Hey everyone! I actually got a few reviews on this? I was shocked! So I will continue doing this, so here's the deal: each chapter will be a Christian songfic about a hard struggle that Clare is going through. When She Cries was about cutting, Beautiful For Me is when Clare goes Goth thinking that Eli will like her better, Courage is about an eating disorder, and Place in This World is based on Clare's promo line: "I don't know who I am!", READ ON!

(DISCLAIMER: I do not own Degrassi or any of the songs I use!)


Every girl young and old has to face her own reflection,

Twirl around, stare it down: What's the mirror gonna say

With some luck, you'll measure up

But you might not hold a candle to the rest

Is that your best? Says the mirror to the mess

Clare woke up and got out of bed wearily. After she got a shower, she searched in her closet for something to wear.

It was finally the weekend and Clare could wear what she wanted instead of the Degrassi uniform. She picked out a blue tank with a denim jacket. She pulled on a pair of skinny jeans

and turned around to face her worst enemy: the mirror. She loosened her top a little and tried to stretch her jeans.

I look too normal. I want to be beautiful! Clare thought, pouting.

She texted Eli to meet her at the park and they spent the day together hanging out, eating ice cream. Clare only pretended to eat some, trying desperately not to actually eat any.

"Dontcha like ice cream, Saint Clare?" Eli teased.

Clare blushed and nodded. "I don't feel too well. I'm so sorry," She apologized.

"No problem! You should've told me!" Eli said, helping her sit down in Morty.

"Eli, when you look at me, what do you see?" Clare asked suddenly.

Eli turned to face her and smiled at her. "You are a smart, kind, loving, beautiful, caring person who I like very much." Clare's face fell and she turned away from him. He was confused, but
drove her home so she could rest.


Has anybody told you you're beautiful?

You might agree if you could see what I see

Oh Cuz everything about you is incredible

You should have seen me smile the day that I met you you're beautiful to me

Clare cried on her bed, glaring daggers at the full length mirror on her door.

That was the cause of all her problems. As she heard her phone ring, she heard Alli's signature ring: Tik Tok. "Hello?" Clare answered wearily.

"GUESS WHAT?" All squealed. "Surprise me," Clare said unenthusiastically, but if Alli noticed she didn't let on.

"I dropped two dress sizes!" Clare bit her lip and hung up on her friend.

Why her and not me? I just want to be pretty! I want Eli to love me! Clare thought.

And he will! Clare suddenly bounced off of her bed and into Darcy's room, where she dug through a box of clothes until she found the perfect outfit; Eli will NEVER know what hit him.


If it's true beauty lies in the eye of the beholder

I want my life and what's inside to give him something to behold

Clare took off her uniform in the bathroom and hurried to where she knew Eli would be switching books. She strutted up to him and smiled. He turned to her and froze.

"Hey sexy," Clare purred.

Eli squeezed his eyes shut and opened them to find she was still here. "Who are you?" He asked.

She giggled a little and twirled a bit too enthusiastically. "C'mon, wanna skip class to have some fun?" She asked, pulling his sleeve a little.

"Uh, I have a test like right now." Her face fell a little, but bounced back.

"C'mon, live dangerously!" She insisted, hanging on his arm.

"Clare, what is wrong with you?" He sputtered. She stopped dead in her tracks and stared.

"You don't look like you anymore." He said softly. She started to cry and her gobs of eyeliner started to run.

"Careful, don't get that in your eye, it hurts. Believe me, I know." Eli gently wiped her tears and led her to an abandoned bench outside school.

"I just want you to love me and think I'm beautiful!" Clare exclaimed. "And you think dressing like a streetwalker would make you look beautiful?" Eli sputtered.


Close your eyes, Look inside

Let me see the you that you've been trying to hide

Long ago, I knew you were beautiful

So I ought to know you're beautiful still

"I just thought that if I dressed this way, you'd think I'm beautiful." Clare cried harder.

Eli carefully wiped her tears and handed her his Degrassi hoodie to cover herself with.

"Clare, I already think you're beautiful!" He insisted.

She shook her head and Eli opened his arms for a hug. She fell into him and cried. Eli rubbed her head soothingly as she sobbed.

"Clare, don't you know that I love all of you? Not just your looks?" Eli asked her gently.

"I know, I just want to be beautiful on the outside!" Clare exclaimed. Eli noticed Adam coming over, along with Alli and even Drew.

"Clare! What happened?" Alli rushed over. Clare looked at Alli and started to cry all over again. Eventually the story spilled out and Adam, Drew, & Alli all hugged Clare.

"Clare, I barely know you, but even I can see what a kind and beautiful person you are. Believe me, if Alli isn't talking about herself, she raves about you." Drew said kindly. Alli shot him a

'look' and he chuckled sheepishly.

"Clare, you accepted me. You didn't care that I was an FTM, you looked past that and saw me as a person. That is something that is really beautiful in my eyes, Clare." Adam said, hugging
Clare tightly. Drew nodded in the background.

"Clare, you have been the bestest friend in the entire world! You were there for me with Johnny, through power squad drama, and even Drew drama."

Drew looked suitably guilty and Alli continued.

"I love you just the way you are, Clare bear. We all do!" All four of them nodded and Eli spoke up.

"Clare, I need you to listen." She raised her tear marked face to Eli and he continued.

"Clare, you are without a doubt inside and out, beautiful to me."

~End~

So, did that majorly suck? I kinda think it did, but eh, review and tell me differently! I really feel like Alli, Drew, Adam, Eli and Clare should all be close friends... that is just me. And I KNOW Alli left Degrassi, but in my stories, she most certainly did NOT! I am so excited for tonight's episode! I am pretty sick (throat on fire, headache, and fever), so I got to stay home from school all day! WOOT! So review and I will soon be posting more!