i redo the chapter...

please bear with me.


"Water… you beast…" Yukimura writhed softly. It was a nice morning. Sanada was sitting beside his worn out lover. Yukimura's whole body sore after their whole night love making. Sanada passed him a glass of water, but since he couldn't move, Sanada gave him mouth-to-mouth help.

"Can you go to school today?" Sanada asked softly.

"… you can carry me all the way?"

The fukubuchou chuckled. His Buchou sounded so irritated. It's rare since he has so much self-control.

"Sure, why not? It's more or less like lifting weight. I don't think you are that heavy either."

"…Sanada…"

Sanada could hear dangerous voice his lover made and he knew he has overstepped the boundary. Yukimura has turned to buchou mode and was looking strictly at him.

"Give me another 20 laps today, in addition of the usual 25. and don't forget to check the punishment. Make sure the whole room sparks. Tell the teacher I passed out today. I couldn't move."

"Yes." Sanada obediently answered.

"I will do my practice double the usual tomorrow… I couldn't move now. Stupid you, who said I need to take care of my body, huh? Perverted beast… you wouldn't let me go the whole night… ouch! My hips and ass hurts like crazy now…"

"I purposely did that so you will rest today."

"HENTAI!" Yukimura throw the pillow at him, which he received gentlemanly, straight with his face. He knew he was quite wrong but he wouldn't apologize as last night was amazing. He could still feel the lingering touch of Yukimura, his teeth bite his neck tenderly, his hands around him tightly to balance the power of Sanada's thrust deep inside him.

"I am going now. Make sure you stay in bed until I come home. And try to finish the congee I made for you."

"You sound like an overprotective mother."

"Whatever you call me."

Yukimura frowned and closed his eyes. It was a blissful day. He woke up inside Sanada's arm and their feet intertwined like lovers. Bless him, his bottom part stung but his chest was full and contented. He could feel Sanada's desire inside him. He should have asked Sanada to wipe him before he gone. It's sticky but oh-so-sweet. He was crazy for breaking up with him last time. He missed Sanada's touch, his tender and soft lips against his manhood. He is turning to a sex craze demon now.

Well, he can enjoy this feeling as long as he can…

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"How was yesterday, buchou? You look so satisfied."

Niou smirked to Yukimura, who was still sitting on the bench. Niou sounded like he knew all the details of last night. Yukimura cursed inside his heart while still maintaining his usual smile. He almost couldn't walk, but since yesterday night Sanada spend the night (again!) and did him gently, he could at least make his way to school. They arrived this morning in the husband and his pregnant-wife style; Sanada busy making place for Yukimura and Yukimura gently walking as he was trying to walk as normal as he possibly can. The whole member rejoiced; it was as if their fighting parent has gone back normal and loving. As the children of the family (except Renji—he is more like the nanny), everybody always wished that their leaders will always in deep love state, amen.

Yukimura blushed at Niou's statement and smiled. "yes, it was a very night day yesterday, wasn't it, Niou?"

"well… it was and was not, since we were busy while you were doing…"

"Niou!" Yagyuu tried to close his fake twins' mouth. But it failed. The damage has been done. Yukimura already smiled like the usual angel of death.

"Was it fun cleaning the whole room? Then I can suggest your name to the student board as the volunteer this month."

"NOOO!" Niou shrieked. 'Volunteer of the month' is the lowest job ever in student body which job consists of picking trash around school, scrubbing old judo practice centre, helping with library assistance and helping errands for teachers. It was the cursed person's job, and nobody in the entire school really willing to do that (it is already boring and tedious, moreover, a month!).

Yukimura smiled. Niou knew it, he had no other choice.

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They lost.

Yukimura stared at his hand. It was like that day, unmoveable. His whole body felt like stone. What happen? What had gone wrong? He was already ahead… that little brat should have surrendered ages ago. And he was shocked. Not only he didn't surrender, he also beat him. The first in years he was beaten. Beaten by a cocky first year student. That's a huge blow to his pride.

He could feel his head gone numb and his limbs gone cold. He could shake Ryoma's hand, but that was it. He couldn't believe what happening. Every other school was busy starting their celebration, partly because there is apparently a high school that could beat Rikkai-dai, the Emperor. They lifted Ryoma on their heads and shrieked for him. The noises were annoying and Yukimura tried to block everything from his ears.

"Buchou…" Akaya looked up to him with strange face. Yukimura couldn't take it, it feels like Akaya was sympathiying, blaming and accusing him of the defeat.

"Yukimura, are you ok?" Sanada spoke out, hard and cold. Yukimura let out a huge sighed. "It ended. I lost. I am sorry."

"It's fine. We can make it next season." Renji smiled patronizingly to him. But it doesn't help much. Yukimura didn't need people to cheer him up. He knew what he had done and that leads to their lost. They failed to gain the winner seat this time. The whole team member waited tensely. Their buchou is silenced and looked dangerous. They were silence for some time before Yukimura shouted, "All regulars; line up!"

They line up in according of their place as singles and doubles.

They get their punishments and congratulations accordingly.

(I think they got the punishment in the way Yukisana-san ' s 1 litre of tears story—read that, that's great!)

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They were finished for the day. Every other clubs has gone to celebrate Seigaku's victory. Yukimura looked out and found that Marui were staring longingly at the other members. They were getting to eat some yakiniku. They never have a hanging out time like that. The relationship between their school and other school wasn't that great either. Yukimura felt a little guilty and asked, "Do you want to eat with them too?"

"No, buchou!" Marui unconsciously refused.

"Really?"

"Well, I am hungry, but…"

Yukimura looked at Sanada and made his mind. "Well, let's go to my house—I will treat you some homemade food."

"really?" Niou whistled. Yukimura's cooking was quite good, since he always cook for himself since small. Sanada sighed. He knew he was going to be the maid again—helping in the kitchen, putting out the lates and washing the dishes for Yukimura in the end.

"yeah." Yukimura smiled. The hole team's mood was lifted and they started some jokes and while it was getting fun, everybody understand that deep in their mind they were just making reasons to forget their lost for that day. The atmosphere was starting to get cheerful but unnatural.

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"I am full, thank you!" Niou patted his full stomach. Marui and Akaya were still helping themself with the leftover food while Renji and Sanada washed the dishes.

"come on, don't do diet tonight!" Niou patted Yagyuu's back. "you haven't eat much! eat more!"

Yagyuu blushed. "I am not dieting… I… I am still…"

Yagyuu looked sad, and his other team mates started to look down too. It seemed that the cheerful atsmosphere was starting to wear off and people begun to realized their lost. the cheerful atmosphere changed immediately into dark and gloomy aura. People were staring at the floor, their plates or the ceilings. Yukimura looked at them, and he knew it was his fault.

"Sorry…"

"Bu—Yukimura?" Yagyuu asked.

"If I win, we should have been the one who get the trophy again. sorry."

"Well, you did lost and we didn't get it, but we don't blame you. Cheer." Niou tried to cheer up his leader. Yukimura smiled. But suddenly Akaya sniffled and they saw that he was crying like a baby who lost his candy with all the tears and saliva drooling. But Akaya didn't want to admit he was crying, so he retorted, "buchou… the food is salty."

"… sorry, my bad." Yukimura tried to smile and calm his junior, but when one started crying, other members found that they too, actually had the urge to cry. Marui followed Akaya's lead and Yagyuu followed them. Niou tried to blink so that his tears didn't drip out. Yukimura felt like an ass. He was the one who responsible for the lost. He doesn't have the right to calm and cheer them. He was the sole reason they lost. He never lost and that's why his team members had the confidence all along. But now he is not the Child of God anymore. He is not invincible anymore. He is …

"I am sorry… I…"

Suddenly, Yukimura's home phone rung. Yukimura rose to his feet and went to answered it. Sanada and Renji were back from the kitchen from washing the dishes and shocked to find the regulars' blue atmosphere. Akaya sniffeled and went to Renji for comfort. Sanada tried to order them to stop crying, but they wouldn't stop. Renji sighed. Well, since they were actually still junior high school students, it couldn't be helped. They still need to express and couldn't control their emotions. But Renji knew he better warned them about something, so he spoke:

"I know what you feel, but if you don't stop now, Yukimura will blame himself more."

Everybody stopped his activity. Yes, they knew they lost, and they sad about it but the one who was taking the whole responsible was Yukimura. They didn't want him to be more troubled. They knew his tendency to punish everybody for their fault accordingly, but also knew that Yukimura will always punish himself more and put the blame all on himself. Their buchou is too serious and responsible, and always have the tendency to blame himself over all matters.

Yukimura went back and joined them. He was smiling but his face were white, whiter than when he lost to Ryoma. His hands were shaking, but he was still smiling.

Everybody realized it was a fake smile.

"Yukimura, is everything all right?" Sanada asked, worried.

"yes, everything's fine. Thank you for washing the dishes. I think all of you should get going now, it's getting darker." He smiled while softly trying to chase away his team members.

"Yukimura? Are you sure? What was the phone just now?"

"hmm? Nothing. It's just my family."

Everybody took the reason and they went to collect their things, but Sanada knew something is off. All this time he ever spend time inside Yukimura's flat, he never saw or heard Yukimura's family. He never heard them phone Yukimura either. He knew Yukimura's family went overseas and left him here. He knew all those emails Yukimura wrote and never replied. He knew something was wrong, but he couldn't make himself to ask in front of other members. He knew Yukimura deserved privacy and he knew better than make things worse now.

After all members gone, Sanada closed the door. They didn't ask why he stayed, they knew what was going on and they wanted to give their 'parents' some privacy. Sanada was ready to ask when suddenly Yukimura smiled and ask in matter-of-fact manner. "You don't go home?"

"You want me to?"

Yukimura looked torn from Sanada's answer. "… yes." Yukimura finally answered. "You should go, it's dark already."

"What happened? Are you ok?"

"No, I must make a reflection to myself of today's match…." Yukimura knew that he couldn't even bring himself to say 'today's lost'.

"no, I didn't mean that; I mean what was that phone call? Your family never…" and Sanada let his voice trailed off when he looked Yukimura's eyes. They are not clear grey anymore; it's cloudy and in any moment rain will come down.

"I do have family, didn't I? Why they shouldn't phone me?"

Yukimura sounded irritated and Sanada decided to stop pursuing the matter.

"Yes, you do, I am sorry."

"no; I am sorry." Yukimura lowered his head and put his hand on his face. "I pushed my anger to you again. It's my mom." He sighed. "she was calling to let me know that my grandfather passed away just a few minutes ago."

"What??? You should go and see him now! I'll accompany you!"

"No, it's no need. She told me to see him tomorrow. She didn't want to let me see stepfather."

"…What a ridiculous reason!"

"No, you don't understand. He didn't like me—he hates me. And mom doesn't like me as much as she loves her husband, so I think I better wait until tomorrow."

"Wait. You are their family! You deserved to be there!"

"I never deserved that." Yukimura bitterly answered. "I wish I do." He chuckled.

"Well, you do! You are family, aren't you?"

Yukimura hold his hand on Sanada's chest to make him stop talking and coming to him. He softly explained.

"I am a bastard. My mom have me with some random guy she dates back then in high school. It was lucky my step father still wanted to marry her—but he hated me and wanted me off his sight. My mom was scared that he will leave her, so… here I am. And I know grandpa was the only one who still received me as a family—my grandma has already passed away last year—but I was the reason he had stroke. Since mom had me, he got abnormal high blood pressure and always a thread away from having major stroke."

"Seiichi…"

"Stop it, Gen. I know you are trying to cheer me up, but this is true—I am a bastard and I was the sole reasons grandpa and grandma having their minor stroke one after another… and killed them. well, great, since I will have to cut my connection with them. I don't need to write any email anymore. so… I am fine. I am happy."

"You listen, Seiichi. It's not…"

"I am happy and I am fine." He smiled, while pushing Sanada away. "Please go away. I alone need to make new regime for tomorrow practice. I will make sure that we will never be defeated again. good night."

Sanada was pushed and the door closed on his back. He tried to call Seiichi but Yukimura apparently has lost his ears.

Sanada was worried and shocked. He never knew the whole family situation. He just thought that Yukimura just has some issues with his father. He knew that the one who paid Yukimura's school and living fee was his grandfather and he has saw Yukimura's grandparent once in welcoming new student ceremony. They looked old and tired, but they were smiling when Yukimura walked to the podium and gave his speech as he got the highest mark in student entrée exam.

He remembered back when he fall in love. It feels like yesterday. The image of the beautiful boy who gave a very decent and charismatic speech—all the student ended up listening and cheering for him in the end—smiled and said 'hi, my name is Yukimura Seiichi. Nice to meet you" to him. It sent him frozen, with eyes locked to this beautiful boy. They used to be in the same height, but as time passed by, Yukimura seemed to hit puberty later than others although Yukimura was more mature than them a lot of more inside. Yukimura stayed the same height for a year, until eventually he grew bit by bit until now. Sanada, on the other hand, grew a lot and they have a head and neck distance from each other now.

Yukimura has always stood on his own two feet since they met. He was one of the best students; his name never falls from best 5 in their entire year. He balanced his study and tennis nicely. He even did chores and excellent in it, although he hates to cook when he was alone.

The timing was very great. Just as Yukimura get his first lost, his grandfather died. Great. Sanada knew he couldn't do anything. He was still a child and he has no power to cheer Yukimura up. But he wanted to do it and he knew it is hard to make Yukimura let him do that.


Review please?

My very first fanfic hahaha.