Chapter Two
Disclaimer: I do not own Numb3rs or this lovely song by Alicia Keys called Try Sleeping with a Broken Heart. Wooh.
Even if you are a million miles away
I could still feel you in my bed
Near me, touch me, feel me
It was strange. It was unusual. It was uncomfortable not having Don lying next to her on the bed. Not hearing his breathing. Not feeling his warmth. Not waking up to his caresses.
And even at the bottom of the sea
I could still hear it inside my head
Telling me, touch me, feel me
She dreamt of him. She missed him so much. She wanted him back. She still loved him. How could she not? She tried to forget him. It didn't work, apparently. She could still hear him in her head. She could still hear him saying to her things he didn't say anymore. Not at work of course. She was good at keeping her personal and work life separate. When she was alone at her apartment by herself, she thought of him. She heard him.
And all the time, you were telling me lies
It was never going to be "us". She and Don? Now as she looked back, it seemed even more unlikely. Perhaps it was a mistake all along. What a sweet mistake though. And a painful one to bear now.
So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
She really needed to move on. She needed to try to forget him. Well, that wasn't very possible. They kinda worked together. Forget her love for him, maybe. Easier said than done, though. How would you forget a love like that? But regardless, she really needed to. There's not much of a choice there. Liz Warner would never let a bitter romance tear her apart. No, she won't.
Have you ever try sleeping with a broken heart?
Well you could try sleeping in my bed
Lonely, own me, nobody ever shut it down like you
It isn't easy. It never is. She awoke alone. The other side of her bed, cold and empty. Don was probably off with another woman or maybe back to Robin again. Liz had heard she was back again. So she had to nurse her broken heart alone and in silence. She couldn't trust people. There was no need to share anything with anyone. She needed to get through this alone.
You wore the crown, you made my body feel heaven bound
Why don't you hold me, need me
I thought you told me, you'd never leave me
Being with Don made her happy. She couldn't resist smiling when she was around him or thinking of him. It was heaven on earth. It was good times for her. She wish it would've lasted. He told her he wouldn't run away from another relationship. He didn't run away. But he left her.
Looking in the sky I could see your face
And I knew right where I fit in
Take me, make me, you know that I'll always be in love with you
Right till the end
He made her feel wanted. He made her feel safe and secure. He had her back in so many field operations. He knows that she will always love him. But she just has to push down and suppress her love for him in front of him. It isn't the same anymore. And she knows that. But she can't help herself.
So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
Maybe move to a different state? Head another FBI department somewhere else? It would put her away from him for awhile, but will she really forget him? She has to find a way to make it without him. She needs to move on without him. She will make it.
Anybody could've told you right from the start it's 'bout to fall apart
So rather than hold on to a broken dream or just hold on to love
And I could find a way to make it, don't hold on too tight
I'll make it without you tonight
Was it a broken dream, a broken fantasy? She should've known it wasn't going to last long. But love? A chance at love? She'd want to hold on to that as long as she could anyway. It doesn't matter what happens. It was a good relationship. And that usually leads to bad break ups. But she'll make it. She always does.
So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
And she did find a way to make it without him. She decided, running away won't resolve anything. Everything would be so much simpler and less tense if she just made it an amicable split. She let go. She let go and tried to be happy for the times they had. But could she really let go someone like that?
tbc.
