If you're going through hell, keep going. ~Winston Churchill

"I could have stopped this."

The azure monkey rubbed his head in frustration.

"How?" Asked his white companion.

Gibson looked at Antauri and sighed. He had come to Antauri's room to confess his guilt, but now that he was here…

"I should have told them." Gibson began pacing the room furiously.

"Told them what?" Antauri persisted.

"Maybe none of this would have happened if I had just said something." Gibson continued.

"Gibson…" Antauri said as he placed his hand gently on Gibson's chest to stop his pacing. "What are you talking about?"

Gibson bit his lip, should he tell Antauri about Nova and Sparx? About how their situation? Oh well, he had ranted on so much anyways he couldn't very well shut up now.

Gibson sighed and sat down heavily on one of the pillows scattered throughout Antauri's room. Antauri stood calmly with his hands behind his back. He was know far and wide for his composer and the calm atmosphere he offered.

That had all been but shattered in these last few days.

"Do you remember about a month ago when Nova got sick?" He asked his silver companion.

"Yes," Antauri answered, "You ordered no one to enter her room because she was contagious. Even me, and we both know that robots can't catch viruses. Well, not airborne ones anyways."

"I doubted you were really fooled by that." Gibson said with a faint smile.

"I predicted that you would tell me what was going on when you wanted to." Antauri answered.

"Well I suppose that time is now then. She was sick, in a way, she was grief stricken."

"Over what?"

"The fact that she would never be able to bare children."

Antauri felt the strength exit his legs and he sat down, hard.

"What?" He asked.

"Apparently she and Sparx had been trying for sometime to have a child. They came to me when they had no success after several attempts."

Antauri chuckled lightly, "Yes, we heard some of those attempts."

"Indeed." Gibson answered. "Well they came to me to see if I had a theory as to why this might be. Sparx, being Sparx, feared it might be his fault-" Gibson chuckled at the memory. "So I gave both of them a physical. That's when I discovered how bad Nova was."

Antauri leaned forward as Gibson rubbed his eyes again, a motion usually reserved for when Gidget annoyed him, but he had not done it in front of her for weeks.

"I never guessed that all that fighting would have such a profound effect on her."

"Are you saying…" Antauri trailed off.

"Yes, she was literally torn up inside. There was no way she would ever be able to conceive a child." Gibson said as he sadly shook his head.

"My God." Antauri whispered.

"Sparx was even worse." Gibson said as he looked off into nothing.

"What?" Antauri asked in a harsh gasp.

"He was worse." Gibson said, "I didn't think that anything could live with how they looked on the inside. So I crossed examined myself. The same results. It seems like our bionic halves keep us more alive then we originally thought."

"What are you saying?"

"I'm saying that if we ever some how managed to revert back into completely organic beings, we would die in a matter of minutes."

Antauri sat there with a tight jaw.

"How can you even still be alive?" Antauri asked cautiously.

"I told you, it is all on account of our cybernetic parts," He sighed, "and unfortunately, it is impossible for robots to give birth."

"Then Gidget and Otto?"

"I thought it was a miracle." Gibson said honestly, "I wanted it to be a miracle. They knew before they came to that she was pregnant."

"Did you examine them too?"

"I did, but they didn't have nearly as much damage to their internal organs as Sparx and Nova. I hoped that they might have a better chance."

"I was wrong." Gibson finished.

"It wasn't you fault." Antauri said as he tried to comfort his friend. "You didn't know they were trying."

"But I still should have warned them!" Gibson wailed. " I had a whole week of prior knowledge! I could have stopped this whole mess!"

"Gibson, you can not change the will of Fate."

"I should have stopped this." Gibson echoed.

"Gibson," Antauri said as he turned Gibson's face towards him. "There was nothing you could have done."

"You lost the Baby." Gibson said simply.

"What?"

"That's what I told them." Gibson continued with a blank stare. "You lost the Baby.

"And I should have stopped this." The last of many tears spilled across his face.

Unless you have been very, very lucky, you have undoubtedly experienced events in your life that have made you cry. So unless you have been very, very lucky, you know that a good, long session of weeping can often make you feel better, even if your circumstances have not changed one bit. ~Lemony Snicket


Okay that one was dark too, but it really does get better I promise. Just a little bit more, okay?

That last quote might seem odd now, but it has it's point.

Keep reading.