My eyes are closed so I can't see anything but I can hear rushing sounds behind me as waves roll forward and slosh onto the golden sand.

A sudden realisation comes to me as I lie on my back upon the same warm grains of sand that are being washed by the sea.

My name is Kaoru Hitachiin. My father is a computer software designer and my mother is a fashion designer. My brother... he's Hikaru.

Hikaru- my twin. The sun's burning down on my face but it is turning red through blushing at the thought of him rather than sunburn. The thought of the brother that I somehow forgot makes the comfortable sand seem more like shards of bitter, guilty glass piercing into my back.

The noise of the sea has grown louder and more vicious as it throws the waves out onto the beach rapidly somehow forcing every memory that had disappeared to re-emerge in vivid colours.

Serenity transforms into a storm and still the guilt of my forgotten brother weighs heavy. I sit up to prepare for the onslaught of waves the sea is lashing forward but still I do not open my eyes. I do not dare.

I expect to be sprayed by water and rushed away on the tide but I feel nothing. Absolutely nothing except a numbing of my body, if that's a feeling that can actually be felt. From my legs upwards towards my arms and my head a shudder runs through my body ensuing in a lack of feeling everywhere.

Everywhere.

I can hear buzzing everywhere. Not just that but other noises start to shroud me too: laughing, chatting, birds calling, motors running and the loudest of all is a male voice. Calling my name.

"Kaoru!" I hear and I think it's time I opened my eyes.

When I do so the darkness that came after the wave on the beach is replaced by a golden light and it reminds me of the sand on my beach. Reality hits me radiantly and startlingly and I'm no longer on the beach in my own dream world but wherever I was before I collapsed.

My name is repeated so I focus my eyes towards the figure leaning over me and as it comes into focus I realise it is the face of my brother.

"Hikaru!" I gasp, tears beginning to form in my eyes. He looks startled that I've remembered him but overall I notice relief as he throws his arms around me and gives me a warm hug.

It's a hug that I don't deserve but I welcome it anyway because when I'm in Hikaru's arms the confusion seems to blow away with the wind; If only for a brief moment.

"Where are we Hikaru? What's happened?"

He looks at me and sits on the end of a bench that I'm lying on. "We're in a park opposite the Ootori private hospital. Do you remember waking up in the hospital and running out?"

"Yes, but I can't remember why I woke up there...and until now I couldn't even remember who I was, or you. I couldn't remember you either."

"It doesn't matter." He states simply as if he knows I feel guilty about it "as long as you know now. It's good- it means your memory's clearing a bit."

I give him a brief smile so that he won't worry about me but it's the kind of smile I give to customers just to amuse them. It's not a genuine smile because I still only know part of what has happened to me.

I manage to sit up and rest my back against a tree that's right next to the bench as I try to think back to the days before I was in hospital. Although I don't even know how long I've been in hospital. I remember being in school after club activities.

Hikaru and I were fooling around in our costumes for the day before we went into the changing rooms and put on our school uniforms. He'd looked at me as I was buttoning up my shirt and then turned around quickly when he met my gaze for some reason.

I remember now, he'd been about to say something important but Haruhi had called goodbye to us through the curtain and he stopped. The next time he said anything was after we'd left the school building as we were sat in the limousine: he had called to the driver to stop.

I can't remember much after that. Just that Hikaru had told the driver to take us to the nearest park instead of driving us home and the driver obeyed. When the car stopped I was pulled out and led to a small pond with flowers of all imaginable colours decorating the edge.

I look up as I think of the smell of the flowers that day and notice the park we're in now is abundant with flower gardens as well. There's a pond here too which looks exactly the same as in my memory.

"Hikaru- this park... we've been here before haven't we?"

I can tell from his face that I'm right but I don't understand why he looks so scared, surely he should be glad that I can remember it. His eyes are open wide and he bites the bottom of his lip before standing in front of me and gripping my shoulders.

"Do you remember? What I said to you when we were there?"

"Erm... no... "

"Good. Then don't. Forget about the park okay? It doesn't matter."

"But that's my last memory, surely it's important. You were so serious and I remember you said something but then I was by the road and I remember the smell of petrol. That's all. Hikaru, tell me what happened."

He lets go of me and sighs.

"Fine, but not here. You need to go back to the hospital and get checked over. Then I'll explain what happened. But promise me you won't freak out again okay?"

I wonder what's so bad that I'll freak out when he tells me and I wonder why he says 'again' as if it's happened once already but I know that I'll have to wait till the doctors have finished with me as he helps me to my feet and leads me back towards the hospital.

I'll just have to wait a bit longer for things to fall into place again and till the world can go back to normality.