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"I think you just made the biggest mistake of your life." She said as she looked him straight in the eyes and waited for him to speak. "What?" Was all he could say. "I think you ju…" Ross interrupted her. "Phoebe I can't believe you! You're my friend! You are supposed to be supportive and happy for me. And you are so wrong! I don't care about Rachel, I love Emily!" He shouted, then walked out the door, slamming it, and walked towards his new apartment. Phoebe then went over to Joey's.

Ross got into his apartment and slammed the door. Emily was already sleeping, so he tried to be quiet getting dressed for bed. Unfortunately Emily was a very light sleeper, so she had woken up. "I'm sorry sweetie, did I wake you?"

"Ross, what's wrong?"

"Nothing."

"It's got to be something."

"Fine, it's Phoebe. She just said something that made me a little angry."

"What did she say?"

"I don't wanna talk about it. Good night." Emily turned on the light. "Ross, what did she say?" Emily had always been a prier. She wouldn't stop until she got her information. "Okay, she said she thought me getting married again was a mistake. But remember she is pregnant so she is not completely herself." He thought that would suffice. He didn't want to hurt her feelings by telling her something that wasn't really necessary. "Oh." Was all Emily said. Great that even hurt her a little bit. Emily turned out the light and they both went to sleep.

"Is Ross and Emily gone?" Rachel asked Phoebe when she came in. "Yes."

"Okay." Rachel got up and hugged her friends goodbye and said she was going back to sleep. "But Rach, you just woke up an hour ago."

"I know." Rachel left Joey's apartment. On some level, Phoebe regretted telling Rachel that telling Ross she still loved him would be a big mistake. "Wow she is really messed up." Monica stated the obvious. "I know, I feel so bad." Joey added.

Rachel walked into her room and got a box of stuff out of her closet and sat on her bed while going through it. It was the stuff that reminded her of the time she had with Ross. The fossil I took from the museum the first night we had sex. The movie stub from our first date. The birthday card he gave me. A rose petal from the bouqet of roses that he bought me the night we broke up. The necklace he gave me. God I'm so glad I didn't take it back. She continued to go through the box. When she finished, she threw the box against the wall and layed back on her bed. Not much in there. One year of memories. God this sucks! She let her eyes close, but she couldn't sleep. She wrapped herself in a blanket and walked out on the balcony.

Monica came back into her apartment when she saw Rachel sitting on the balcony. She thought she might want to be alone, but she thought that at this point Rachel really needed someone to talk to, whether she admitted it or not. "Rach honey you okay?"

"No Monica. No I'm not." She said while starting to cry. Monica wrapped her arms around Rachel and let her cry on her new shirt, which was abnormal for obsessive Monica. "Rachel I wanted you guys to be together too."

"Well give it up. That's not gonna happen!"

"Rachel why did you tell him you couldn't take him back?"

"You don't get it. You don't know how torn I felt. I wanted to take him back so bad, but what he did, I couldn't. I couldn't stop picturing him with her. Even for a month after, every time I saw him, I pictured her."

"If you loved him why didn't you tell him after you stopped picturing it?"

"Because I didn't think he would care."

"Rachel, I know you're hurting right now, but it's ROSS!"

"I know but I didn't think of it too much. Listen Mon I'm really thankful that you are trying to talk me through this, but I kind of want to be alone right now." Monica nodded and went back inside.

Ross couldn't sleep either. He was too angry. He got up as quietly as he could and surprisingly, Emily didn't wake up. He sat on his couch and turned on the TV. There's nothing good on. Ross turned off the TV and just sat there. I can't believe Phoebe would say something like that to me. Why isn't she supportive? She is supposed to be my friend. Did she say that to make me angry?

Flashback

Ross had just met his little sister's new roommate. Her name was Phoebe Buffay and she was a masseuse. "Ross this is Phoebe. Phoebe this is Ross. Why don't you tell her a little about yourself Ross?" Ross agreed. "Well I'm twenty-three, I just got a job at a museum, and I'm married to a wonderful woman named Carol Willeck."

"The only three things that you need to know now, is that my friends are the most important thing in the world to me, I make the best oatmeal cookies in the world, and I never lie."

End Flashback

"I never lie." He remembered. She really does think I made the biggest mistake of my life. But why would she think that? I don't love Rachel. Do I?