Jade's POV

Used to be one of the rotten ones and he liked you for that.

"Well..." I repeated for the thousandth time. "Beck, it's hard to be happy when everything I actually love in life is just deteriorating." I started to tear up, but I just couldn't cry in front of Beck. But I sucked it up for now.

"Like what?" He asked. 'Ugh, isn't it obvious?' I thought to myself.

"You would know. You should know by now what I love and hate by now." I said. But that answer didn't satisfy him.

"Can you just tell me, Jade?" He asked.

"Have you seen us lately? Look at us? Are we happy? All we do is just lay on each others bed and sleep. We barely talk... You're always with other girls-" He tried to interrupt, but I wouldn't let him, "Don't even say I'm overreacting, Beck. I know you... What has happened to us? Then... ugh." I don't want to tell him anything! Why am I doing this again? Oh, well knowing him, he won't give it a rest if I don't... "My parents, they're not happy. All they do is fight. I just know they're going to get a divorce. The most put to fucking together people I know are just going down the fucking drain." I couldn't keep in my tears anymore. I started to just cry. Like a river was going to form because I cried that much. "Then Tori, everyone fucking loves Tori. It's Tori this. Tori that. We make plans with just the old gang and then Tori has to come." I know it might sound bitchy that I hate how my friends love being around Tori, but it's like they don't even want to hang out with me anymore. But then again, Tori isn't what's wrong with me. I just didn't know what else to say.

"Jade, you can't control who I hang out with or our friends." Beck replied.

Is that really all he had to say? "I know! But God, Beck. It's like you – no one ever wants to hang out with me. It's like you kids just got a new toy and got rid of your old one."

"You really feel that way? You think we've replaced you with Tori?" He asked.

"Have you not been listening?" I fell onto his couch face down... still crying my eyes out.

He walked over to the couch and sat beside me. He rubbed my back over and over again for a while until he finally said something, "What's so bad about us?" He asked.

I turned over. I stopped crying, but I started to hyperventilate. The tears were gone but I was breathing like a maniac, "Jade, calm down." Beck said. It's hard to calm down when you can't stop breathing like this. "We're not happy... we're not. All we do is fight, make up, kiss and sleep in each others bed. Fight, make up, kiss and sleep in each others bed. We barely even hold a conversation without one of us picking a fight." I buried my head into his chest. Again, he rubbed my back until he thought of what he was going to say.

"I know... between you and I, things haven't been that good. But I don't know what to do. I thought you felt the same way I do when we fall asleep, everything is alright. You holding me during the night... you never let go. I have you by my side and it couldn't be any better because through all the fights, I know you still love me and I still love you. We just can't figure out how to fix it. I didn't know..." He stopped for a moment. "I didn't know, that you felt unhappy. I honestly wouldn't blame you, because I know we could be happier than this. I'm sorry I haven't been able of doing that. I want you to be happy..." He paused for a second but before he started once again, I kissed him. He wrapped his arms around me, pulling himself closer and closer to me. But he stopped because I don't think my heavy breathing was turning him on.

"Jade, is there anything else that makes you unhappy?" He asked.

I shrugged. He put his arm around me, pulling me into his chest. "You can tell me anything. I'll try to make it better okay. I promise you." 'I promise you.'

"You better keep it." I told him. Getting comfortable, I started to breathe normally once again.

Out of no where, he got up from the couch, making me fall on my face on his couch. "Give me your stuff." He said.

"What?" I replied. Not even a sorry for making me fall flat on my face on your couch? My knight in shining armor is so sweet...

"You can't be happy if you're hurting yourself." Beck said. He walked over to the closet to search through my items.

Ugh, he's stealing away everything I need...

"Empty your pockets." He demanded.

"What are you? The cops." I hissed, I did what he asked.

I laid each item in my pocket on the table. Two razor blades, four bandages, a paperclip with a sharpened end, a copy of Beck's keys, my cellphone and my iPod.

"What do we have here?" Beck said, trying his best to sound like a cop, he held a big bag in his hands, with words that said, 'Stuff not for Jade'. He disposed of the razor blades and paperclip. He walked back over to my luggage to clean it out.

"Why don't you get something to eat?" He suggested.

Ugh, no thank you. I didn't tell him anything, I just stood there, in the middle of his trailer, watching him rummage through my stuff.

Since I didn't do anything, Beck made me something to eat. A breakfast sandwich... filled with eggs, bacon, and lettuce. All I could think was, this is disgusting. Why is he doing this to me?

"Eat up." He smiled and placed it on the table. 'I am not going to eat that', I thought to myself. He watched me stare at the sandwich for about three minutes. "Come on, Jade." Take a bite. So I did. I slowly chewed the piece. 'Ugh, what is he trying to do? Make me fat?'

"C'mon, eat more." He said. I shook my head, "I don't feel so good." I lied.

"Oh, well do you want me to get something? A Tylenol?" He suggested. I nodded. He jetted over to his bathroom. He left the door right open, but I know what I was about to do... was crazy. But I felt like I needed to. I ran over and shut the door and pulled over his desk to lock him out. I heard him pounding on the door, "Jade? JADE!"

"I'm so sorry." I cried. I tried to put all my items back into my luggage before he got out. Beck is pretty strong, so I knew I had limited time before he got out of there. I grabbed a few things from the bag where he was throwing away things of mine, but once I finished, he got out. He ran over to me, taking my arms away.

"What are you doing?" I can see the worry in his eyes. It almost looked like he wanted to cry...


Beck's POV

Used to be one of the rotten ones and I liked you for that.

What the fuck was she doing? Locking me inside of my own bathroom. Does she want me to kill over? I kept pushing and pushing the door, trying to move whatever was on the other side of the door. Once I finally got it out of the way. I saw Jade, trying to leave...

"What are you doing?" I grabbed both of her arms, they were trembling like crazy.

"I want to leave." She said softly. She didn't even look at me.

"Why?" I asked her. I was so close of crying. Seeing her like this... it's making me go crazy.

"I just can't fucking live here anymore. I'm going to Cat's." She started to zip her luggage, she didn't even finish packing.

"And keep on hurting yourself? Running away from someone who cares so much about you. I just want to help, Jade I love you." I told her.

"NO!" She shouted. "You really don't." She carried her luggage to the door.

What did she mean? 'Your don't.' I do.

She opened the door slowly, but I ran in front of her, "Wait."

"WHAT!" She yelled. I guess I startled her or maybe she's just mad at me.

"What do you mean? I don't love you? I do." I said.

She rolled her eyes and tried to leave again, but I stopped her, "Tell me and I'll let you go to Cat's." I told her.

She stomped her feet on the floor. She dropped her luggage and walked over to my bed. She sat on the edge and just looked around the trailer for a while until she finally told me.

"You don't care. You're so damn selfish. You never like hanging out with me. God dammit, if you never like hanging out with me, why are you still here? When we're not with our acquaintances, you're actually nice and decent to be around. What's up with the act?" She said.

"It's not an act... I" Shit, I don't even know what to say now. I'm not selfish though, what was she talking about?

"See, you can't even try to prove me wrong." Jade said.

"I'm not selfish." I said, stupid response. "Jade..." I put my arm around her, "I guess my attitude lately hasn't show-" Fuck, what am I saying? "Ugh, I don't know what to say..." I told her.

She got off my bed and got her stuff. She headed to the door and said, "Find me when you figure out what you're going to say."

"You think you're going to be okay, alone?" I asked her.

"Here." She handed me the bag of stuff I took away from her earlier, "I'll be perfectly fucking fine." I watched her leave. From the window of my trailer, I watched her turn onto the corner. Fuck, what am I doing, I should be chasing after her...

Now you're all gone got your make-up on and you're not coming back. Can't you come back?


Jade's POV

I turned on the corner of Beck's street. Where was I going? Cat's not even home. She's in Bermuda for her cousins wedding. I'm not going home, I know that. The only place I had was Beck's place. But I'm not going back there. I guess I could go to...

A/N: I hope you like this chapter. It took me a while to figure out how I want this to all play out. Where do you think Jade will go?