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Chapter 2: Platonic


"So do you think, he's attractive?" Kuroo once again pointed at a random guy we passed. It was the weekend and Kuroo and I were going around the city looking for a place to eat. I sighed.

"Why do you always have to ask? You're into guys too!" I insisted. Kuroo smiled mischievously.

"Yeah, but your strictly into guys." He stated confidently. "Do you think I'm attractive?" He then asked curiously. I felt my cheeks turn color.

"Wh-what kind of question is that?" I said hastily.

"I was just wondering~ I mean, would you want to date me? Well, if I didn't have a girlfriend that is." Kuroo is really pushing it today. I either want to punch him in the face or fiercely make out with him. Maybe both. I decided to avoid the question all together.

"You know, ever since I told you I was gay you won't stop bugging me about it. Are you trying to get me to come out?" I questioned right back.

"You coming out would be great! I'd support you every step of the way." He said. I scowled.

"Shut up, you just want to tell the team so that you can make a bunch of gay jokes about me." I complained. Kuroo gasped dramatically.

"Im not that mean! I would never!" He almost laughed. I rolled my eyes, but he's right. I know Kuroo wouldn't do anything to hurt me.

Even if I come out, nothing would change besides potentially getting made fun of by other people.

"Who would you rather date, me or Chibi-chan from Karasuno?" Kuroo asked.

"What? You mean Shouyo? Why him?" Shouyo came out as openly gay not too long ago. "I wouldn't be able to for one thing, he's already dating Tobio." I told him. Kuroo looked puzzled.

"You mean that flat haired setter of theirs? Really? I didn't know that!" Kuroo said looking generally surprised. Of course Kuroo would be the on not to know. Those two are practically all over each other every time we see them. How can anyone not know that they were into each other?

I was also really jealous when I found out that they were finally dating. Shouyo was practically in the same boat as me. We would text each other and he'd tell me all about how he had a crush on Tobio. I told Shouyo that I liked Kuroo as well. Ever since he and Tobio got together he urged me to confess my feelings for Kuroo. I always tell him that I would do it, but whenever we see each other in person I still haven't done it. My reasons now are quite obvious.

My attraction to Kuroo has not in one bit lightened up at all lately. The dream I had last night made it quite clear.

In my hazy dream stated mind, all I was aware of was the fact that i was laying on my bed. I was on my side and I couldn't move. The room was dark and the only thing i could hear was the sound of my own breathing. I suddenly felt a warm body press against my back as a pair of strong arms wrapped around me.

"Kenma..." A deep husky voice sounded in my ear. I immediately knew who it was. I felt goose bumps as I felt his warm breath on my neck.

"K-kuroo..?" I breathed almost soundlessly. His large warm palms snaked their way beneath my shirt. I felt his fingers graze my nipple. I stifled a moan by biting my lip.

What's going on? This shouldn't be happening. Why is he touching me like this?

I tried to open my mouth to say something else, but suddenly I felt his hand on my crotch. "Ack!" I gasped. The hand kneaded my growing erection. That's funny, where did my pants go? Was I even wearing any from the start?

"You've gotten excited so quickly~" he said with his all too familiar teasing voice. I didn't try to fight him. This is something I definitely want. I whined lustfully as he began stroking my shaft. I bucked my hips into that big hand of his.

It felt so good, I was already at my limit. My voice rose as I gripped the sheets desperately. "K-kuroo!" I moaned out as I came to my climax.

"Kenma! Earth to Kozume!" Kuroo's voice interrupted my thoughts and it nearly made me jump. I really should not be thinking about that now or I might pop a hard on.

"What?" I asked when he finally got my attention.

"I was asking if you wanted to eat here. I'm starved!" He pointed to a fast food place. I shrugged.

"Sure, why not." I said stiffly. My mind was still elsewhere. That dream I had was the first dream I had about Kuroo that was so…sexual. I refused to let it bother me however I could not stop thinking about it. I touched myself in the shower that morning if it wasn't already obvious.

I shook my head sub-consciously and made myself pay attention to whatever Kuroo was talking about as we approached the restaurant. Sometimes I feel like he takes me out on dates when we do this. Well at least I'd like to imagine. But this is normal for friends to do. It's nothing like taking your actual boyfriend or girlfriend out.

"Hey you still never answered my question!" Kuroo stated as we sat down to eat. "Do you find me attractive?" He pressed. I straightened immediately. Why can't he just let that go?

"That's such a conceded thing to ask, Kuroo." I evaded once more with a blank face.

"Come on, you can tell me. Don't be embarrassed by my good looks." He said making a model profile pose. I tried really hard not to laugh.

"Your so weird oh my god." I covered my face with my hand knowing that I was blushing. "If I tell you yes, would you shut up?" I said still trying not to laugh.

"Ahh! You think I'm attractive, yes!" He cheered as if he won a prize. I rolled my eyes to the umpteenth time today.

"Alright, do you think I'm attractive?" I countered hoping to make him embarrassed as well. He flashed a smirk which made my heart jump.

"I think your cute, does that count?" He offered. "Like I would totally date you type cute though. I would hug you forever." He said confidently. Why haven't you dated me then!? I wanted to scream.

"Gross, I don't want your hugs." I said instead. He gasped dramatically.

"That hurts me. That hurts me when you say things like that. Just for that, I'm gonna hug you right now." He stood up. I stood up too with my hands out.

"No, you stay over there!" I tried as I moved away. He followed me around the small table.

"I know you want it, Kenma. Don't ignore my love!" He caught me wrapping his arms around my torso and bring me close to his body. I groaned with protest as he rocked me back and forth on our feet. "Hehe, you're so short." He chuckled resting his chin on top of my head.

"'M not short, your just a giant." I said, but I could barely think straight. I basked in his warmth and smell as much as possible before he let go. Its moments like these that keep me in love with this asshole. I can never catch a break with him. I guess I just love him too much.


Another month passed and I haven't been hanging out with Kuroo as much as I use to. I could tell he's just been hanging out with his girlfriend from the way he's been talking during practice.

He seemed so happy and it made my heart ache.

Knowing that the person I adore is directing his attention to someone else. Kuroo has introduced me to her a few times. She seemed nice on the outside, but I didn't like the air around her. She made him do things for her like carry her things or buy her food. I really didn't like her but I never told him that.

Maybe I was just being jealous, but I still didn't like her.

Despite my opinions on her Kuroo really did like her. Which is why I was no prepared for what happened today.

I got a text from Kuroo on Saturday night. It was a casual text since it just said 'I'm coming over'. Its not strange for him to come over out of the blue. Sometimes he even comes to my house without telling me first. I shrugged and continued playing video games.

He arrived at my house twenty minutes later. Kuroo came into my room and casually plopped onto my bed face down. "Nice to see you too." I said not looking up from my game.

He just grumbled. I didn't know what that meant but I wasn't really paying attention. He didn't speak for another five minutes until he lazily began to push my PSP away. "Don't ignore me~" he whined. I groaned loudly.

"Whaaat, what do you want?" I said impatiently.

"Can I crash here tonight?" He asked.

"Yeah, just ask my mom though." I moved to sit on his back for a more comfortable spot. I was satisfied with the pained sound he made.

"You crushing me with your big butt." He complained.

"My butt is not big." I huffed as I spitefully moved my hips around.

"You're joking right?" He snickered.

"It's not!" I protested.

"Your ass is huge and I can prove it. Just ask anyone on our team, they'd all agree."

"Shut up, no they wouldn't!" I was starting to get flustered. "Leave my butt alone." I mumbled with puckered lips. I decided to change the subject. "What brings you here? Why do you want to stay the night so suddenly?" I asked as I got up to turn a few lights on, I didn't notice how dark it got in my room.

Kuroo heaved a big sigh. "I don't know...I'm actually really depressed right now." He admitted then put his face back in my pillow.

A sat next to him on the bed. "Why, what happened?" I asked.

"Yui and I broke up." He said flatly. My heart skipped a beat. Did I hear correctly?

"Why? Didn't you have a good thing going?" I questioned. He sighed again and looked away sadly.

"I don't know, I felt like she was just dating me because of my status as Volleyball captain." He said. "Plus she never let me do anything other than kiss her. It got really frustrating after a while. We just broke up, she's really mad at me now." He explained.

"Hmm, well girls aren't the greatest anyway." I said. Kuroo huffed.

"Easy for you to say." He pinched my side causing me to jump.

"Allow me to give you cliché break up sayings to make you feel better: There's plenty of fish in the sea, there's always darkness before dawn, if it's not meant to be it's not meant to be." I said all of that in one breath. Kuroo laughed.

"That does make me feel a little better actually." He moved over and lazily wrapped his arms around me.

"Ah! Wha?" I didn't have time to question before he was on top of me and crushing me with his weight. "I should date you, we'd be the perfect couple." He mumbled as he buried his face into my chest.

I felt like my heart stopped. "What? No way in hell." I said immediately as I struggled in his grasp.

"Why not? I'm heartbroken, have pity on me~" he whined as he squeezed me tighter.

"I'm not your backup girlfriend alright! Now let go!" As soon as I said that Kuroo's grip lessened. I stopped struggling and looked up at him. He looked a little dumbfounded then quickly averted my gaze. He let go of me then sat up.

"Oh, is that what I sound like? I'm sorry, I wasn't trying to make you feel that way." He apologized as he rubbed the back of his neck. "I know I may seem like I'm joking, I really mean it. Would you like to be my...boyfriend?" He said honestly. My heart was beating so fast it felt like it was trying to escape. I was lost for words but I manage to answer him as best as I could.

"I-I'm not sure...I mean if you're really serious about this...you would have to give me time...Y-you just went through a break up today...maybe you should wait before jumping into another relationship..." I said steadily.

"Yeah, I guess that makes sense."

"And besides, are you sure you won't get back together with her? Or maybe even find another girlfriend instead of me?" I suggested. I should be jumping at the chance of finally being with Kuroo, but right now in this situation I'm not so sure.

"No, Yui and I are done, she made it clear of that when she kicked me out of her house. And I don't think I'll be able to get another girlfriend so easily. Also I don't think it's a good idea to date people I barely know." He said thoughtfully. I didn't say anything yet. I felt awkward from the way he was speaking.

"Alright then! I'll be asking you every day until you say yes to me!" Kuroo proclaimed.

"Wh-what?" I stammered.

"That's right! I'll show you how serious I am!" He surprised me by kissing me on the cheek. My face got so red, I felt dizzy.

"Y-you're so full of it!" I said nervously. There's no way he's serious about this. I can never take this guy seriously unless it has to do with volleyball! I scowled at his stupid grin with a deep blush on my face. But deep on the inside I felt a little happy. It sounds selfish but I feel like I'm being given the attention I've yearned for.


Ugh! This fic is so lame but I wanna keep going! See you next time!