I drove my red beat up truck that Jacob had fixed up for me the first time I came here. It wasn't getting any better in speed, it actually is kind of wearing down a bit. I bet he could fix it. I parked the truck in a nearby parking space and turned it off. When I got outside my heart sped up in worry. I saw Edward's shiny Volvo a couple parking spaces away from me. And standing next to the car was Edward.
I gulped and slung my backpack over my shoulder. I tried to walk past him and try to pretend like I either didn't care that he was there or that I didn't see him. He wouldn't have that. Right when I got passed him he put his hand on my arm and pulled me to the side of him. He put his arm around my waist.
"What are you doing Edward?" I asked in a shocked voice. I tried to wiggle away but he wouldn't let me.
"Getting you back." he simply said.
"Putting your arm around my waist isn't going to get me back. Besides every one at school knows that I am dating Jacob. People are going to start rumors if they see you here again and touching me like you use to. Eventually the word will get around to La Push and then Jacob would hear..." I was rambling I know but I was worried. Already people were staring. "Just please take your arm off me before people think I am cheating on Jacob."
He reluctantly took his arm off me. "Who cares about Jacob Black anyway?" he growled. "You yourself told me that you still love me."
"I know Edward, but like I said I can't break up with Jacob just because your back. Besides who knows when the next time you leave will be."
Edward's eyes turned sad."Bella-"
"No Edward, I don't want to hear it."
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When it was lunch time I got in line to get some lunch. People were already starting to talk about Edward and I. My heart was beating so fast from being so anxcious that it made me feel sick. I just got a water to calm my nerves. When I got to the regester I was about to pay when a couple dollars were slammed down on the counter. Before I had time to react Edward said keep the change and grabbed my arm, tugging me to the table that he and I sat by together alone so long ago.
He sat me on one chair then sat across from me. He had a frustrated look on his face."Bella you should really eat something."
I straitened up my posture."I am not hungry."
Edward rolled his eyes. "I'm going to go sit with Jessica and Angela." I said standing up but before I could go anywhere I was pulled back down in my seat."Stay." he said simply with such authority that I widened my eyes and obliged.
We sat in silence for a while. I would look down at the table while taking the lable off my water while Edward would keep staring at me with the same frustrated expression. I never met his gaze, I was too afraid of the agony and anger that I knew I was causing him. I swallowed and cleared my throat when I felt someone sit beside me.
I looked over to see the gossipy girl Jessica sitting next to me."Hey Bella." She turned to Edward giving him a flirtacious smile. I knew she had all the right in the world to do that right now since him and I wern't together anymore, but it still made me jealous. "Hey Edward."
"Hello Jessica." he said politely but you could see that he didn't want her here.
Jessica turned to me."So Bella. How are you and Jacob doing?" she asked. I knew she was searching for gossip to spread around about me since Edward was back and it seems like we are spending time together again.
"We are doing just fine." I answered trying not to sound rude.
Jessica gave me a mischevious smirk."Did you guys do what you two have been planning?"
I looked up at Edward and saw the anger on his face. It was quite frightening. I had told Jessica that Jacob and I were planning to have sex, and he must have been reading it in her thoughts.
"Um...Jessica can we talk about this later?"
"Oh just answer me now." she whispered, unknowinly that Edward could hear every word she said just as clearly if she was saying them out loud."It's not like he knows what I'm talking about, unless you told him." she still had that glint in her eye. I knew I would regret it but I answerd her.
"Yes." I said quietly.
Jessica's smile got bigger."Is he good?" she asked getting closer.
Not only was I embarressed to answer this question, I also didn't know. I was definately satisfied but I haven't had enough experience to know what sex was good and what sex was bad."He was to me."
She crooked a finger for me to come closer."Is he... big?" she whispered.
"Okay Jessica, I think it's time for Bella and I to get to class." Edward said trying to hide the anger in his voice but not succeeding. I looked at the clock that hung on the wall in the cafeteria. We still had time.
I really didn't want to be alone with Edward at this moment. I was afraid of how he'd react. My voice came out shaky,"W-we still have ten minutes Edward."
"Yes but I would like to talk to you alone." he said standing up. He came over to the side I was sitting on and picked up my stuff while grabbing my arm."Excuse us Jessica. Have a nice lunch." then he forced me out of my seat and dragged my unwilling body out the cafeteria doors.
He lead me to the right, down the hall and out the main entrance. The whole time not saying anything but I felt the angry vibes coming off him. My heart was pouding at the speed of light and the iron clasp on my arm may not have hurt but I was afraid that he would accidentally break it from how angry he was.
He lead me to his car and forced me inside. Before he shut the door he put the child safety lock on so I couldn't get out. I gulped after he shut the door. This was going to be bad.
I winced when I heard his door open and him slam it shut after he sat down. He rested his left elbow on his stearing wheel and bend forward into his hand, pinching the bridge of his nose. He was silent for about two minutes when he finally spoke."Tell me it isn't true Bella."he said in a soft agonized tone.
I fiddled my hands in my lap, not sure what to say or even if I wanted to say it."I-I can't Edward."
I looked out the window so I couldn't see him. I didn't want to see him in pain. I heard him sob loudly. My heart broke at the sound, my own tears were threatening to come out.
We sat in silence for a while longer. We sat, and sat, and sat until it was time to go to class. When it was time he took a deep breath before getting out of the car and coming around to my door to let me out. When he did he let me walk ahead of him. He was clearly to upset with me right now and he didn't want me to see him. I didn't want to see him at the moment either. If I did I would just cry hysterically.
We walked to our next class together a little late. I was to upset to feel embarressed, even when the teacher said something about it. I sat down at a avaiable desk and Edward sat beside me. It was strange how he was still in pain but he still wanted to be around me. He was truly a masochist.
I looked over at Edward but he kept his gaze at the head of the class. His face was twisted in anguish and if he could I could swear he would be bawling. I looked back to the front and tried to listen. The teacher looked at Edward and saw his face. The teacher looked concerned. "Mr. Cullen welcome back... are you alright? Do you need to step outside?"
Edward sighed."Yes, I think I should."
I covered my mouth. He was so upset that he had to leave the classroom. I fought my own tears as I saw him stand up and walk out of the classroom. The teacher followed him so he could talk to him.
The class was quiet for a moment but then their heads turned to look at me."Bella." I heard Jessica say. "What did you do?"
I shook my head and put my head down on my arms. I couldn't believe I was hurting him this bad.
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I walked into my room after school was finally over. I was expecting the door to squeak when I shut it and I was expecting my bad to make a loud thump when I tossed it to the ground, but what I had not expected was to be shoved forcefully against the door by my forearms and have cold hard lips crush against mine.
My eyes widened in shock. I quickly turned my head to the side after screaming against the lips."Edward what are you doing!"
Edward put his lips to my neck giving me wet open mouth kisses along the length of it. He didn't answer me. He just continued his assault.
"Edward stop!" I said forcefully. He did and locked his golden sorrow filled eyes with mine. "Why?" he whisperd in an anguished tone. "Why would you do this to me? No. How could you do this to me may be the better question."
I furrowed my eyebrows."I never expected you to come back!" I yelled. "What did you expect? Me to be a virgin forever?"
"I was hoping you at least would wait for marriage. And I would remain a virgin forever for you."
I crossed my arms."Well not everyone has as much control as you do Edward." I snapped.
I heard him growl low in his chest before I felt is arms take my forearms and him throw me down on the bed. He spread my legs and put his knees between my them. He knelt down and forcefully kissed me on the mouth. This kiss was rough but passionate. It was difficult to keep a clear mind. "Edward wh-what are you doing." I said when my lips were free and he assaulted my neck like before.
"If Jacob Black can make love to you before marriage, so can I" he slipped his hands under and ran his cold hands along my abdomen.
"Edward he is my boyfriend!" I said shocked my his words. What has gotten into him? Had he snapped? Had he gone crazy?
"Boyfriend isn't married." he said in a husky voice. He stuck out his tongue which was pretty long by the way and licked up the length of my neck. I shuttered beneath him from the pleasure. I groaned but then Edward's words quickly came through my head. I gasped. I put a hand on his chest and shoved up away off me. "What has gotten into you?" I asked the shock clear in my throat.
"I love you Bella." he said. I saw the raw desire in his eyes mix with love and pain."I want you. I need you. And I'll be damned if I let some dog have you. You are mine Bella." and at that he crushed his lips to mine. He grabbed my calf that was on the bed and brought it up so it linked around his waist. He repeated the action with the other leg. He pressed his pelvis into mine and I gasped when I felt his erectoin. I didn't think it was possible but it was hot! Like as hot as Jacob's. I didn't see how that was possible since Jacob was a werewolf that had skin hotter than a fever and Edward had skin as cold as ice.
"Edward s-stop. This is wrong."
"Mmm Bella." He moaned."I know you don't want me to stop. I can smell you." he growled with pleasure.
He was right. I was so wet that I was soaking my panties and almost through my jeans. I felt his ice cold hand leave a trail of fire up my abdomen again. He kept going up until he got to my breast and gently cupped it. I moaned into is mouth.
I was getting so caught up in the passion that I groaned in anger when he stopped. I looked up at Edward and saw that he was angry too."Shit!" he whisper yelled. I widened my eyes. Edward must have been pretty angry if he cussed. "Your father is home." and sure enough, right after he said that I heard his cruiser door shut.
"I must go my love." his voice was full of frustration. He got up off the bed and started to leave, but not before he gave me one last long lingering kiss. I was watched him jump out my window breathing heavy and bewildered.
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I woke up that night with a sudden chill. It felt like it had to be around four in the morning. I sighed. I'm glad there wasn't school tomorrow otherwise I'd be a walking zombie. I ran my hand through my hear and sighed. Suddenly I felt cold kisses along my neck.
My eyes shot open in surprise. I flipped onto my back and looked over to see a very naked Edward laying beside me. It was then I realized why I was so cold. I was naked too! "Edward!" I said in anger.
He gave a mischevious smirk and starting to kiss, lick and suck behind my ear. My eyes rolled to the back of my head but then I realized what he was doing when he nipped me. i shoved him away and pulled the sheet to my exposed breasts. I looked at my surroundings. I wasn't in my room. I was in Edward's room. Everything was the same as I remembered it. I saw his massive stereo and his large CD selection, his window that was replaced his wall, even the smell was the same. The only thing that was different was a massive iron black bed replacing his couch.
I looked at Edward and saw the moon light make his snow white skin glow. He looked so beautiful, ecspecially naked. I tried not to look at the bottom half of him. I sat up and put a pillow over his private area.
"When did you get this?" I asked gesturing to the bed.
"Today. I went to Port Angelas after I left your room." he smirked at me after he said that.
I blushed and gave a nervous smile. But when I realized I was naked in his bed with his naked as well beside me.
"Edward!" I yelled. "Why in the hell am I NAKED?"
Edward just chuckled and shoved my shoulder down so I was now on my back. He got under the covers with me and swung his leg over on one side of my bed so he was now strattling his waist. My eyes widened in shock.
Edward bent down so his soft cold lips were at my ear. "I told you before Bella." he breathed."I want to make love to you." he nipped my earlobe.
"Edward I can't betray Jacob."
He chuckled."You already have just by kissing me before. What he doesn't know won't hurt him."
"Edward do you realize what you are saying?" I asked incredilous.
"Yes love. I am in love with you. I want to be with you forever. I am hoping after tonight you will call and break up with him." My eyes widened at his worth. I opened my mouth to scold him but he took that advantage and crushed his lips to mine. He slipped his tongue in dominated mine. I wasn't complaining.
He continued to devour my mouth, moaning while he did. He spread my legs apart that were now dripping with my arousal and placed his legs between mine like he did earlier today. He hooked my legs around his waist like he did before.
He ran his hands up my sides and onto my breasts. He gently but firmly squeezed them, elicting a moan from my mouth. He smiled and bent his head down to take my erect nipple in his mouth. I gasped at the pleasurable feeling. He gently ran his teeth along it and twirled his tongue. He did not tease the other nipple with his fingers in a result of it being painful and writhing. I had a hunch that he did that on purpose so that I would beg for it. So I did.
"Edward please." I cried.
"Please what love? Tell me what you want." I looked into his eyes. They were full of desire and they were talking to me as if saying 'I dare you to tell me.'
"The other nipple please."
He smiled."With pleasure." I shuttered as he growled the last word. I moaned when he sucked on the painful nipple. He repeated what he was doing with the nipple before this one except this time he ground his hips into mine.
"Edward!" I yelled in pleasure.
He chuckled and continued. I felt him slide his erection against my slick fold, making me even more wet if that was possible. He rubbed it against my clitoris and that was my undoing. I climaxed and rode the waves of pleasure. It was amazing that he could make me have an orgasm with out being inside me yet.
He rose above me and I looked down and saw that he was postitioned above my center. I gasped at how big he was. And I thought Jacob was huge, which he was, but Edward was at least and inch and a half wider and longer.
"Like what you see love?" he asked erotically. I gulped and nodded, not able to speak. He bent down after giving me a soft loving look. He bent down and gently but passionately kissed me on the lips. As he was doing that I felt him slide inside me. My eyes rolled at the back of my head at the feeling. He stayed there for a moment so I could get use to the feeling.
"Edward. Please...move..."
He grunted and started a even slow pace. Each time he would go almost all the way out and then plunge back in, hitting my g-spot everytime. It would cause a jolt of pleasure to wrack through my body. He started going a little faster right when I needed him to. We were both panting loudly. I closed my eyes to savor the feeling.
"Open your eyes love." he said softly but strangled from the pleasure. "I want to look at your eyes while I make love to you."
I comply and saw the love in his eyes. I was meeting his thrusts eagerly now and we both were going harder and faster. He bent down and put his lips on my neck. He sucked my skin in and nipped down hard, but not hard enough to break my skin. I moaned both from pain and pleasure. He did that a couple of more time under my jaw and at my throat.
"Oh Edward. I'm so close." I said when I felt the tightening of my walls and inside my stomach.
"Let go Bella." he said. "Release." he put his fingers at my center and rubbed my clit while saying "I love you."
I screamed so loud I'm sure all the windows vibrated in the house. My walls tightened around Edward but he didn't climax. He kept going. In, out, in, out until I once again climaxed. Edward still had not.
"Tell me you love me." he said in my ear. It sounded strangled and in pain from not being released.
"I love you Edward..."I panted."I always will." and at that he did one final hard thrust and I climaxed for the third time along with Edward. Our hips were bucking violently from riding out our orgasm. I saw Edward's eyes roll to the back of his head before mine did as well.
When our bodies stopped moving Edward rolled to my left side and took me in his arms. I was panting and sweaty. Edward was panting to even though he didn't need to.
"Go to sleep love." and right after he said that I did.
