A/N: Read and enjoy! Although I miss Elliot tremendously, I am still enjoying SVU.

"That's your phone Benson," Amaro told his partner through a mouthful of food.

They were finally at lunch after finishing the stacks and stacks of DD5's that were piled on their desks. Twelve thirty had finally hit and they were starving.

Olivia looked up at Nick then down at her phone. She swallowed hard when she saw it was the house. Olivia put her sandwich down and began wrapping it up as she answered.

"Benson," she paused as she listened to the voice on the other end of the phone. "Yeah, we'll be there."

"What?" Nick asked with a frown.

Olivia hung up and waved down a waiter as she began shoving her food back into her sack. As the waiter approached the table, Olivia hollered that she needed their checks now. Turning to her partner, Olivia swirled her hands in the air signaling Nick militantly. Sprinting impetuously to the counter, Olivia quickly paid her bill and threw some money down for Amaro as well before heading to the squad car.

Nick was running after her like a lost puppy. He knew something had happened, but he didn't expect her to act this way. Something big had gone down; Olivia was way too frantic for it to have been something minor.

"Ben-Olivia, what's going on?" Nick asked curiously.

"I'll explain when we get there," Olivia said as she started the Crown Vic and sped down the street.

Thirty minutes passed before they arrived at the crime scene. Olivia was the first out the car, waving her badge and shoving through bystanders to get to the body. She could feel her emotions becoming more ostensible as she covered her mouth and turned away. It had been like this since; the one thing that mattered to her was taken away. She sometimes had trouble facing cases involving children, especially young boys. Every time she got a call, all her thoughts rushed to him, to the child who had easily won her heart, the young boy who she loved more than life itself. Clearing her mind, Olivia joined the team as they canvassed the crime scene and examined the body.

Melinda looked up as she watched Olivia approach; she knew this past year had been hard on her friend. No one saw it coming; no one saw her losing custody of the one child that meant everything to her, no one saw her partner killing a child, and no one saw him turning in his papers without a word to Olivia. Melinda knew those tragedies had changed her friend but Olivia was still holding it together.

"What have we got?" Olivia's voice broke into Melinda's thoughts and brought the ME back to the present.

"Raped and beaten…probably from a blunt object. Between the ages of twelve and fourteen, ligature marks on the body, and blood from a head wound."

Olivia took in a deep breath and sighed. "Any ID on him? Do we know who he is?"

"No. Your new detective is on that."

"Does any of these strangers know who he is or where he came from?"

Melinda stood and took off her bloody gloves. She placed a hand on Olivia's shoulder. "No. We'll figure everything out and we'll get the perp, Liv. I promise."

Olivia nodded as she bit her bottom lip. It was taking everything she had not to break down and cry. Her emotions were in overdrive and she was seconds from her breaking point. Realizing this was affecting her more that she thought; Olivia walked away and headed back to the squad car as everyone else finished up with the crime scene. She rested her head on the passenger seat and closed her eyes. Tears began to fill her eyes but she refused to let them fall… not here, not now. This was neither the time nor the place; she had to hold it together. A knock on the window made her jump and her eyes grew wide. It took a few seconds for her to realize who was at the window. She quickly composed herself and rolled the window down.

"What's up Fin?" she asked, trying her best to keep her tears and heartbreak from spilling over in her voice.

"Hey," Fin spoke hesitantly. "You ok?"

Knowing that her voice would surely betray her this time, Olivia nodded but didn't speak.

Fin sighed quietly, almost silently, as guilt filled his heart. "I knew I shouldn't have called you. I'm sorry, Baby Girl."

Olivia finally let a tear shed as she felt her heart drop to the pit of her stomach. She felt Fin's hand rest on her shoulder as she wiped away the tear. In the year that Elliot had been gone, Fin had been there for her every time something went wrong. She found herself relying on him more and more as the year passed. She was more than grateful for his presence in her life. Finally, she took a breath and spoke, "Fin… I-I'm trying my best. I just don't know if I can-"

"Shh, it's ok Liv. I know you're trying and I'm not pushing you." Fin felt himself becoming emotional, "I just hate that you are going through this alone. Melinda and I are here, but-"

"Fin, don't! I'm glad I have you two," Olivia said, barely managing to keep her emotions under control.

He was about to address Olivia but stopped when he heard footsteps approaching from behind. He became less conspicuous and patted Olivia's shoulder once more before stepping away from the car. He quickly turned and gave a curt nod to Amaro before heading back to the crime scene.

Amaro watched Fin leave before he entered the squad car. As he closed the door, he threw a glance over at Olivia. She was pale, unresponsive, and unsettling. He could tell this case had gotten to her but what exactly was it that scared her?

"Olivia is everything alright," Amaro questioned. "Did something happen with you and Fin?"

Olivia looked over at Nick but remained silent. She didn't feel like explaining herself to a callow rookie who didn't know the first thing about her. It was her business and that's the way she wanted to keep it. Hearing him question her once more, Olivia finally turned and scowled at him.

"Drive!"

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