As I fell behind the veil, I feel a familiar pair of hands supporting me as I fall. James Potter looks the same. His hairs are still messy and he smiles sheepishly at me. "Padfoot, it's been long time."
Long time. Indeed it's been a very long time. My whole life comes flashing back. And then it hits me. I'm happy to be dead. All my life I was hated by my family. My mother's screams fill my mind, "you filthy scumbag, you brought dishonour to Black family!" I distinctly remember the cigarette hole on Black family tree which my dear mother made when I went on to live with Potters. They've been a family that I have always wanted.
Family. How will Harry survive? He has Remus though. The very thought of seeing Remus alone made my heart die a little. He wasn't supposed to be alone in all this. I shouldn't have left him alone.
All those years in Azkaban have made me mad, I admit. But the thought of being proven innocent and getting to live with my Godson and Moony gave him strength. I remember all the time we spent together when James went to chase Lily in Library! I could never express how much I loved him.
I cannot really forget the time when I made elves prepare a feast for Gryffindor common room because Lily said yes to James! Oh boy she really did slap me hard for the kissing poster I put up on the corridor walls and then God knows why she hugged me, almost like sobbing out of gratitude!
I remember James and Peter wearing enchanted badges spelling WolfStar whenever they thought Remus didn't noticed.
I remember the day when I was the best man in James's wedding and it was the best day of my life. When you spend almost half of your life in a prison where the happiness is sucked out of you, the warmth of past keeps you going. My 7 years at Hogwarts were sunshine. I loved, joked, teased and relished my companionship as Marauders.
I'm dead now. I found family in friends I made. I found dedication in the army I joined. Now as I fall behind the veil, there's a smile on my face. Not a tear in sight. Laughing.
.. And a little bit of light was gone.
