Words could not describe what he felt. He lay there in the stillness of night. He had lied today. He had been believed and excused from the anniversary dinner. He had given her the flowers, he had called her mother. How it burned to say that. He wanted to direct his hate towards someone, but she was not the one to blame. She probably was unaware herself, unaware of the secret her husband , his father carried around hoping time would perhaps erase. But time had brought Kouji to the truth.

Kouji Minamoto lay on his back with one of his arm over his head, the other resting at his side clutching his bandanna. "Kouichi." He thought with tears forming behind his close eyelids. He pushed them away and sat up. He could not stop thinking about the day's events.

X

His brother, his twin lay in the hospital bed with a concussion at best. Kouichi Kimura nearly died today, and Kouji had to pretend everything was alright. Kouichi had asked him too.

"Kouji listen, mom will be here really soon worried to death, she will ask a hundred questions." Kouichi said laying in a hospital bed. He was a minor and after his fall at Shibuya Station the hospital contacted his mother. They had neglected to say what state he was in, because at one moment in time, he was considered dead.

"You want me to leave?" Kouji stated more than asked. He held his brother hand. They were alone. The beeping of monitors attached to Kouichi kept the room from falling silent.

"I want to be better before we confront mom dad, and." Kouichi paused waiting to see if Kouji would pronounce his step mother's name. But after silence Kouji just nodded.

"So you want me to go home , give her flowers and eat dinner like nothing happened and that your not here." Kouji said, releasing his brother's hand and gripping the arms of the chair to channel all the emotions he was feeling.

Kouichi frown at his twin but understood him. "Please." Was all he could say .

Kouji nodded and gave his brother a hug. Their mother could appear any minute. The one Kouji though was dead.

Walking out of the hospital, Kouji's thoughts were scattered. His footstep seem heavy as he walked to the flower shop. The shop's kind lady was waiting for him. She should have closed her shop by now but she knew the boy was coming back for his flowers. She herd the bell to the door ring and there he was.

"Oh Hi, I just knew you would be back for these." The kind lady greeted, gesturing to the flowers on the counter.

Kouji gave her a weak smile and looked down at the flowers. He sighed and looked up at her. "How much?" He asked pulling out his wallet. He was surprised he didn't lose it in the Digital World.

"It's on the garden." She said with a sincere smile, laughing slightly at her own joke.

Kouji managed to return a smile and picked the flowers from the counter. "Thank you." He said, as he placed the money he had already pulled out into the tip jar. With a wave and walked out.

Kouji walked staring at the flowers. "What if she knew." Kouji though bitterly. He would never forgive. In his rage and sorrow he never realized he walked all the way home. He heard barking from inside the house. Somehow Moko always knew it was Kouji who was at the door,whether it was coming home from school, from an outing, anytime, his dog always knew and greeted him like his.

Kouji walked inside the threshold petting his dog relaxing him, calming his excitement.

"Kouji where have you been, we were suppose to start dinner 20 minutes ago." Kousei said entering the living room to see his son standing there with lavender flowers.

"Sorry I had to umm had to pick these up." Kouji mumbled staring at the floor. He couldn't meet his fathers gaze, if he did he would stare daggers into him.

Not far behind his father, his step mother came behind her husband. "He probably has a good reason for being late." She said trying to clam her husband. No matter how much Kouji made his resentment known to her, she all ways defended him and took his side. "Oh, my." Was all she could say as she saw the flowers.

The whole conversation did not play out like Kouji had hoped. "These-these are for you-" He hesitated but his brothers word jumped in his head. With great control over his emotions he outstretched his hand. "For you- mom."

"Kouji." She said and cried from joy. She hugged her son. "Thank you." She said patting his back, and releasing him to wiped her tears. "Let's have dinner now." She smiled brightly heading to the dining room.

"I have had quite a long day and I want to go to bed early. Enjoy your night guys." Kouji looked at his father who was smiling at his son. Disgust filled Kouji but he hide it well for his brother, and the promise he made.

With a nod Kouji made his way to the stair and to his room. "Night son ." He heard his father call up to him as the door clicked close. He rested behind the closed door and slid down. He looked around, in the dimly lit room and his eyes landed on his desk. His mother's beautiful face smiled back at him. Bright blue eye stared at him across the room meeting his gaze. He put a hand to his mouth in an attempt to muffle his gasp that turned into a sob. His mother was alive and he had a twin. He broke down. Hate filled his heart. His father had lied to him. Kouji was lost in his emotions, he somehow crawled his way to his bed. He cried in silence. He was angry hurt, confused and happy.

His cell phone going off brought him back to the present. Kouji pulled out his phone and looked at the number. He ignored it not recognizing it .The same number called again. "Who ever this is you have the wrong number." Kouji answers placing the phone near his ear, not moving his arm from his eyes."Kouji, are you ok?"

Kouji sat up in the dark. "Zoe?" He asked into the receiver.

"Yea, after we left I got your number from Takuya. Just wanted to see you were holding up?" Zoe said through the phone. " I'm fine thanks." Kouji said rubbing his eyes.

"We are friends. If you need us we are here." Zoe's words caused Kouji to smile. "Yea, I will." He said saying goodbye and hanging up the phone. He looked at his door as laughter came up from downstairs.

Kouji shook his head. He was so tried. He looked down at his phone, he wished it was his navy blue D-Tector. He wanted the comfort of his spirits, the ones of light, he wanted some light in this dark situation. He knew the darkness was not evil, darkness was his brother. Kouji got up and undressed himself into his pjs. His brother made him promise. He had done his best to keep things under control. Kouji lay again in bed thinking. A knock came at his door.

"Coming in." The voice said before the door opened. His father stood in the threshold and he stared at his son. "I know you're not asleep." Kousei said ruffling with his hair. "Thanks bud for the flowers it made your mom really happy." Kouji stiffened at his words. As much as he wanted to jump up and expose his father, as much as he wanted to tell him off, he remained in bed.

"Yea." Was all he could mange to say without his emotion showing to much. He swallowed hard before speaking again. "I need a larger allowance." Kouji joked but felt sick doing so.

Kousei laughed. "Night Kouji, I love you." And with that Kouji was left alone in darkness. Kouji listened for his fathers footstep going down the stairs before he stood up. He looked back at his door then turned to his window. He opened the curtains letting the soothing moonlight seep through. Three moons change to one. Kouji stared at it and smiled sheepishly. As silly as it was, this was Kouji's way of feeling connected to Lobomon and KendoGarurumon. "Goodnight Guys." Kouji returned to his bed. He rolled over to his side and threw a pillow behind him. It was the only thing he could do to make it feel like his brother was sleeping at his side like in the Digital World. "Night bro." Kouji mumbled, feeling empty when he heard no reply falling to sleep.


A/N

Man this pulled at my heart strings. Tell me what you think, reviews are welcomed. Thanks for reading.

*Disclaimer I don't own Digimon or any of the references made.*