Hi guys thank you very much for reading sorry for taking time to post, I am not like and experienced writer and well it's not romantic yet and maybe I got too theoretical in it and I think maybe Nai is terribly out of character but still I hope you are able to enjoy it ^_^.

Center of the Universe

I was born into the noble family of the kingdom of Arak, or so I thought. I always noticed I was different from my brothers. We were 5 Yogi, Tsukumo, Jiki, Kiichi and me. The oldest being Yogi with 21, he and Tsukumo were similar... well at least in appearance, Yogi was always sweet, cute, cool and relaxed while on the other side Tsukumo has always been a bit up tight, both blond with beautiful blue eyes just like mom's. Then there was Jiki, who's similar to Dad with his raven hair and yellow eyes he was similar to Kiichi just that she had blue eyes like mom. Finally me Nai, and I actually don't look like anyone in my family, even for normal people my white hair with purple on its ends and ruby color eyes, I am wierd.

We lived normal lives like all the other kids, we went to school, played, went on shopping, camping and so on, the only difference was that back home, or well in the castle we were taught about what people call "magic". In the castle, close to the palace there was a street called the Golden street were the "alchemist" of the king live, we had the privelege of taught by them in the areas of magic we want to develop ourselves further. We even had a special library full of esoteric and occult books, and sometimes if we were looking for something very specific we would borrow them from the alchemists.

When we were young we all started the same, we were taught about the soul, consciense the being, the elementals, about the egos about the energy within us. We learned about the magic on different civilizations, perfumes, yoga, meditation, medicine and so on. We followed what had more affinity with us and so that's how we grew up, and everything seemed good. But that's how evil works so similar to what's good and then you ask what is the difference?

So the day of our initiation came and we were supposed to wear hoods, a custom of a color according to the level of our being, sandals and a belt for chastity. Each one of us will take one of the ends of the star according to the element within themselves which they have been able to control the best. It was all planned it could be seen in their personalities, at this point sometimes I think I should have studied more what we were supposed to do.

At the bottom of the star were Tsukumo and Kiichi, earth and water, negative elements, that went down. Then Yogi and Jiki, with fire and air, positive elements that went up, and finally me I was at the top with ether. 7 candles were turned on and our eyes were binded in order not to see anything, but we already knew what will happen. It has already been written in several books. The alchemist or the priest who will office in this service will start with the exorcism of the elements within our bodies.

He will call the sylphs within ourselves representing the mind and we will feel a soft breeze passing by us, then he will put our hands on cold water with the undines representing our emotions, a candle close to us so we could feel the warmth of the salamanders representing our passions, then earth represented by the gnomes that which is physical from this world. We will be turned in circles several times, and then the blind fold will be taken from our eyes and we will see a mirror.

This actually reminded me a passage from the Bible: 'Now we see through a glass, dimly; but then will see face to face: For now I know in part; but then shall I know as I was known.' Corinthians 1 13:12'

We would be asked who we were 3 times and then we will be given a special paper with some questions and this will be thrown to the fire. Then I felt it the energy coming to through me, I felt a bit dizzy, really refreshed to refreshed, when I breath it was cold, maybe my body isn't prepared for this yet, but it's already too late I already choose.

Nai

I heard a voice. Then beautiful music.

Nai stay with me, don't move

Something hugged me it was incredibly warm and even though I felt very apprehended and was fearful because it felt like it was angry, I knew I was safe from whatever else was moving in that darkness. I also heard the shout... from Yogi... some whine from Tsukumo, then the room came back to how it was. I could not feel the warm prescense that was around me a while ago but I felt something within my heart in me was different, warm at easy, but I was still a bit weary I saw Tsukumo unconscious, they seemed to have put to sleep Yogi with some enchanted parchment on his cheek, they also had binded Jiki's eyes with some special fabric, he was pale and sweating, Kiichi was taken away so I wasn't able to see her.

I felt a hand on my shoulder.

Nai are you okay?

It was Eva, the priestess who was officiating during the ritual.

I'am scared, but alright. I told her

You don't feel anything?

No nothing at all.

After that I kept on doing my practices and didn't felt anything special besides the fact that all my chackras were a bit more open, so once in a while I could listen to the sound of the universe, speak to the elementals, listen one or other thought from someone close to me, but it still wasn't enough, It was a really sedentary life I could feel my being beating within me, I had some consciense or what the called it. The hypothesis goes as this, supposedly some of us have an essence, which is a part of the soul which is part of a being which is connected to God and so on and if we want to get into hierarchies we wouldn't finish.

The thing is that supposedly these people have a minimum of 3% of consciense and this people can be absolutely anyone, from a homeless to the king. Through the practices people is supposed to little by little liberate some conscience from the Ego. Different cultures have depicted this through their artistic legacies and scripts, for example in the Bible there is a passage that talks about the legions, then there are the 7 capital sins, the medusa in the greeks with her snakes and we could go on.

When killing the Ego, we are supposed to be facing the psychological death, but then, I feel more disconected to this world almost floating ethereal a constant peace, the ideal state, this desire to search this urge why is it still there shouldn't I be satisfied with what I feel right now? With this state? I can see Tsukumo is happy with just loving no questioning, Yogi always has to carry his parchment because at any momment he can lose control of his energy and who know, Jiki can see everything and with some special glasses he can just stop it and Kiichi she's just trying to find peace within the turmoil of emotions she's feeling.

Is this not what I want? I have been always in this small country with everything easily given to me even this state. The ideal state. I can listen to my being. This place has always been the center of my universe and so maybe the answer of my interminent insatisfaction lies somewhere else. Maybe I just have to try going somewhere else.

Well thank you very much for readings and for the reviews, specially to Azii that with the magic on the stories I was inspired to write a bit more about it on this one =) If anyone has any special request I would be more than glad to think about something for it. thank you again =)