Yami Rasui: Hello people, the bastard is back a.k.a. me, Yami Rasui. Any way it's the first day of the new year and I'm still bored as hell so I'm writing another chapter for What Hurts the Most. This time it will be Prideshipping. Another one of my favorite pairings.
Yami: So first you put me with Bakura and now you're putting me with Seto. Doesn't that make me seem like I'm sleeping around.
Yami Rasui: *glares at Yami* Would you prefer I put you in a closet and left you by yourself for three months with no one to keep you company except for my little brother?
Yami: *gulps* No I'm good. I'll let you write your story.
Yami Rasui: Thank you, now go cuddle with Bakura or Seto or whoever you want to cuddle with, I don't really care. As I have said before I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh! or the song What Hurts the Most. I don't make any money from this fic.
Seto looked at Yami who was standing in front of his desk. "What do you want Yami?" He asked. Yami stared at Seto. "I told you that I wanted to spend time with you today and you told me that we would. Our movie was two hours ago Seto," he said. Seto raised an eyebrow. "I don't know what you're talking about Yami, I told you that I couldn't do anything today, I told you that this morning." Set said. Yami glared at Seto. "You know what, I'm sick of this. I am sick of fighting for your attention with your damn company. I'm done Seto, I'm done and you won't get me to come back even if you get on your knees and beg. But I know you're too good for that so I don't want to see you ever again," Yami said. Seto watched with a look of indifference as Yami left his office. That night when he went to bed he found it to be empty and the room was devoid of all of Yami's possessions. He stared at the empty room, unable to believe that his lover was gone, that Yami had been serious when he said that he was done with their relationship. He crawled into the bed and buried his face into the pillow to just get a whiff of Yami's exotic scent.
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend I'm OK but that's not what gets me.
He couldn't believe that he had been so blind to what Yami needed from him. He had been blind to the things that Yami needed him to do. For a few nights now Yami had been distant from him and hadn't even allowed him to hold him. Yami had stopped saying 'I love you' and had stopped acting as if Seto was his boyfriend and lover. 'How could I not notice the signs, they were all there but I ignored them all and continued to tell myself that everything was fine.'
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do.
Seto went to the school on Monday and saw that Yami was hanging out with Bakura and Marik. Those three had become close friends since they had gotten their own bodies and nobody could understand their change and their close friendship. He froze as Bakura glared at him. Bakura was absolutely pissed at what had happened to the Pharaoh at the Priest's hand. Marik held Bakura from going over there and pounding the crap out of Seto, whispering that they needed to take care of their friend. Yami walked away and Marik and Bakura followed him. Seto went and joined Yugi, Teá, Tristan, Joey, Duke, Malik, and Ryou. He gave them a smile. "I'm really sorry about what happened with Yami, Seto," Teá said, "I thought you two were doing fine and then Ryou told us that Yami is staying at Bakura's place after he broke things off with you." She said. Seto just nodded. "Yeah I thought we were doing good as well, it came as quite a shock," Seto said. They all headed to class and Seto was glad that they didn't have any classes with Marik, Bakura, and Yami.
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doing it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken.
Seto sighed when lunch came and he sat alone. He had told the yugi-tachi that he just wanted to be on his own for a little bit. He ended up outside under a tree where he could see Yami, Bakura, and Marik sitting up on the roof of the school. Getting up this morning had been difficult knowing that Yami wasn't there to make him eat breakfast instead of just having a cup of coffee. He knew where he had gone wrong. He had assumed that not crowding Yami after what had happened two months ago would be best. Yami hadn't told him what had happened but the trial had been enough to tell him what had happened. They didn't speak of it and Seto had backed away to show that he wasn't going to hurt Yami. At first that had been good, but then Yami had wanted comfort after nightmares but Seto was never there when he woke up from the nightmares and would tell Yami to go back to bed when he came to his office. Another thing hit Seto. 'I…I never told him that I loved him. That I loved him with all of my heart.'
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Seto sighed as it came time for class again. He sat in his math class with a sheet of line paper in front of him and a pen in his hand. He sighed and began writing, the words flowing out onto the paper in a letter that he planned to have delivered to Yami. He knew that Yami was pissed at him and he had every right to be but Seto wanted Yami to understand that he was truly sorry that he hadn't taken care of him. He knew he could probably never get Yami back but he'd deal with that, he just wanted Yami to know that he was sorry.
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend I'm OK but that's not what gets me.
Seto went to Yugi after school and handed the letter over to him. "Deliver this to Yami for me. I'd deliver it to him myself but I don't think he would want to see me so soon after the break up," Seto said. Yugi nodded as he took the letter. "I'll make sure that he get's it Seto. I'll take it to him when I go to visit Ryou," he said. Seto nodded his thanks and headed home to bury himself in work as he had for the last three days.
Yami took the letter from his hikari when Yugi presented it to him. He took it up to the room he was sharing with Bakura and stared at it as he thought about Seto. Bakura looked at him and sat next to him. "Yami, I know that you still love him and that you will never stop loving him. If you truly need to go back to him then go back to him. But make sure that is what you truly want." Bakura said. Yami nodded and opened the letter. His eyes widened as he read through it, reading Seto's heartfelt apology and understanding that Seto truly meant it. Yami looked at Bakura. "Make him wait a week, then go back to him," he said. Yami nodded.
Seto sighed as he rubbed the bridge of his nose to alleviate the headache that was starting. He hadn't heard anything of Yami coming back to him and he didn't think he would. It had been a week since he had written the letter that he was hoping would bring Yami back to him. He continued to rub the bridge of his nose. "I'm sorry Yami and I love you dearly. I just wish you were here again," Seto whispered.
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Seto gasped when he felt arms wrap around his shoulders and a chin on his shoulder. "I know you're sorry my love, I read your letter and knew that what you wrote was true. I love you Seto Kaiba," a voice told him. Seto pulled the warm body around his chair and pulled it into his lap. He knew it by heart and the way it fit his body. "You're back, my Yami is back," Seto whispered. Yami smiled and touched Seto's face. "And I'll stay if you promise not to ignore me again." He whispered. Seto smiled and kissed Yami's nose. "I won't ignore you Yami, and if you'll skip school with me tomorrow I'll take you out and we'll spend the entire day together." Seto said. Yami smiled. "With an offer like that how can I resist? I'll be happy to spend all day with you tomorrow." Yami said. He put his mouth next to Seto's ear and whispered something to him.
Three hours later Seto stood next to the balcony doors of his room and stared out at the sky with a smile on his face. He looked over at his bed when he heard Yami whisper something that sounded like 'I love you Seto.' He smiled at the fact that he had Yami back in his life and he was going to make sure that he told Yami that he loved him every day and twice or more if he forgot some days.
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do.
Yami woke up and looked at Seto. Seto joined his lover and pulled him to his chest. "I'll never ignore the love I see in your eyes again," Seto whispered. Yami smiled and fell asleep in Seto's arms with Seto following him shortly after him. Mokuba looked in and smiled before whispering into the phone, "They're snuggled up together Bakura. I don't think you have anything to worry about."
The door was shut quietly, leaving a Pharaoh in the arms of his Priest.
Owari
Yami Rasui: After what I did to Yami in the first one I figured he should get a happy ending. I seem to be sleep deprived at the moment and I plan to write a few more of these tonight. I really don't know where they're coming from and really I could care less because I think they're pretty good. I was thinking that I should get a beta reader but I could care less at the moment about a beta reader. You want to be one fine, then tell me, but otherwise they're turning out just fine in my opinion. If you have a couple you liked to see (as long as it's yaoi) then I'll be happy to try and write it for you.
Bakura: Do I get another chapter soon? It was sickening to listen about this chapter from Seto and how he got to be in this one.
Yami Rasui: *glares at Bakura* For asking me when you get another chapter your chapter with Ryou is getting written when I feel like writing it. It could happen tonight, for all I know it could happen three days down the road. Now get out of here before I lock you in a closet with my brother and no one else.
Bakura: O.O *runs away like the devil is on his heels*
Yami Rasui: R&R if you feel like it. I don't really have the energy to care at the moment. Happy New Year people. Ja ne.
