ½ months later……
It has been almost six months since Dimitri left me and not a day goes by that I don't think of him, that I don't wonder what he is doing and if he is as happy as I am. I rolled over in my bed to see Adrian smiling at me, "Why are you looking at me like that? Is there something wrong with my face?" He just sat there looking at me, then I heard a knock at my door and thought who the hell is at my door so damn early? "You want to get it or should I?" Adrian said. "I'll get it, it's my door and beside I don't want anyone looking at my half naked boyfriend." I said with my famous man eater smile. "Oh you're half naked boyfriend huh; I like the sound of that. But what makes you think I want people seeing my dead sexy half naked girlfriend?" After he said that he pulled me back down to the bed we started to get lost in each other when whatever asshole on the other side of the door knocked again. "Fine we can both answer the door half naked, does that make you feel better?" I said with a small smile on my face, he just got up and pulled me to the door. We stood in front of the kissing as I opened it with my back to the door; Adrian opened his eyes to see who it was and then just stop everything. I tried to keep kissing him but he wouldn't move so I turned around to see who was standing there man I hope it isn't my mom. I stopped dead in mid-turn because I already saw that it wasn't my mom, I turned back around and put my face into Adrian's chest and whispered, " Adrian please make him go away, I cant do this not now not ever please please please make him leave." I hadn't realized I was crying till Adrian pulled me away from him and he kissed me with so much love that I almost forgot that I was standing half in naked in front of my open dorm door with Dimitri watching us. I pulled away he looked into Adrian's beautiful green eyes and saw the hurt and pain in there, that made me think about what my own face must look like because he got these kinds of looks if I looked sad or in pain. And in truth I was in pain I felt like I was going die, Dimitri came back and was standing in my door way and I couldn't even look at him because when I did I felt my heart die.
Adrian pull me into his chest and turned both of us so we could look at Dimitri and said, "Hey Belikov how ya doing?" Dimitri didn't say anything he just sat there with a pained look on his face and it was killing me to see that much pain on his beautiful but it was there. So when Dimitri didn't say anything Adrian continued, " Sorry if me and little Dhampir would have known you would be stopping by we might have put on some on before we answered the door, but then again the look on your face is kind of worth it." He kissed me again on my neck and when on to say something, but I didn't catch it because I was watching Dimitri's face go for pained to hurt to pissed and I knew that this wasn't going to end well so I stepped in and said, " Adrian that's enough he knows what he did and I know it's killing him to see me like this with you but please don't piss him off that's not right and if he tries to kick your ass I wont be able to stop him so just let it go please." The whole time I spoke I watched Dimitri's face go back to the hurt and pained look that he had in the beginning. Everyone was quite for a minute then Adrian spoke up, "I already know where this is going to go, so before you say anything I'll just leave now. I don't want to be here when you two kiss and make up." I turned around so fast my head felt like it was still spinning I ran to where Adrian was putting his clothes on and said, " Adrian please don't leave me you promised you would never leave me, please don't go I cant do this without you I need you Adrian." With the tears running down my face he turned and looked at me with such pain in his eyes he had his own tears on his face when he said, "Rose you love him I know that, I know that you care about me but you'll love me and I can't just sit here and watch this." He pointed around the room, " I just can't do it Rose and I'm sorry I its going to hurt you but you'll get over it quick, I know I was just standing in till Belikov came back I always knew he would come back because his own love for you was to strong for him to stay away I just didn't think it would be so soon." I just sat there completely lost the only thing I could think was that I loved Adrian and that I couldn't lose him. I stepping closer to Adrian and put my hands on both side of his face and looked right into his eyes and said, " Adrian I love you and I don't want to lose you. I meant it was I said you were my world I make me feel happy loved, these past 5 months had been some of the most amazing months of my life. And it would have never been that way if you hadn't been here and if you didn't love me; your love means so much to me. I need you here with me because it is the only way I can make it threw any of this please don't leave me Adrian I love you." Adrian looked down into my eyes and said, "Rose I have to I'm sorry, but I love you too. And you know you never told me that you loved me before and maybe if you had I would be staying here with you but I think that you would say anything right now to get me to stay, but I don't believe that you love me just not as much as you love him." With that he took my hands off of his face and he kissed me one last pain filled kiss and walked out of my life.
I fell to the floor and cried, I felt like I was dying all over again and this time I knew I was alone. I would never be happy again and I would die alone. I felt big warm arms wrap around me and I heard Dimitri saying something, "Roza I'm so sorry if I knew that you were happy here I would have never come back. This is my fault and I'm so sorry." He was right this is all his fault, "Your right this is all your damn fault if you would have never left me in the first damn place I wouldn't be so damn messed up. You want to know what it felt like when I woke up and you were gone? I felt like I was going to die , I wanted to die because you were gone I thought I would never live or love again and then Adrian found me here in this same spot and he held me and he watched me cry over you for weeks. He would hold me when I would wake up from the nightmares I had of you leavening me every night, Every night Dimitri I would wake up in tears from the nightmares I have. Adrian kept me alive and sane he made me feel like I would be ok some day, I knew how much he loved me and he promised he would never leave me and because of you now he is gone. Just like everyone else in my life everyone always leaves me, my dad, my mom, Lissa's family, you and now Adrian. I don't think I can make it threw this again Dimitri I can't do it without him and he id gone now because of you." I yelled at him and I watched the painful look grow more and more with every word that I said and it killed me even more to see the hurt I was bring to his face. " Roza I'm sorry I caused you so much hurt and pain and you are right this is my fault if I would have just stayed everything would have been fine but I can't change the past but I can change our future together. Roza I'm here and I'm not going any where I know that you that are mad at me but I love you Roza I always have and always will." I just looked down at the floor and thought about how much pain Adrian must be in and it was al because of me. I looked up into Dimitri's brown eyes and pushed him away from me, "Dimitri you need to go I don't want to see you right now." "Well Rose since I am back again I'm going to be your mentor again." I just looked at him I must have had a funny look on my face because Dimitri gave a small laugh and stood up, "It's ok Rose I'll behave myself if you really want me too." Did Dimitri fucking Belikov just make a joke? Wow never thought I would live to see this day. "Dimitri I don't know if I want you as my mentor I mean you've taught almost everything I know but I think it might be too hard for me to have to look at you everyday and not cry. It's hard to look at you now and not want to die; you've hurt me so badly I don't know if I can handle this." He looked so hurt but I had to tell him the truth, "Rose I understand you're going to need time but the flied test is in two weeks and I want to make sure that you're the best damn one out there, because I know that you could blow them all out of the water but you're head isn't here right now I need to get you back to where you can do this. Please Rose just let me be you're mentor I meant it, if you only want this to be student and teacher then that's what it will be. But we both need to you to do you're best to make sure that you will be giving Lissa because right now that isn't how it's going to end up." I stood up and still had to look up into his eyes and I saw it he was telling me the truth I would lose Lissa if I didn't beat the hell out of everyone else's scores.
There was no way in hell I would lose Lissa because of any of this she is the most important person in all of this. "Fine but can we start practice on Monday I need the weekend to get my shit together and clear my head, Because I won't let any of this put Lissa's life in danger or mess up my future as her guardian that's the only sure thing in my life right now and I won't just let it go." "Ok Roza Monday is fine but I need you to work the hardest you've ever worked. Ok?" I just nodded because I wasn't sure if my voice would hold up anymore. Dimitri took a step closer to me and pulled me into his chest and just for a minute I let myself go and I hugged him back to look at him. "Roza are you going to be ok? I don't want to leave you if you need me I'll stay here if you want me to." I could see it in his eyes that he was hurting just as badly as I was and that he wanted me to say that it was all ok and that I needed him to stay, and part of me really wanted to do all that but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. All I could that was how could you leave me with a broken heart, how can I get things to where I need them to be? Maybe one night in Dimitri's arms would be enough to bring me back to life, or maybe it would just make everything way harder then I needed it to be. Things were never this hard with Adrian, god I miss him I wish I was in his arms right now. In the end I told Dimitri that I needed to be alone and if I let him stay it would just confuse me even more. He took it well and kissed me on the cheek and left.
I sat in my room and thought about how I would do anything to get Adrian back in my life, and then I thought how funny life can be. Just 5 months ago I was sitting in the very same place I was now thinking about how I would give anything to have Dimitri back in my life, and now that he was here I couldn't think of anyone but my amazingly sexy and smart Adrian. I never would have thought that I would ever have to pick between my deadly sexy god like Russian, or my amazingly sexy drunken Moroi. And now that it comes down to it I just don't know if I can ever pick one I need both of them in my life, or do I? When I was with Adrian I felt so alive and loved and I knew that he loved me and with Adrian we never had to hide how we felt about each other, but with Dimitri we will always have to hide how we feel. After about three hours of thinking I knew who I wanted to be with I knew I could never live without. So I got up and took a shower and got dressed and left my room and walked across the campus till I got to the room that I needed to be at. I knocked on the door a couple of times before he opened up when he saw it was me there was a small smile on his face. I put my hands on either side of his face and pulled him down to me and I kissed him with all the love I could put into that one kiss. When I pulled back I saw the wondrous look of love in his eyes. I pulled my self up and made him hold me while I wrapped my arms and legs around his body and I looked right into his eyes and said , " Adrian I love you and you're the one I could never live without."
