Essence of My Heart
A Harry Potter Fan-Fiction
By Amber-Natasha21

Chapter 2: The Tragic Arrival


If roses are meant to be red
And violets to be blue
Why isn't my heart meant for you
My hands longing to touch you
but I can barely breath
Starry eyes that make me melt
Right in front of me

-Lost


Narrator's POV

"Firs' 'ears o'er 'ere. Come on. 'eh 'oin to 'iss the sor'in if yea don' hurr' up" Hagrid's booming voice sounded above the flood of students gathering on the platform. Each and everyone of them seeming eager to start a new year of the magical wonders that lay before them. Glancing down at the crowd Lily looked closely for anyone who seemed out of place or lost. Usually those were the first years. Lily smiled softly. She remembered back to when she was in first year and how nervous she had been to be standing on this very platform. Scared to death wasn't even close.

It wasn't hard for her to remember everything about her first year because she had kept each of them close to her heart. Of course, there was only one down fall of her first year at Hogwarts and that was meeting James Potter for the first time. Uhhhh even then that boy knew the things that could cause me to toss and turn at night thinking of ways how I could possibly get rid of him. But Lily had not always been this way with James. At first James had seemed like an ordinary boy to Lily. That was until she had saw him making fun of Severus Snape upon the train.

Lily had know Severus years before she even knew that Hogwarts existed. He live near her on one of the adjoining streets. Spinners End. To Lily he was one of the only and the closest friends that she had ever had. They could talk about anything and joke around with each other. They were best friends. He was the one that had first told her about magic and explained that he thought that she was a witch.

Lily had taken it as an insult at first. She had even thought that by Snape calling her a witch he was telling her that she was an ugly girl who only had evil intentions. It took Lily months to trust Snape again, who explained that being a witch was a good thing.

'You will be able to go to Hogwarts with me. And I know that you will be in Slytherin, so that means we will be in the same house!' Severus words rang in her ears.

Closing her eyes only for a second, she was able to remember everything that had been said that day, and she could almost picture the day perfectly in her mind.

'Sev, what is Slytherin House? I mean I know you told me about the four different houses…Ravenclaw, Gryffindor, Hufflepuff, and Slytherin…but what makes Slytherin so special that we would be in it?' Lily asked

'Slytherin is the only house that you would want to be in Lily. All the great Witches and Wizards have been in it. Not to mention, my whole family has been in Slytherin since the beginning. But the other house are filled with people who think that they are better than you. That think they are supreme because of what family they come from.' Snape replied

'So, the other houses are made up of mainly bullies? Slytherin and Hogwarts sound amazing Sev. But I am still not sure I will get my letter. I mean wouldn't my sister of gotten one when she was eleven?'

'No. Not everyone gets a letter. Your sister is probably a squib.' seeing the confused look on Lily's young features Severus explained, "Someone who has magical blood but can't do magic.'

'Oh.' Lily replied gently 'Do you think that I was accepted to Hogwarts just because I have magical powers like you say?'

'Well yes and no. But I know you are only wondering if you could try and convince the Headmaster to accept your sister, but I am not sure it works that way.'

'Oh. Well Tunney was really upset when I told her what you said about me going to get a Hogwarts letter. I think she is jealous because she won't talk to me at all.' Lily began as she looked up at Severus who was already quite a bit taller than she was.

'I wouldn't worry much about your sister Lil. I mean if she is jealous then let her be. You are going to be an amazing witch. And don't worry. You will get your Hogwarts letter. You just wait. I got mine yesterday, so you should be getting yours soon. But no matter what do we promise to stay friends all through Hogwarts and that nothing will ever come between us?' Severus asked holding out his pinkie for a pinkie promise.

Lily smiled, 'I promise Sev. You are my best friend and nothing can change that..'

Oh but how things had changed since that faithful day. For one. She and Severus hadn't spoken on mutual terms in as long as Lily could remember. Ever since he had called her a Mudblood…..But things between Lily and Petunia were no better than they had been 7 years before. Except now, Petunia at least admitted that she hated her younger sister. Why? No one but Petunia knew. Lily had a hunch and it was because she had been accepted into Hogwarts and Petunia hadn't.

That was the one thing that Petunia had always been jealous. That Lily had the magical ability that she had begged and wished for, for years upon years. Even after Lily had been accepted. Although she had finally given up hope. Petunia was now married. It was hard for Lily even to believe. They had both always imagined there wedding days but never did Lily realize that her sister would get married that soon.

It had happened during the summer. Petunia had been bragging about it since Lily had came back from her 6th year term. She just figured it was because Lily unlike Petunia didn't have that many boyfriends. Or maybe it was because of the fact that of those few boyfriends, she had never brought any of them home to meet her parents, usually because there relation ship didn't make it to any of the breaks. Most often because all they wanted was to sleep with Lily and when she refused she found herself dumped.

It was this past summer that she had actually been jealous of her sister. Not because Petunia was married but because Petunia had found someone that loved her, and that she loved. Even if he looked and sounded like he wasn't human. Lily had always wanted what her sister had. To be able to be happy all the time without having an fears or regrets, and just to be a normal teen. Lily was however, far from being a normal teen.

Her thoughts were suddenly broken as she heard someone calling her name. It was Potter. "Lily!" James called over the crowd as he tried to make his way toward the Exit. He had just finished helping the first year into the boats. "All the first years are in the boats. How are things here? Has everyone gotten off the train?"

Lily looked up suddenly as she remembered what she had been doing before her thoughts had gotten the best of her. "Yes I think so. We just have to go make sure that the carriages are empty and then we can head up with the other students to the castle." Lily replied as James lead the way back onto the train.

"We better get started then if we have to search the whole train within a few minutes." James continued to remark as they each began looking into the compartments in each section of the train.

After ten minutes of searching Lily and James had decided that there was no one left on the train and it was safe to go ahead and head up to the castle. "Uh, I didn't realize that there were so many students at Hogwarts."

Lily laughed as James stood there giving her a puzzled look. Lily shook her head, "Sorry, Its just you have been going to this school seven years and you still haven't realized that there are so many students?" she asked with a smile.

"Well I have kind of had other things on my mind….." James began as Lily interrupted him with another question.

"Like getting to know more than half of the female population?" Lily asked sarcastically.

"No, actually I was going to say like try and get your attention for the past seven years." James said under his breath just a bit to loudly as Lily, who had began leading them back toward the exit turned to look at him.

"Why won't you just get over yourself and move on James?" she said sighing heavily. "I don't understand you at all. One minute you are trying to convince me that we are meant together and the next you are off with some slut. You are just an egotistical, arrogant, pig headed JERK…..Why won't you just grow up?" she practically yelled at him.

Seeing his expression Lily frowned, "Sorry. Its just…you could have anyone but you have to chase me? Why?"

"Well…if you would give me a minute to explain I could tell you." There was a slightly long pause following his words and then he continued speaking. "Thank you, but I am not just some egotistical, arrogant, pig headed jerk…You forgot to mention that I was also very good looking." he said trying to lighten the mood.

"See what I mean. I am surprised that your head isn't the size of Mount Rushmore by now. Cause I know that you can't fit your head through a door its so enlarged by your…egotisticalness." she replied with haste

"Egotisticalness? What kind of word is that?" he asked slightly upset that she was insulting him like that. He was just trying to be nice to her and this is how he was thanked?

"Well, if you look in the dictionary by the word than you will see a picture with you and your overly enlarged head" Lily remarked as she turned on her hill heading toward the last threstles drawn carriage. Her arms crossed over her chest.

"What's her problem?" James whispered to himself as he slowly followed behind her as he joined her in the carriage. Maybe this WAS going to be a long year after all.


"Welcome all, to a new year at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry!" Professor Dumbledore said with a cheery smile from the head of the Great Hall. The sorting had just been completed and by the looks of things, there were more Slytherin Student additions than in any other house. It looked as if a record had been set. There were over 20 Slytherin first years, whereas each of the other houses only had around 10 or 15 new students. It was something that James was very curious about.

Abandoning his thoughts, James continued to listen to Professor Dumbledore give his annual beginning of the year speech, of course he had missed all but the first bit and the last few words. "Now I warn each and every one of you to take caution this year. More and more outside influences are trying to make there way into this very castle so head my warning when I say stay away from trouble and danger if you can at all cost avoid it. I think everyone has suffered long enough sooo…Let the Feast begin!"

James glanced at the people seated around him at the Gryffindor Table. Remus sat beside him as Sirius and Peter were seated on the opposite side. "Did anyone else notice how many new Slytherin's there are this year?" he asked looking quickly at the Slytherin Table. Receiving quite a few glares as he did so.

"Yeah. But I wouldn't worry about it to much. I mean. judging by looking at there table, it looks like the Slytherin population has actually decreased. I don't see Macnair, or even Crabbe any where." Remus stated as he also pondered on what James was getting at.

Sirius was to involved in his food that he could barley speak. "'ust as lo'g as th'y do't boter me." he said his mouth filled to the max with food.

"Ah Pad, couldn't you at least close your mouth and chew before you decided to speak?" Peter asked quietly. Peter had barley even been acknowledged seeing as he had been drifting slowly apart from each of the friends. There was just something that Wormtail had been trying to hide for the last few months that not only confused his friends. But made them also very curious.

"Why don't we talk about something more interesting? Like how much Evans is getting stared down by everyone." Sirius said after taking a sip of his Pumpkin juice.

In fact, as all the Marauders turned to look it seemed like more than half the students, and even some of the students were looking intently at Lily who seemed a little more than slightly ungovernable as she was trying to talk with a forth year about Nearly Headless Nick.

"Oh don't get me started." James began as he remembered all the things that she had said to him before he had arrived back at the castle, "Ok, I thought maybe this year was going to be different, but I am really beginning to think I was wrong because I simply was trying to have a civil conversation with Evans and she just started yelling at me for no apparent reason…."

James heard Remus sigh heavily and he turned to glare. "What?" Remus inquired

"What do you mean what? What does.." James imitated Remus sighing heavily, receiving a laugh from Sirius, " that mean exactly?"

"It means when will you ever realize that she does like you. You just have to back off and quite being so arrogant."

James sat there flabbergasted. "I am not arrogant…."

"Yes you are mate." Sirius butted in

"Oh, look who is talking." James said with a laugh.

"Your just as bad as I am."

"I am not."

"Yes you are"

"No, I am not"

"Are to"

"Am not"

"Are to"

"Am not"

"Are to"

"Why don't you both shut up? And how about this, you are both arrogant…but I guess since no one else can stand you I guess that means I am slightly obligated, as a best friend at least." Remus said smirking. Sirius and James could be such babies at times.

"Since when does being one of our best mates make you obligated to put up with us?" Sirius asked looking slightly hurt.

"Since I met you seventeen years ago, and I basically signed away my life to you two dolts."

"Ok first, we are not dolts. And second…I have been putting up with you and Prongs for seventeen years? Man I really do need a life." Sirius said with a laugh as James smacked him in the back of the head.

"Ow. What was that for?" he asked rubbing the spot on his head as Remus just sat and watched curiously.

"Oh, well I thought after seventeen years of smacking you on the back of the head you would be used to it" James said with a laugh as Remus fell in suit, roaring with laughter.

"Well…I can just really feel the love in this room" Sirius said pouting as both Remus and James continued to howl with laughter for near on five minutes. It was when they received death glares from McGonagall that they were silent.

"Who's up for Jokes?" Sirius asked trying to lighten the mood.

"Sure. Why not." James replied looking at Remus.

"So I have a great joke for you and trust me, this is going to be great," Sirius said. "What did the moron have for breakfast?"

"Well this morning you had toast, bacon, and eggs," Remus said, without looking up from the food in front of him

Sirius pouted. "You totally just ruined the joke."

"Sorry, I just thought that was the answer," Remus said with a grin.


It was nearing 8 when all of the students were dismissed from the Great Hall. At least all but Lily and James for Dumbledore was to show them their private quarters. Lily slightly hesitated as she approached the Professor at the head of the Great Hall. It was only seconds later that James was standing directly behind her.

"Ah, Lily, James. How are you both? I bet anxious to see your new quarters. Well, if you will just follow me." Dumbledore began. There was a bit of urgency in his voice like he was in a rush to do something else. Being Headmaster of such a school, Lily could only think of the hundreds of possibilities.

"Its nice to be back Professor." James said as Lily gave him an encouraging smile as they followed Professor Dumbledore into the Entrance Hall and headed straight for the Staircase where he lead the two to the seventh floor corridor. It was the same exact Hall that the Portrait of the Fat Lady, or the entrance into the Gryffindor Common Room and dorms was located.

"Professor, the Heads Quarters is on the seventh floor? But wouldn't we have been able to see it before now since we are Gryffindors and we are up here all the time?" Lily asked as they had stopped in the middle of the corridor.

"Ah but Miss Evans, I would figure that you as well as I know, that things here at Hogwarts are not as they appear to be." Professor Dumbledore replied as he uttered the words. "unus diligo" Lily recognized the words immediately.

"One love?" Lily asked curiously. Dumbledore merly smiled.

"What?" James asked confused by Lily's question.

"I took Latin one summer. The password 'unus diligo' means One Love in English." Lily explained as a doorway suddenly formed out of thin air. Dumbledore was right. She had underestimated her common sense. Things at Hogwarts were never as they seemed to truly be.

The Professor was the first one to enter the common room. Lily and James hesitated before they followed him inside. Both wondering what it was going to be like, or if it would be exactly like the Gryffindor Common Room, or if things would be totally different. As they entered, Lily and James were in awe. It was like an exact replica of the Gryffindor Common. Right down to the very fiber of the curtains that hung over the windows.

"I would first start and congratulate you both on being the Head Boy and the Head Girl. This is a real honor and you two were chosen for many different reason so I hope that neither of you" Professor Dumbledore began as he eyed James softly. James grinned and looked down at the ground. "But before I leave you two to get settled in, there are just a few extra rules. As Heads, you will be expected to set a good example for all of those students who look up to you both as examples. Especially the Prefects. I would also like to add that I would like to meet with you both once a month to go over different school affairs. I know that I explained most of what you need to know in your letters so I think with that said I will leave you two to get settled in. Lily your room is on the left, and James yours in on the right. You both have private bathrooms and a private entrance to the Gryffindor Common Room so if you need anything else, feel free to ask Professor McGonagall."

"I shall be going. I am sorry to leave you both in such a hurry but I have much business to attend to." And with that Professor Dumbledore began his exit toward the door, but paused momentarily. "Oh and Mr. Potter, I would suggested not giving out the password to a certain group of friends unless there is an emergency."

It was so odd. Lily thought how rushed Dumbledore seemed to be. Usually he was more relaxed and didn't say things in such urgency like he had just done. It was when James spoke that Lily lost all original train of thought for the third time that night.

"Well it looks like its just you and me Evans." James said as he walked over and sat down in one of the arm chairs, nearest the fireplace.

"Uh…don't remind me Potter. So please do me a favor. Don't talk to me, Don't touch my things, and unless you or I myself are dying do not come near my room." Lily said as she headed for her the door marked Head Girl.

"Wow…what's got your knickers in a twist. You were fine talking with me on the train on the way from the London. What changed?" James asked as he watched her intently

"Well for one, I really thought that you had changed, but you showed me when we were getting ready to head back to the castle that I was dead wrong." Lily replied as she entered her bedroom without haste. Leaving James alone to ponder upon what she had said.


The first week back from Hogwarts took some readjusting for everyone. Especially for Lily and James. Throughout there seven years of knowing each other there hadn't been a day since that had arrived back at school that they weren't fighting about something. Whether it be about something as small as James annoying Lily while she was trying to do her homework in the Head's Common room on up to something as large as other students being involved. It defiantly wasn't the best week in either of Lily or James's life. But at the moment, they wished the other didn't exist.

It was the First Friday in September. Remus and Sirius had just decided to head down to breakfest when they heard shouting coming from one of the nearby empty classroom. Each of them were puzzled about what it could possibly be so they decided it was best to investigate it before something happened. "What in the bloody hell could possibly be going on? Its still early. Who would be in an empty classroom yelling at the top of their……" Sirius began to ask as they approached the voices became much clearer.

"WHY IN THE BLOODY HELL WOULD YOU DO THAT?!" the girl screamed as loud as she could possibly muster.

"ITS NOT LIKE I MEANT TO. I DIDN'T KNOW THAT YOUR DOOR WASN'T LOCKED. ITS NOT MY FAULT. YOU HAD MUSIC PLAYING AND I TRIED KNOCKING AND YOU DIDN'T ANSWER…."James yelled

"THAT DOESN'T GIVE YOU THE RIGHT TO COME BARGING INTO MY ROOM!!!" Lily cried in utter disgust. Early that morning James had been trying to ask Lily what day that she wanted to plan out the prefects patrols. She had been playing her music slightly loud so James knocked. Still there was no answer. Finally he flung open the door and found a half naked Lily Evans. She had almost killed him, and nothing was certain that she wasn't going to do it now.

"I'm sorry. I tried knocking but you didn't answer so I got worried." James replied slowly as he lowered his voice realizing how loud that he was being.

"Maybe next time you should try knocking harder." Lily whispered as she pushed past him and ran out of the classroom. Bumping into Sirius who had been listening at the door. "If you know what is good for you Black you will forget everything that you just heard. And that means you to Remus" and with that Lily headed down the corridor and out of site. She couldn't believed that James had seen her so exposed. Of course it could have been worse. No. She couldn't think like that.

The only thing that she had to worry about now was trying to find a way to punish Potter for what he did. No matter if it was an accident or not.


"Ok spill" Sirius said as he and Remus entered the empty classroom where James stood looking like he had just been ran over by a two ton truck.

"You guys heard everything didn't you?" James asked mortified. He felt like a complete idiot. Lily would never forgive him now.

"Well not everything. Just the part that you barged into her room… But that's about all we heard" Remus inputted.

"And you know, Lily wouldn't be that mad about you coming into her room. So what did you do…see her naked. How hot did she look. Oh I bet she looks a hundred times better without any clothes…" Sirius began as Remus slapped him on the back of the head.

At first Sirius pouted, "Ok, I guess I disserved that one."

"Yes you did." James said speaking up before a large grin spread across his every facial features, " And I seen her half naked. And it was better than you could ever imagine Pad..but I guarantee this. If you keep talking like that, Remus will have to replace you as my only best mate because I just might have to kill you for that comment. Even if it is true"

"God James, your as Bad as Sirius and that is pretty bad." Remus replied

"Hey, I AM standing right here you know." Sirius said slightly insulted.

"We know" James and Remus said in unison. "Why don't we all just go to breakfest and try and forget that this ever happened?" James suggested

"I second the going to breakfest idea, but I hate to tell you James, but half the castle heard you and Lily yelling. Its not going to be that easy to forget. Especially when you two have to live in the same Head Quarters." Remus replied.

And Remus had been right about what he said about it wasn't going to be that easy forgetting the events of that morning. Every chance he got James did his best to try and apologize to Lily. Even during class he tried slipping her notes explaining how sorry he truly was. Lily had gotten so tired of the notes that during Potions she had set the notes on fire. Glaring at him with daggers for eyes as soon as she did so. Nothing he did or tried to do worked in his attempt to get Lily to forgive him. He had given up all hope.

James had even went to the Gryffindor Common Room later that evening to try to give Lily her much needed space. While setting by the fire Sirius made the pitiful attempt to try and lighten the atmosphere with more jokes.

"What's green and stands in a corner? A naughty frog. Why did they monkey fall out of the tree? He was dead. Why did the squirrel fall out of the tree? He was stapled to the monkey." Still nothing changed. "Oh come on you guys, you know those are funny!" Sirius said with a laugh as Remus and James looked at him as if he was a complete idiot.

"Oh, I have one more. What did one worm say to the other worm? Are you my arse?" Still there was no sign of laughter. "That was one of the best ones!" Sirius continued"Ok Padfoot I have a joke for you. What is white, black and blue all over?" James asked

"What?"

"You after I get done killing you." James stated with a smile.

"Now that was just cruel James." Sirius said pouting he hated when everyone was mean to him. "Mine was much better. At least I wasn't being mean to anyone unlike some people."

"Padfoot. I think even Doper could make a better joke than you can." Remus said putting his hand on Sirius's shoulder.

"Isn't Doper your dead pet fish?" James asked looking curiously at Remus thinking that he was the one who had now gone insane.

"That's exactly my point"

"I hate you people" Sirius muttered under his breath as Remus and James shared a short laugh.


Mean while Lily was setting in the Heads Common room, there in complete and utter silence thinking about the events of the previous morning. She knew that James had walked in on her by accident but she couldn't help but blaming him. It was her natural instinct to blame James for everything. After all. He was usually the cause of much of her pain. If not all of it. And at this very moment…he was the cause of all of it. At least in this particular situation.

Leaning her head back against the chair she closed her eyes as she became lost in her thoughts. Maybe she had been wrong to treat James this way. Maybe he was just trying to be a friend to her. Sure, he wasn't coming about it in the right way but, at least he was trying. At least he had the nerve and patience to try.

Looking back on the way that she had treated him the day before and that day Lily cast her head down ward. Was she really a horrible person? Was that why she kept treating James as she did? Or was it simply because she felt some pleasure in getting back at him for humiliating her all those times. So many thoughts were crossing her mind that it was hard to distinguish between each of them. The only thing that Lily felt like that she knew from processing her own behavior was that she was not only an idiot, but a hypocrite.

'No wonder so many people hate me. I am a complete and royal bitch.' Lily told herself as she heard the Common Room door open. Jumping up, she figured it was James but as she looked toward the doorway she saw that it was Professor McGonagall.

"Professor." Lily said slightly surprised at the site of her Transfigurations teacher. "James isn't here right now…."

"I am afraid that I am not here to talk about Head Duty's Miss Evans. I am afraid that you are needed in Professor Dumbledore's office at once." her expression was that of grave and shock.

"What's going on Professor?" Lily asked her voice barley audible.

"You better just come with me Lily." Professor McGonagall said softly. There was something in her voice that made Lily scared and what she soon found out. She had a right to be.


The walk to Professor Dumbledore's office was long and neither Lily nor Professor McGonagall spoke on the way there. Lily swallowed as the finally reached and entered the Headmasters office. There in the room stood not only Professor Dumbledore but also the Minster of Magic, and a few other Ministry officials. This was what caused Lily to become even more frightened. No one In the room looked like this was a cheerful trip.

"Miss Evans. Why don't you take a seat" Professor Dumbledore greeted his hand gesturing at the chair nearest his desk. Looking at the Professor Lily did as suggested but as she met his gaze she noticed something very unusual. The sparkle that could usually been seen in his eyes was no where in sight. Glancing to her right she saw the minister remove his hat and walk closer to Lily.

"What's going on?" she asked softly as her eyes glanced around at everyone who was around her.

The Headmaster was the first to speak. " If you don't mind Minister Bagnold, I believe that it would be better if I spoke." he suggested. Lily was slightly confused. What did he mean that maybe it would be better if he spoke. Was she in some kind of trouble?

"Albus maybe this isn't the best time. I mean certainly…" Minerva McGonagall began as her eyes were laid upon Lily.

Albus Dumbledore shook his head silencing the Transfiguration teacher. "Lily. Early this morning there was an attack on a Muggle village near Spinners End. There were only two reported deaths in the attack. I am sorry to tell you this Lily but your parents were found dead at the seen when the Ministry arrived. According to some of your neighbors your father tried to protect your mother from the group when they were attacked."

Lily felt like someone had dropped a brick upon her. Weighing her down to this very seat. Her parents were dead? It wasn't even a week ago that she had last said good bye to them. Now they were never coming back? Her breathing became heavy and uneven. How could this happen? How could her parents be dead? Dumbledore had to be wrong they all did…it just couldn't be. "No, your wrong." Lily whispered as she looked up into the grief stricken people around her. The headmaster was just looking at her with the saddest expression and Professor McGonagall looked as if she was going to break down in tears. "They can't be dead….they can't be…." Lily said as she jumped from her seat and flew from the room.

"Lily!" Professor McGonagall yelled after her. But it was no use. Lily was already gone.

She could feel her legs moving but it was like her head and her body were doing two separate things. All that Lily wanted to do was get far away from the Headmasters office before she broke down. All she wanted to do was go to her room and hide in the smallest corner of her closet and never come out. All she wanted for was her parents to not be dead. Tears flowed from her eyes like a flowing river.

Everyone she passed was looking at her in shock. Yes Lily had been hurt before but never had anyone seen her crying before. Especially not in public. Lily just ignored them as she tried to get to the Heads Common room before things got any worse than what they already were. Finally after what seemed like an eternity she found herself standing in the Common Room. Looking up she saw that James had ran out of his room trying to figure out who had just ran into the common room slamming the door shut.

Lily not realizing what she was doing at first ran into James arms leaning her head against his chest as she cried.

James looked baffled as he saw Lily. She looked horrible. Her eyes were red and puffy as tears ran down her face. But he was even more confused as she ran into his arms and leaning against his chest crying. "Lily what happened?" he asked his voice almost breaking at the site of her like this.

"There dead James!" Lily chocked out as she pulled away from his chest for a moment. "My parents are dead!" Lily sobbed as James not knowing what else to do wrapped his arms around her, embracing her in a hug.

After a few moments, James lead her over to the couch where he sat next to her as he let her cry. They only thing he knew to do was to try and sooth her by rubbing her back and telling her that everything would be ok. He hated to see her like this. Looking up at the clock, James saw that it was nearing 8 o'clock. They had been here for nearly three hours. James let his eyes fall upon Lily, who seemed finally calmed down enough that she could set up by herself.

Looking around at the common room, her eyes finally fell upon James. "I'm sorry for how I acted this morning. I know it was just an accide.." Lily began to say when James silenced her by putting his finger over her lips

"No, I'm sorry." he said gently. "You were right, I should have tried knocking harder to get your attention." James said softly as his eyes met hers. " Are you going to be ok?" he asked gently

Lily turned her head for a moment. "I don't think that I will ever be ok, but I will have to be." she said rubbing her eyes with her shirt sleeve making sure that all evidence of her tears were gone. "James. Will you go with me to the funeral. I don't think that I can do this alone." Lily said not realizing what she was asking him.

James was slightly taken aback at first. She wanted him to got with her for her parents funerals? Slowly he nodded, "I am here for you." he stated as he gave Lily a small hug.

"Thank you James." Lily replied softly as she stood from the couch and made her way toward her bedroom. Leaving James alone and baffled setting on the couch. The events of the past few hours running through his head. 1st Lily hates him for accidentally barging into his room. 2nd Lily finds out that her parents were murdered. 3rd She apologized for the way that she acted 3rd She invited him to go with her to her parents funerals, and 4th, Lily had just called him James. Not Potter.

His eyes fell upon Lily's door wondering how she must be feeling. He wouldn't have to the courage to be as strong as Lily was. I mean. All things considered Lily was stronger than he ever would be. He just wished that there was something he could do to help her. All he knew now was to give her, her space. So that's exactly what he did.

As he left the Common Room and began making his way toward the ground he met Sirius and Remus half-way. Both were curious about the way that James looked.

"Whoa. Who died?" Sirius asked putting his hand on James shoulder.

"Lily's parents." James whispered


A/N: Thanks for all the reviews! I do believe that this will be a better story than my other Fan Fiction(A Tale of Two Hearts) for the simple fact that this story actually has a good beginning. So…How do you guys like the second Chapter? I know that there are a lot of memories in this, but I just think, that it gives you a better explanation of the past than anything….. This Chapter although, I had a LOT of fun writing even if it is slightly depressing. I am going to try and update every week, or every other week. Please don't forget to review and tell me your thoughts, or give me your suggestions of what you might want to see later in the story :D
Until Next time