Beck stood on the doorstep of the West's house with a bouquet of flowers, white lilies. It was the only thing he could think of, Tori had told him of the state Jade was in, and he didn't think he could bear to see Jade like that. A gloomy looking Mrs. West opens the door, "Oh….hello Beck." She said wearily,

"Is Jade in, I brought some flowers for her…I know it's not much considering the circumstances…." Beck trailed off, normally he wasn't one to show his emotions, but when he found out about Cat's death, this massive wave of emotion had hit him, first shock, then upset, now grief,he wasn't sobbing uncontrollably, well…not on the outside anyway, but on the inside, he was hurting, they all were, Jade more than most. Mrs. West took the flowers from Beck and put them in a vase, she sat Beck down in the living room after she poured Beck ad herself some Coffee.

"I don't know what to do." Jade's mother says tearfully to Beck, "She won't eat, she won't talk, the only thing I hear at night is her sobbing, and even when I go into her room, she can't say one word without breaking down." Beck sipped his coffee and said nothing, right now he had to be the strong one, for Jade.

"I just wanna see her, we're all worried about her." Jade still hadn't been into school, it was understandable, but Beck needed to make her see she had a group of friends who could support her.

Mrs. West looked at Beck sadly, "She's upstairs."

As he walked up the stairs he was bracing himself for what he might find on the other side of the door, honestly, he didn't know what he was expecting, he turned the handle and opened the door. Jade was lying down on her bed wrapped in her blanket, with an empty, listless expression on her face, at the foot of her bed were several empty bottles of whisky and vodka many others Beck did not care to note, he slowly made his way over to the chair beside Jade's bed. Beck was at a loss for words, he'd never seen Jade so emotional and heartbroken before, but then again, Cat wasn't dead then, now she was and Beck knew that now Cat's dead, the best part of Jade died with her. "I…I brought flowers…they're um…they're downstairs." Jade said nothing, but sit herself up and looked at him, Beck didn't like the look she was giving him…..it wasn't a nasty or malicious look, it was…hollow…..like everything behind those eyes were dead…..it was like, in those eyes were the reflection of her soul, dead and broken. "Jade…..I don't know what I can say-"

"You can't say anything." Jade said roughly, but quietly, "Nothing you say is going to make it better."

"Jade." Beck began, he put a hand on her shoulder, speaking to her in the most sincere voice, "What you don't need right now is everybody wrapping you up in cotton wool and treating you like this fragile mess." In truth, that's exactly what she was, but treating her as such wouldn't help at all. "And what you don't need is people making you feel like you can't breathe."

Jade turned her head to face him, tears running down her cheeks and her voice sounding as hollow as she felt in the inside, "Maybe I don't want to keep breathing." Beck chose to ignore that.

"What you do need, is friends, friends who know what you're going through and can support you." Beck said.

"You don't know what I'm going through, none of you know." Jade's voice sounded as stony as the look on her face, "Yeah, you lost a friend, a good friend, and that must hurt, but I lost more than a friend, I lost the person I was meant to spend the rest of my life with, so tell me Beck, on what level can any of you understand what I'm going through?" Beck could hear the bubbling undertone of venom rising up in her voice, he couldn't relate, he couldn't give Jade the counsel he so really wanted to and she so desperately needed to hear.

"I can't." He said, looking down at the floor in defeat,

"You can't." Jade repeated with a certain finality in her voice, "Look, I know you're trying to be there, all of you are..." Suddenly a look took over Jade's face, and Beck immediately noticed the drastic change from hollow and empty to being on the verge of going hysterical, "Beck I can't do this." Jade suddenly said and started weeping, beck quickly held her, rocking her back and forth in an attempt to sooth her, to no avail. "I don't want to be here, not without Cat." She cried, Beck only held her shaking body tighter, trying not to cry himself, "Beck I can't do this." she cried again, sobbing into Beck's shoulder,

Beck cupped her face with both of his hands and looked her dead in the eyes, "Jade, we're gunna be there for you."

"I just need you to leave." Jade said coldly and turned away, tucking herself back into her covers while Beck slipped out of the room while Jade cried hard.