"Killing my Soul"
By Pixie
Disclaimer: I do not own DBZ or any of its characters.
Pixie: Well this fic seems to be getting good response, so I'll keep it going. I do hope you guys enjoy this fic, so I get the chance to keep writing it…I'm sure you're all so anxious for updates all the time. But you know, you can always make the updates come faster by clicking the review button at the bottom, and adding a nice review!
Chapter 2
Pan's POV
I heard the knock at the door. I wish it had been I who answered it. But I was putting on my armor, not for combat, just for the soul sake that it was comfortable. But I did not answer the door. My father did. There was a man on the other side. The man who killed my father. That day changed my life. With my father, I too died, but unlike him, I was reborn, a new Pan. I do not know yet, if that change was for better or for worse. I lay down on my bed, and stared up at the ceiling, trying to clear my mind of all thoughts. I fell into nothingness and just stared away at nothing. But suddenly I was snapped out of it. A voice-my father's voice, suddenly cried out from downstairs, startling me awake. I ran downstairs, but found myself too late. My father lay dead on the floor, and there was nothing I could do, but scream. I fell to my knees, screaming cries, cries that sounded like the came from no Saiyan, but instead some wild animal, who was fatally wounded. The pain in my heart rose higher and higher with my ki. This was love, this is what ate the hearts of man alive.
Gohan's POV
My daughter…my Pan. I do not know why this man fights me so, if man he is. But I do know he will kill me. I see my life flash before my eyes.
I see my father…he's hugging me, telling me he loves me, and he's proud of me. And he'll always be proud.
I see my wife…Videl. So beautiful…a rare Saiyan, blue-eyed, and fire-hearted. She handed me a child. My Pan…
I saw Pan saying her first word.
I saw Pan walking.
I saw Pan learning to fly.
More visions came: Pan singing, dancing, laughing, crying. I saw myself holding her, laughing with her, and telling her I loved her.
I loved her.
She was my child, my one, my only. I saw in her eyes, reflections of myself, the beauty of her mother, the innocence of my father, and the sweet charm and inner strength she possessed all on her own.
"PAN!!" I cried out one last time. And then, there was only darkness…
Pan's POV
I saw my dad hit the floor, his body limp and dead as the little girl's. "No…NO!!" Was that aloud? Was it only in my head? "Dad…Daddy" I felt like a little girl again. So lost…alone…unloved.
I fell down, gasping for breath, tears running freely down my cheeks. I struggled to stand, but it was useless.
"Wha…What is this?!" This was no physical pain, this was a pain in my heart, greater than any beating. It was the feeling of a love lost, and the worst pain I ever felt. Vision's flew through my head, thoughts of love, thoughts of my father, thoughts of myself, Son Pan. Anger and rage flung themselves before my eyes. It was then I realized I was standing. I could feel my ki building and building, higher than anything I'd ever felt. I was out of control now, I could do nothing, but grow more sad, more angry, and more powerful. I threw my head back and screamed. At first I could not make out what I was screaming. But then I heard it. A scream of a name. Was this me screaming, so horribly, so full of rage and anger. Crying out a name, over and over again.
"DAD!!!" the name echoed over and over again. Suddenly, something inside me changed. I did not realize the change until afterwards. My hair, so long and black once, now a soft gold, in long spikes down my back, my eyes, once the color of the midnight sky, now so green. A soft gold glow wrapped around me. It was then I remembered my legends. And I realized what change had occurred in me. It was my transformation into a Super Saiyan that ultimately killed my soul.
I had become the first Super Saiyan ever. It was a great change.
A change that could not go unnoticed.
Pixie: If you haven't noticed, this fic is going to be pretty sad…don't say I didn't warn you!!
