Whispers of the Heart 1: Autumn Lullaby

Disclaimer: Me no own, you no sue.

Summary:

"It shouldn't feel this way. He's someone I can't ever obtain. So why won't my heart let go? Did he have to be my brother?"

"I want to live. I want to run and laugh and do the things everyone else takes for granted. I want to be brave enough to love. But can I really if something like that will never work out? If I'll never really get a chance to have it for eternity what's the point of having it at all?"

Dark has a Problem something that he's had to suffer through most of his life. There's someone he likes. But if he pursues it the ramifications are just too horrible to consider. He knows it's wrong but his heart won't let go. He's trapped and he doesn't know what to do…

What would you do…?

Daisuke wants Things, lots of Things. Things like running, laughing, having fun, finding love and enjoying everything life could offer a teenager but he can't have them. They were stolen from him and now everyone treats him like a fine crystal – fragile and deathly beautiful. He's trapped and he wants out. He wants to find something precious before time runs out.

But will he find it in time… or will he lose it before he can reach it…?

NOTICE: I was just wondering if anyone was interested in doing a tandem story with me… I was reading this really great novel composed from one and thought I would be great to do something like that. Anyway P.M me if you're interested.

Warnings: RAPE RAPE RAPE… No only joking. Normal stuff. Alternate Universe, BXB, Fluff and Waffles with some tasty Sweet Syrup on the side… Maybe. -_-;

Autumn Lullaby

Chapter 2: Cloudy Forecast

I left them there wanting to escape more than anything. I hated the way they did that. That look of worry on their faces, the way they would look at me with pity.

'Oh poor Daisuke, Why did he have to be born like that? His parents must be having a hard time. I heard Dark goes to counselling because of it.'

I can't stand it, the way they all treat me like a china doll. I'm still strong I can do most of what other people can do. It's not like my situation disenables me from doing what anyone else is doing. I try not to cry. I try not to let it faze me. I try…I try… but sometimes it gets hard. Sometimes there's just too much to take in like when I went with my parents to the specialist. I knew they were delighted when they confirmed what they wanted to know so desperately but I couldn't help but think it was just wishful thinking. I've had my share of disappointments too many times to take any of the bullshit that came out of every doctor's mouth that said I'll get better.

When I reached my homeroom I leaned heavily against the wooden frame. This sickness that I've had ever since I was two if there was a chance to cure it I would jump at it. I would do anything to be normal. To enjoy everything that everyone took for granted. I'm living on borrowed time, I knew it sooner or later I would go and when that happens I'll miss out on everything I could have had. I sighed then as I pushed myself away from the door frame and made my way to my desk, my thoughts wandering back to earlier in the field with Riku and Dark. I didn't know why I said I went to the city for a check up. I knew from Dark's expression that he wasn't happy to be left out of the loop again, but Mom and Dad told me I had to keep it a secret. Everything that happened in the city was to remain sealed and confidential until everything could be decided. All I had to do was make sure Dark came with me to the doctor's appointment this afternoon and hopefully in a few weeks everything would have sorted themselves out and they'll be able to cure me.

"I don't like this…" I whispered under my breath. I was never comfortable with keeping secrets and I always confided in Dark. He's a good brother always looking out for me, but sometime he can be a bit overbearing so I can kind of understand why our parents want to keep him out of the loop with some things. I mean he gets so controlling that most of the people in my class avoid me like the plague because he's always hovering around. Sure Dark's really popular, he's got his own fan worship going but most of them like to look at him from a far and even more so if I so happen to be near. I chuckled at the thought of Dark death glaring all the people who ever approached me to say hi that I didn't notice that someone had walked up behind me.

"Hey Daisuke, what's so funny…?" I spun around in shock and tripped over my feet. I would have fallen face first onto the ground but the other person who shocked me was prepared and grabbed me before my lips meet hardwood. I heard a chuckle from above my new position and I looked up at the smirking face of Argentine Niwa.

"Sorry didn't mean to scare you." He said apologetically as he helped me stand straight. He dusted off my clothes while I tried to hold my temper in at being pampered. Out of all the people in my class Argentine was the only one with the confidence to approach me, seemingly unfazed by Dark's constant hovering. He was also the first person outside my family to tell Dark that he had the serious case of the brother-complex and he reminded him every chance he got, much to the irritation of my brother.

"Nah its cool, I was just thinking about Dark." I chuckled.

"Oh, what has that Chi-Mo done this time?" Argentine asked a strange glint flashed in his eyes for a minute that I thought I was imagining things.

"Nothing yet, I was just remembering how he would glare at everyone who came within a two meter radius to me." I smirked, rifling through my backpack as Argentine watched. "Remember that one time Risa Harada came over to chat with me thinking she could get closer to Dark. The glare he gave her just about peeled her face off."

"True, true but you know I don't think Risa or any girl for that matter would have much success in getting close to Dark." Argentine replied as he accepted the onigiri I handed to him from my lunchbox.

I was mid way through my own onigiri when he said that and I couldn't help chocking. "Not… that… again…" I coughed. "I told you before that Dark isn't like that okay."

"Okay Daisuke I'll believe you, but seriously don't tell me you don't notice the way he stares at you right." Argentine replied his cat-like eyes narrowing in accusation. "It's like he's going to eat you or something."

"Look I know you and Dark have your differences, but you know it isn't cool to accuse him like that. I mean, yeah Dark can be weird but I'm his little brother so of course he'd want to protect me."

"Yeah well it doesn't look like that to me. You should have seen him the first time I came over your house," Argentine shuddered at the memory. "He took me aside when you weren't looking and told me that if I so much as thought about touching you he'd personally make me a eunuch. He sounded like a jealous boyfriend when he said that."

I couldn't help but blush a deep crimson then and I wished not for the first time that Dark would learn to control himself around my last few remaining friends. "I'm sure he didn't mean anything by it."

"Oh yeah and how about all those other times he would see me with you. If you thought the glare he gave Risa almost peeled off her face you haven't been paying very close attention to your brother whenever I'm around." Argentine insisted, chowing down on his onigiri.

"Okay look can you drop the subject already. It's getting way too weird with you taking like that. It's almost like you think he's in love with me or something and that's just wrong, like dude he's my brother." I said dropping the subject down into a bottomless pit. "Look lunch is going to finish soon and I really am hungry so can we just not talk for a while."

After that Argentine didn't talk for a while obviously annoyed that I shot him down like that, but what can I do. He kept going on about some really weird stuff and I was feeling really uncomfortable. I wanted to break the tension somehow so I broached a topic that I knew would be semi neutral. "Umm… your birthday is a week from now right…? The same day as mine…?"

"Yeah so…?" Argentine replied stiffly still annoyed at me.

"I was just wondering if you maybe wanted to do something then. You know like go see a movie or the amusement park." I really wanted my friendship with Argentine to go well seeing as how he was the only friend I had that I didn't meet through Dark. "You see, Mom and Dad are busy then and Dark has a mock exam at his cram school so I'll be spending most of that day by myself."

"Why isn't your family going to spend it with you…?"

"Ummm… Well you see my parents are going to the hospital for an inquiry about my condition and that was their only available time so we decided that we'll celebrate my birthday the day before." I averted my gaze not really all that keen on further explanation.

Argentine looked sceptically at me, his face scrunched up in indecision. I could tell that he wanted to press the subject. He had the look on his face that wanted to know what could be more important that my parents would willingly forgo their child's birthday. "Fine I guess… it's not like I have anything else to do then anyway."

"Okay I'll meet you up at the station at nine and we'll take it from there." I answered, relieved that he didn't press for more information and I continued to eat my lunch glad the awkward atmosphere had vanished.

"Oh right I almost forgot, are you free this afternoon…?" Argentine asked just as the bell for fifth period rang. "Mom wanted you to visit her soon, said something about missing your company. I swear that lady loves you more than she does me!"

I couldn't help but chuckle at Argentine's annoyed tone. It wasn't like he didn't get along with his parents, he did. But I've noticed every time I came around that there was this sort of atmosphere around them, as if they regarded each other as strangers who kept close company. I had asked Argentine about it before thinking I was just imaging things and he told me that his parents weren't really the touchy feely type like mine were, so I let it slide. Although I didn't tell him that on occasions when he wasn't there that Emiko Niwa would open herself more and discuss things with me. She'd ask me question about Argentine and how he's doing and we bonded rather quickly. I could tell she was itching for a chance to tackle glomp Argentine in surprise. Probably even put him on some sort of pedestal like a trophy or something.

"Not that I don't mind your mom's company but I have an appointment with my doctor later so I can't make it." I said watching as Argentine's face changed from playful annoyance to surprise and I mentally cursed myself. I'd forgotten that out of all the people around me he worried the most about my condition. Not that I blame him really, he had to live through a similar thing with his grandma.

"So what did the doctor say about that medical trial…?" Argentine's voice was like a whisper and his eyes clouded over and I knew he was thinking about the time he last saw his grandma stuck in Palliative Care.

"Unfortunately the latest test subjects failed so the treatment fell through… although one of the doctors suggested an alternative." I replied knowing I was walking on definitely thin ice. "Apparently there was a new clinical trial happening in the US and it seemed to have really good results."

The look on Argentine's face was hard to describe. There was a mixture there. Sadness, anger, grief and joy all bundled together within a cacophony of fainter emotions. Argentine had some problems coming to terms with his Grandmother's death. He blamed the hospital for not taking better care of her. He blamed the researchers for not finding the sickness quickly before it did so much damage. He blamed his parents for being unable to provide the medical attention she needed. But most of all he blamed himself for his attitude and all the wrong things he did to his grandmother before she became terminally ill.

"That's goods… I'm glad those uppity jackasses in white suits had the time to take their thumbs out of their arse to bother finding a cure." He snarled fist clenched hard.

"Hey now! No need to be so antagonistic." I urged trying to calm him down. Argentine could get really foul when he was in a bad mood, kind of like Dark whenever he wakes up in the morning. "It's not their fault it took so long okay. What your Grandmother had what I… what I have… it's unpredictable. Remember what it was like when you first found out? Remember you went to the clinic because you thought she had a cold."

That seemed to calm Argentine down enough and he gave me a shy apologetic look. "I-I'm sorry Daisuke. I just can't stand it… she was just supposed to have the cold. It was only supposed to be minor, but know she's dead and you're at such a dangerous stage and… and… they've only found one clinical trial that might or might not work!"

'Whoa okay red alert! Topic going way to depressing!!' I thought trying to come up with some form of reassurance that will brighten up the suddenly sombre feeling.

"Hey cheer up okay! I'm only going to the appointment for a check-up," I reasoned unable to really think of anything better, but it didn't seem to work as Argentine still had that sad look in his eyes. "Look how about you come with me and Dark after school? We can go over your house afterwards…"

"Wait Dark's coming along as well…?" Argentine said and I could have sworn his features contorted into an incensed scowl for a second.

"Well yeah… the doctor wanted to see him today…" I responded. "Look I'm not really allowed to say anything so why don't you just come with us. I promise Dark won't do anything wrong."

Argentine looked at me for a few minutes and I knew he was contemplating if being anywhere near Dark would give him permanent brain damage. "Okay fine… I'll go but only if Dark stays as far away from me as humanly possible…"


A/N: Second chapter of Autumn Lullaby. This story has a mind of its' own with plots constantly raping me in my sleep. It glues me to a notebook or a computer or anything I can use to write and won't let me go until I've coughed up another chapter. I'm so tired I fell asleep while I uploaded this LOL! Anywho chapter three is coming along nicely and my big reveal won't come for another one or two chapters after, but you never know fingers crossed eh eh eh.

Anywho that's all I have today so Read and Review I guess and remember if you have any musical composition selection please tell me, I'm in desperate need of help.