Hey so here's the next chapter! And I could like to thank decembersaterdayfan for being my first reviewer! YAY you rock! Ok well I don't have much to say this time so on with the story!

Convco between me and BIg time rush

Me: So Logan how did you like the last chapter? Was it good?

Logan: Ya! James I didn't know you had a special spot in the palm wood. Or that your parents were abusing you?

James: ya well neither did I.

Me: Ok who wants some tacos before we get started?

Big time rush gang: US!

Carlos: With extra marshmallows

Me: Ok! YUMMY!

James woke up the next morning on the roof but he had a blanket around him. 'Huh I didn't remember having this when I came up.' He thought.' Kendall must have brought it. After all he is the only one that knows I come up here. He's so nice to me.' James thought.' Maybe I should tell him about my past. After all he did tell me how he felt when his dad died in the war. Ya maybe I should tell him.' No that would just make him worry and he already has enough to worry about. Like his father's anniversary and Jo.' After that last though James got up and left to go to his apartment. When got there everybody else was already up and eating breakfast.

"Hey James where ya been." Logan asked. You missed a lot of fun.

"Um nowhere in particular just out." He said as he sat at the table with his friends.

"ya James you totally missed swirly slide action last night." Carlos piped in. Logan started laughing as he remembered what happened last night.

"Ya like Carlos getting pushed of and falling to the floor." Logan said still Chuckling. James smiled at that. But not even imaging Carlos Falling of a slide could cheer him up. He was just too damn worried about his dad.

"James… Woohoo…..James!" It was Kendall who was calling him.

"Huh… w-what..Oh sorry." James responded snapping out of his thoughts.

"You ok?" Kendall asked.

"Phsss ya I am ok what makes you think I'm not?" James asked. Kendall bent down and whispered in his ear.

"Because you stayed up on the roof all last night without dinner and you went all pale when you were talking on the phone last night."

With the mention of food James forgot how hungry he was.

"Um ya no im fine just hungry." Was James' lame excuse. He grabbed a few waffles and put ketchup on the and left to his room. His friends though it was gross to eat waffles with ketchup on them he thought it was delicious. He sat in his room until it was time to go to rehearsals. But his singing was horrible he just didn't have the will right now and he kept missing his queue.

"JAMES WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM!" Gustavo yelled at the tall brunette.

"Sorry Gustavo my mind just isn't on the song right now." James replied sheepishly.

"GOD YOU'RE SUCH A WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT. YOU CANT SING, YOU CANT DANCE, AND NOW YOU CANT EVEN REMEMBER A SONG!" Gustavo roared. "GET OUT JUST GET OUT RIGHT NOW!"

James just stood there and remembered another time he was called a worthless piece of shit. He didn't want to replay that scene in his head so he just ran with tears streaming down his face. He could here his friends call for him to come back but his legs wouldn't let him. So he just ran with every memory of his childhood running through his mind as well. He ran and ran until he couldn't run any longer. He collapsed by a tree in the park. He though he was alone but then he heard footsteps coming up behind hind him. But he didn't have the strength to turn around plus he couldn't breathe so he just sat there crying his eyes out gasping for breath. His friends ran p beside him and knelt down in front of him.

"Logan what do we do he can't breathe!" Came the panicked voice of Carlos.

"Ok well first we need to get him to stop crying and take big lung full's of air. Ok?" Logan replied noticing the blue ting to James lips. Not a good sign.

"James calm down ok. Just calm down everything will be ok." Logan cold hear his friends already trying to calm him down and it was working. James heart wracking sobs were slowing down to just soft little whimpers now.

"Ok now just take big breathes ok get your lungs full of air." Kendall told him. James just started gulping down air after the spastic attack he just had. But now that he could breathe better he seemed better.

"What the crap was that all about James?" Carlos asked. James just shook his head and lay down in the grass. Soon all the guys were laying down in the grass thinking about what just happened.

Kendall's POV

That little stunt that James pulled was incredibly stupid. I wonder what set his off. Because Gustavo yelling at us is a normal rehearsal day and James has never acted like that before. Then again he has been acting quiet weird lately. I'm thinking about asking him what's going on once we get back to the palm woods. I mean after all we do share a room. It's a good thing Logan knew what to do because if he didn't we might have lost James. Well maybe not lost him but it was still scaring the shit out of me. I mean looking at his blue tinged lips. Normal people don't have blue lips. But I must say they were better looking than the ones hawk gave him.

Carlos's POV

I'm still shaking over what happened. Watching James run out of the studio with tears in his eyes shocked me a bit. But watching him collapse in front of a tree was ever scarier. But the thing that scared me the most was his blue lips. Even if they were better than the ones hawk gave him. It still scared the crap out of me. I hope I never have to see that sight again. I hope whatever is bugging him he will be able to tell s because we are his friends and he can always go to us.

Logan's POV

I'm very worried about James. He never gets so worked up over Gustavo yelling at him. I wonder what set him off. Maybe the language? But either way it's a good thing we followed him. I hope he never does that again. The blue ting to his lips was not a good sing. Even if they looked better than the ones hawk gave him. But watching him sit there gasping for air scared me. Iv never seen one of my friends so vulnerable like that before. I hope that in the futer I will never have to see that again.

James' POV

I can't believe I just freaked out like that. What was I thinking? I could have blown my secret and then what, have my friends feel sorry for me? No, I don't like sorrow so I try to keep it away and I have to try harder. But man that was scary I never want to feel that again. The feeling of not being able to breathe. That scared the crap out of me. And by looks on my friends faces them too. By the way Logan was looking at my lips I'm guessing they were blue. I saw that on a show once. This guy couldn't breathe and then his lips turned blue. Well at least they probably looked better than the ones hawk gave me. Hopefully because those looked awful.

Ok so how was that? This is my first time doing it from different POV's so if a character seems out of character im really sorry tell me witch one and I will try to get it better next time. But for now just go with it. REVIEW PLEASE!