Here's Chapter 2! I'm glad you're liking it so far. Don't worry, there will be Elsanna feels soon enough! Keep reading my little shippers.
-Chapter 2-
Elsa awoke with gasp as she looked around the dark room, her eyes slowly adjusting. She placed her face between her cold hands as she let out a sigh. A nightmare. She can't seem to get through nights without them anymore. It had been a week, a week since..that day. A week since Anna reassured her that she had nothing to feel guilty about; but she does feel guilty. The Ice Queen laid her head back against the pillow and closed her eyes but to her dismay, all she could remember was the dream.
"Anna, your sister, is dead because of you." The words that came out of Hans's mouth replayed over and over again. "No..no not Anna..I love her.." was all Elsa could think at that point as she slowly collapsed to the ground, ice and snow blowing torrentially around her and the rest of Arendelle as she let herself feel and let herself be so vulnerable. She was ready at that point, she wanted Hans to kill her, she deserved it after all. What kind of sister was she? She wasn't a sister, or a Queen; she was a monster and she knew it. She will always know it deep down.
Elsa tossed and turned, trying to forget the memories that clouded her head every night. "No, I won't let that happen again. I won't let myself break." She whispered aloud, more so trying to convince herself then tell herself. She pulled the useless covers off of her body and revealed her night wear, blue silk pants with a matching short sleeve top, and stood up as she paced the room. "I love Anna. I need to protect her. But what kind of love exactly? I've never had a boyfriend before, or even been interested in a man. I'm honestly not even sure what Anna sees in Kristoff and God knows what she saw in Hans. I've met the other 12 royal siblings of the Southern Isles and I can't find a single thing attractive in them, but then I look at women and their curves, soft skin, soft lips. The auburn red hair and the icy blue eyes.." Wait what? No, no she can't be thinking of Anna. She loves Anna in a sisterly way, right? "Ugh!" Elsa spat out and sat back on her bed. "All this pacing around and thinking isn't going to do me any good, I love Anna as a sister and I will continue to do so. I will marry a King and put these silly feelings aside and that is decided." And with that, the Ice Queen laid back in her bed and shut her eyes, soon falling into a deep, peaceful sleep.
Anna woke up wrapped up in her boyfriends warm body, his arms wrapped around her as he slept. She sat up and stretched as Kristoff turned and continued his loud snoring. "It's amazing I sleep through that. Or that any person in Arendelle sleeps through that." Anna thought as she slowly rolled out of bed, careful not to wake her love. She sleepily walked to her vanity, an old oak desk with a matching mirror. It was her Mother's and it is one of her favorite pieces of furniture. She sat down and looked herself over in the mirror; her hair was disheveled and what was left of last nights makeup was smeared across her face. She let out a laugh and wiped it off with a tissue from atop the desk and grabbed her brush, slowly unknotting the mess of auburn hair that rested on her head. Her hair now reached halfway down her back and it made brushing it alone hard so she decided to ask Elsa if she would help her. She grabbed the brush, suddenly feeling nervous about seeing her sister. Sure they had been..closer since last week. But what kind of closeness? Elsa still had a distance between her and the Princess knew it was because of what happened; she wished that her sister didn't feel guilty and she wished that she could help. "I can't let her be afraid anymore. I promised her and I will keep any promise to her. I won't let her think she's a monster anymore because in reality, she is perfect. She tries so hard to keep everyone happy and she tries so hard to make sure that everything is perfect. Even if means putting her own feelings and her own happiness aside. Maybe she needs a boyfriend!" Anna thought as she looked at Kristoff, the blankets tangled around his body as he slept peacefully. "Yes a boyfriend! Someone to keep her happy and someone else to help me keep her happy." Anna thought this was a perfect plan and skipped out the door to Elsa's.
tap tap tap Anna's knuckle gently rapped over the beautiful white door with painted on snowflakes. "Elsa?" Anna asked from the other side of the door. "Are you in there?" She put her hand on the frigid doorknob and slightly turned; it was unlocked. She slowly crept the door open and peeked her head in as she saw Elsa's silhouette curled up in bed, the blankets on the floor. Anna smiled and slowly walked in, grabbing the blankets off the floor and placed them over her sister gently. "Someones sleepy." Anna stated as she sat on her sister's bedside, brushing a strand of loose white hair away from her beautiful face. She really was beautiful, Anna thought to herself as she took in her sisters features. She had the most beautiful, snowy white hair she had ever seen and it complimented her bright blue eyes perfectly. Anna lightly traced the features of her sisters face with her fingertip, careful not to wake the sleeping Queen. "So much softer than Kristoff's scruffy face.." She thought to herself, gently running her fingertip across Elsa's lips, "and so much softer than his chapped lips.." Anna slowly leaned down and stopped herself. Wait what? What am I doing? She jumped up a little too fast, causing the bed to shake and the Queen stirred in her sleep, slightly opening her eyes then shot up out of bed.
"Anna!" The Queen yelled, pulling the blankets up to cover the exposed cleavage her v-neck sleep shirt shown. "What in the world are you doing?!" Anna's face was bright red as the blush creeped up from her neck and covered her face in a crimson red. "I..I needed help brushing my hair and you were still asleep so I covered you and..and!" Anna nervously stuttered out. Why was she nervous? What was happening? Elsa couldn't help but find the stuttering cute, almost letting a smile slip from her serious expression. No. She couldn't be vulnerable around Anna, she couldn't put her in danger again. "Get out!" Elsa screamed, Anna's face dropping as her eyes shifted to the ground, her hand clutched around the brush. "I..I'm sorry" She managed to get out without her voice breaking. Why was Elsa acting like this again? Why was I so nervous? Was I going to..kiss Elsa?
Anna slowly backed up to the door and her hands instinctively twisted around one another, playing with her fingers. No. She wasn't going to let her sister act this way again. She wasn't going to shut her out again. "I was only asking for your help! Why have you been so distant towards me still Elsa?!" Anna cried out, desperate for answers. It broke Elsa's heart but she wouldn't let herself get close to Anna, in fear of letting her hurt her again. "I'm not distant Anna," Elsa tried to calmly explain, but she could feel herself starting to lose control, "please just go, I don't have time to help you with something so silly, now leave me be so I can prepare for the day." Elsa turned around so that Anna wouldn't be able to see the sadness in her eyes, and so that she couldn't see the heartbreak in Anna's. She wanted nothing than to invite Anna into bed with her, to hold her and protect her. But how can she protect Anna when the only person that poses a threat is herself?
"Fine. If that's what you want." No of course it's not what I want, but it's what needs to be. Anna turned and walked out of the Ice Queen's room, closing the door behind her and let out a sigh before covering her face and running to the bathroom so she could be alone.
Elsa couldn't hold it in anymore and blasts of icicles erupted from her hands, filling the room as her anger and guilt overtook her body. "I..love you Anna. I'm so sorry.." She whispered to herself as she sunk to the chilled floor of her bedroom. "Please understand that I'm doing this for your own good, for your protection!" Elsa spoke, her voice echoing around the empty room. "Please don't hate me.."
