Here's the second chapter, I hope you like it!
It took Kairi nearly an hour to calm Sora down and she was starting to get annoyed. "Oh, the great hero who has saved the world twice…" She thought being irritated but soon shook her head to get rid of that thought. "I shouldn't think like that… It just hurts to hear, that he loves Riku and I can't really help but be jealous… I love him too and Riku, he's not good…" And Kairi voiced her thoughts to Sora too:
- Hey Sora… We all know that Riku has changed a lot… and well he's still so near to vanish to the darkness again and… you know you still have me. I love you, Sora. We could be happy together, you know without Riku…
Sora just smiled at Kairi sadly. "I'm sorry that you can't understand but if it comes to that point that I have to choose, my choice will always be Riku… always." To Kairi Sora answered softly:
- I'm sorry Kairi but that will never work out and you don't really know Riku. It's like you hate him even though he saved you… I know he has done bad things but who hasn't? And I have forgiven everything… because I love him and after he was sealed to the kingdom of hearts I fully realised that I can't live without Riku…
Sora turned to look at Kairi straight in the eyes and in Sora's eyes she could detect the unspoken:
- So you will choose Riku no matter what…?
- Yes.
Sora confirmed nodding his head and then he smiled apolitically. "I would like to keep her as a friend but if Riku's with me I don't think that in the end I really care about anyone else… Sorry Kairi…Wait…RIKU!" Sora suddenly jumped to his feet as he realised the fact that his beloved had the whole time been slipping away from him and now he got the most horrible feeling that something bad would happen. Sora didn't think anymore he just rushed out of Kairi's house and headed to Rikus' as fast as he could. Kairi was left behind stunned at the sudden vanishing of her…friend and the conflict with her emotions at her friends' confession. "I…don't know if I can be your friend anymore Sora…not if you're with Riku." The truth was that Kairi was terrified of Riku. In her dreams Riku was the dark murderer who would come to slaughter you in the middle of the night when everyone was peacefully sleeping… After all Riku surrendered to the darkness to gain power or that was what she thought. She didn't see Riku as a friend anymore.
In the meantime Sora was desperately trying to get to Rikus' home. The bad feeling he got earlier was just growing by the minute. Sora cursed himself that he couldn't go any faster on the sand to him it felt like he wasn't moving at all and the fresh tears from his desperation to get to Riku as fast as he could blurred his vision and he was stumbling on his way. It didn't help that the day had been so hot and the air hadn't really cooled even though the sun had already set and it was quite dark.
After he finally stopped in front of Rikus' house to gather his breath he was sweaty but that was the last of his worries now. Sora wiped the still remaining tears from his eyes as he tried to composure himself but he could still feel the lump in his throat at seeing that Rikus' house was dark. "Okay Sora don't panic. He might be asleep or something… It doesn't mean anything bad has happened…" Finally feeling somewhat collected Sora hesitantly knocked on the door. "But what if he's really sleeping and I wake him up? Should I come back tomorrow?… No, this can't wait I face him and find out what's wrong and then I tell him…that I miss him and that I don't want him to disappear again…because I need him and I love him…" Sora took a deep breath and tried the door knob it wasn't locked so Sora let himself in calling for Riku:
- Riku! Are you here?
- Riku!
- RIKU!
There was no answer. Sora went to upstairs to his room only to find it empty. That made his panic increase and he ran around the whole house with no sings of Riku anywhere. Sora was once again trying to steady his breath while he was leaning on the living room couch. "Don't panick! Riku might still be out… He might… but he's afraid of the dark…" Soras' knees let him down and he collapsed and fell to the floor tears not too far away: "He's afraid of the dark after everything he had to get trough, being captured in the darkness and everything…"
Sora had find out about Rikus' new fear for the dark just recently. There had been a storm in the island in the middle of the night and all the powers where gone. Sora had been asleep when a one very terrified Riku had knocked to his window in 2 am. First Sora had been very annoyed and he had thought it was a joke but seeing Riku so petrified and shaky and so unlike Riku Sora had understood that his friend was truly scared. Sora had let Riku in and they had lain in his bed while he had hold Riku tightly to his body and the silverette had clung to him like there was no tomorrow.
After that moment of weakness Riku had started to avoid Sora even more. Riku had realised how much he needed the boy he thought he could never have…
Sora on the other hand had been secretly clad that Riku had come to him when he was afraid and Sora was so happy that was able to comfort the older and hold him like that. He had thought that maybe things would turn out better after this… He and Riku would be closer than ever but how wrong he had been.
Slowly Sora got himself up from the floor he was still shaking but he was determined now. "I got to find Riku he must be scared or something bad has happened but don't worry Riku I will be there for you always!" Then he spotted a piece of paper on the table next to the coach. Carefully he lifted it and then went to the light switch and turned the lights on so he could see what the note had in it. His eyes took a moment to adjust to the light but after that he began to read. After reading the whole message he collapsed on the floor with desperate sobs ripping trough his body.
Dear, Sora
First I want to apologize that I have to leave but there really isn't another way. I know you need me somehow even after everything I've done and put you through when I surrendered to the darkness and I need you too… I just realised how much I really need you and that is why I can't stay here in the island with you. You see, I love you. I love you so much that it hurts and I have always loved you.
When Kairi got here and you fell in love with her I was jealous and I still am… That's why I went to the darkness. I couldn't face you two together but I wanted you to be happy and I believe you will be with her.
Don't worry I won't surrender to the darkness anymore it will be easier now that I don't have to watch you two together. (I'm sorry that I can't be truly happy for you. I'm not a good friend or do I even deserve to be called your best friend, no I don't.) I'll just leave this island to leave on my own somewhere… I don't want to hurt you anymore than I already have and if I stayed the darkness would probably get me in the end and then I would hurt you more than now. Now I only wish for you to be happy and that you won't try to find me… It will be the best. You will have all your friends here and the other's you made on your journey too… and you will have Kairi. Good luck Sora!
I'm truly sorry that I can't control my jealousy and be your friend. I would have liked that much more but… It's better this way and if you want to feel free to forget me but I won't ever forget you or love anyone but you. Good bye!
I love you Sora.
Riku
Thank you for reading!
Love, Black
