(Kendall POV)

What have I done? That is the only question going thought my mind right now. I should have never listened to her. I should have followed my heart. I should have stayed with him. This should have never come to pass. I know I should have stopped the moment I felt something for him. However, I knew my heart wouldn't let me. The first moment I sam him I knew he would hold my heart until the end.

(8 months back)

"Kendall get your lazy ass up and out of this damn bed right now…" I groaned and rolled over to see James Diamond, my roommate, my best friend and brother looking at me with pan of water in his hands. "Don't make me dude…" I grinned and slowly rose from my bed.

"Do I have to do this?" I asked as I looked towards the clock and seen it read 5:30am.

"Yes… Well if your weren't stupid then no," I rolled my eyes but I knew he was right. My stupid mouth and I don't know when to stop. About 4 months back I was out drinking with a few friends to you can say celebrate the end of a very bad, toxic relationship and thing got crazy and I ended up assaulting a man… Charger were pressed and I was offer jail time or… to take this man place. He was the vice principal of Crowley High. So I took the offer… At the time, I thought it would be better than Jail time. I couldn't be thrown in Jail at the age of 23. Who would be there for my family if I wasnt "Now get up Kenny boy."

"Fine, fine…" I threw the blankets over me and headed to the bathroom. I guess I should make myself presentable. I stripped myself of my clothes and hopped in the shower. After my shower, I got my clothes and changed. Soon I walked into my kitchen to see James getting ready for work. "You do know I am going to screw these kids up right?" I said as I grabbed a cup of coffee.

"Well can't be as bad as your sister." James chucked. I smiled because he was right. Katie was a handful after our parents died. I am glad she at least graduated. I wasn't a good role model and I am still not. "Hey look man just do what you have to do and server your time. Then maybe after this life can get back to normal and you can start over." I smiled and patted James shoulder. He was right. Let all this pass and then move on to a new start. I finished my coffee and looked at the time, 6:45am.

"Well wish me luck."

"You're going need more than luck. Good luck…" James told me as I walked out the door. I took in a deep breath before I got in my car and drove to Crowley High. It took me about 20min to get there. I pulled into my parking spot and looked around.

"Well here we go…" I said to myself. I opened my door and then looked up at the school before I got the nerve to go inside, as I walked down the hall all I could remember were my days in high school and how bad there where after the accident. I shook the thoughts away as I enter the office. I smiled at a young woman sitting there typing away at her lap top. "Hmm Hi I am here to see Mrs. Challen Knight. I am Kendall Schmidt." The young girl that couldn't have been more than 20 looked up with her big brown eyes and smiled at me.

"Oh yes, she had been waiting for you. Go right in." I smiled back at her and told her thank you as I opened the door. Mrs. Knight was sitting at her desk looking though some papers I am guessing. She looked up and motion for me to sit down.

"Mr. Schmidt I am going to get down to business. I am not looking forwards to this but it is something that has to be done. You will do what you are told and do your time. I won't tolerate disobedience at my school. One screw up and I will contact the courts and you will be sent to jail, is the understood Mr. Schmidt?"

"Yes ma'am," We sat there a little long as this woman basically grilled me into the ground until she was told that a boy named Logan Henderson was being sent to her office for something. I wasn't listing. All I was thinking about was maybe jail would have been better. I then stood up and stood next to her desk when the doorknob turned. I watched the door open slowly and then stepped in a boy who stole my heart the moment I laid my eyes on him. He was in the words of my sister sex on a stick. I eyed him for a moment before Mrs. Knight spoke, as they talked I couldn't keep my mind was wondering to thought of this boy. My thoughts were interrupted when she said he would be taking detention with me. My heart swelled at her words. I would be spending time with this Angel… Once she was done with him, I walked over and stood in front of him. He smelt amazing… "I guess you and I will be getting to know each other very well for the next few months." I told him, all he did was nod his head. I thought it was cute. "Well then Logan I will see you at 3:30 then?" I then left Mrs. Knight office I was late for another meeting.

"Enjoy your first day here Mr. Schmidt." That young woman said to me as I walked towards the door. I turned around and said thank you and left.

(Present time)

I knew I needed to do something. I needed Logan back in my life; he is the air I breathe. He is the light that I have been searching for, he is that missing piece I thought she was. He was my life now and I needed to make things right between us once more. I wiped my tears away and grabbed my phone. I knew if I were to call he wouldn't answer at least this way he would read what needed to be said. (My dearest Love, I am truly sorry for what I had done. I should I have never went and see her. She isn't the person I thought she was. She has changed; she just isn't who I want anymore… My love it is you. I should have never even given her another chance. I should have never left you… I now realize that it is you whom my heart longs for and that it is you who holds my heart. Logie I know you will never forgive me for what I have done but please believe me that I love you and want you back in my life to hold forever. I will do anything to have you back my love. I LOVE YOU…. Yours forever Kendall…) I hope he understands how wrong I was in doing what I did. I sat back and closed my eyes praying to whoever would listen that he would forgive me. However, I knew better than that. I shatter his heart into thousands of piece that would take time to be put back together. I sighed as more tears begun to fall again.

As I fell farther into darkness I felt my phone. I looked down to see Logan face and his name pop up. Hope flew though me. I answer my phone with the hope that or love would bring us back as one. "My Love…"

"Kendall, Logan is in the hospital! Something is very wrong. He needs you… Please I don't care what has happened, please come." My heart that was already broken and shatter even more at Jo words, my life had just stopped. I fell to my knee, this was my doing. I had done this to the one I loved. "Kendall…" Jo voice rang though.

"I am on my way, what hospital?" I asked thought my tears. I couldnt break down now. I needed to be there from him. I had to be no matter what he thinks of me.