So here's the next Chapter! :)
This chapter focuses on Haru's point of view now. :)
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Haru's POV:
For a very long time I loved him, in spite of that he failed to love me back instead he ended up falling for my best friend, my very own best friend.
At that time, I felt like falling inside a pit of endless hurt and misery, knowing that no one can see my suffering since I've put up a perfect facade that fooled everyone into thinking that I was perfectly fine except you.
And then unconsciously, little by little you rescued me through that detestable pit that no one dared to do.
Your flustered face started to etch its ways in my brain, not knowing that I've started to take every inch of you burned into my memory.
"Stupid" Gokudera said still flustered as he tried to wipe-off the remaining paint off him.
Haru, astounded by his sudden reaction seemed to be lost in a trance as she kept on gazing at him.
"What now? Woman?" Gokudera scoffed as he felt her gaze on him longer than usual.
"Hahi! N-nothing, Bakadera!" She snapped, as she realized that his image overwhelmed her to much, making her blush a bright shade of pink as well.
That time when you actually called me by my name, it made my heart jump, yet still not understanding why those feelings kept on popping.
"I'm not listening...blah-blah-blah...Haru wants to help you save Lambo-kun as well" Haru said as she kept on pressing the fact that she wants to go with them in the abandoned factory to save Lambo who was currently kidnap at that time.
"I said it's dangerous, stupid woman, can't you even process that, woman?" Gokudera scolded her.
"Haru's not stupid! Stop calling me that! I-I'm just worried for Lambo, what if something happened to him! I-I can't afford seeing him hurt! Don't you understand that? Haru's just worried" she yelled as tears escaped her brown eyes, and had been plopped to the floor.
Gokudera bent towards the same height as Haru and said in a much gentler voice "I understand that, but you must also understand that it's dangerous for you, so please stay here and pray for Lambo's safety and we'll take care of that, ne, Haru?"
Upon hearing her name uttered by him, made her heart skipped a beat and instantly stopped crying as she just stared at him as he smiled at her and slowly retreated as he walked towards the others who are preparing on their way to rescue Lambo.
I never knew how comfort you brought me that day, but deep down, slowly I came to recognize this feelings that's been beating towards you.
The moment Tsuna leaned in for a kiss on Kyoko at their wedding reception, almost made Haru drop her pretence of being okay, when all of a sudden Gokudera's big, warm and comforting hands covered her eyes as tears started to fall.
"Don't cry stupid woman" he said.
"Hahaha! Haru's happy. I-its tears of j-joy" Haru croaked as tears kept on flowing silently as Gokudera's free hand held her for comfort.
His words and actions made Haru cried more, but it was not out of misery this time, but out of comfort.
"Ne, Gokudera-san, a-after this...H-Haru w-will be fine" she said in between sobs as she turned her head towards Gokudera's chest so that no one will notice her crying.
Unknowingly I've become drawn to you, always longing for your presence and your lovely smiles.
"Ne, Stupid woman, I'll miss you" Gokudera smiled brightly that night making Haru gasped for air.
Little did she know, that was the last time she'll be able to see Gokudera in years, since he will leave for Italy due to some family 'mafia' matters to deal with.
After that, Haru once again fell into great despair, hating Gokudera for the fact that he didn't tell her he was leaving, that night instead making her heart beat crazily with his last confusing remark that she now knew the meaning behind those words.
"He doesn't even have the decency to just tell me right off the bat! Bakadera is so sly telling Haru that he'll miss me, not even saying the fact that his leaving...you're so unfair Gokudera-kun" Haru sobbed at her bed the moment she found out that Gokudera left earlier this morning to Italy.
But she can't also deny the fact that she was longing for him every single day, while only holding on to her memories of him and he's smiles.
It came to a point, that I detest the 'me' who stubbornly ignored the blossoming feeling that I had for you thus missing the chance to tell you how I truly felt before you run off to Italy and hell knows whenever you were coming back.
It was almost three years and he still hasn't returned from his departure to Italy.
"Was tending the mafia there really can took you almost three years away without even calling to say hi to your friend in a year?" she thought as she kept on staring at her phone.
Gokudera stopped calling her the moment a rumour was set off last year regarding Gokudera being engaged to the daughter of some powerful tycoon in Italy.
"Are you really engaged Gokudera-kun? I-I really should have told you back then, so that I have no regrets" she whispered as tears silently escaped her eyes.
I was surprised to see you suddenly in front of me after five years of disappearance. The moment I laid my eyes on you, the feelings that I thought I've thrown away all suddenly came rushing back to me.
"G-Gokudera-san? You're back?" Haru gaped at the sudden Gokudera materialized in front of her door step.
"It's been five years, since I last saw you stupid woman, did you miss me?" Gokudera smirked.
"I know. Uhm...yeah Gokudera-san...you coming by later? It's been a while since the gang last saw you, well the others in a matter of fact since I know you and Tsuna still saw each other every time he went to I-Italy"
But I can't tell you how I felt now, not that I found someone who took good care of me, when your absence and rumours hunted me. No, I don't want to be unfair to that person. Even it did stab my heart when you congratulated me in being able to find a new love; I'll still stick to him.
"Congrats Haru for being with...Yamamoto" Gokudera congratulated Haru.
"Thanks, Gokudera-san" Haru said forcing a smile towards him.
As Haru watched Gokudera's retrieving figure she smiled sadly and thought
"This is for the best...I'll learn to forget about you...Yamamoto-kun deserves to be happy too and I do love him as well I don't want to be unfair to him just because you're here now...So Haru decided that Haru will learn to forget you so that Haru will be happy with Yamamoto-kun"
But I knew from the bottom of my heart that it was you whom my heart beats for and up till now I'm still drowning in regret for not telling you that. Maybe if I did things might have changed. My mind was filled with what if's until that faithful day.
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