Gonne make a heart-throb out of me
Just a bit of minor surgery
These desperate times call for desperate measures
I'll give you something to cry about
Show some skin, and would be, caché
How could you let this get to desperate measures now?
For a first effort this
Feels kinda last ditch
I guess this just
Got kinda drastic
Trust us you just fell off the bus, baby
I can't let this, I can't let this, I can't let this go
I can't let this, I can't let this go
(Desperate measures)
I can't let this, I can't let this go
When I got you right where I want you
I been pushing this for so long
Kiss me, just once, for luck
These are desperate measures now
I can't let this, I can't let this go
Have a piece of American dream
Open up, and swallow, on your knees
And say "Thank you"
I'd like some desperate measures, please
For a first effort this
Feels kinda last ditch
I guess this just
Got kinda drastic
Trust us, you just fell of the bus, suckers
Yeah, well, payback is a mother fucker
I can't let this, I can't let this go
(Desperate measure)
I can't let this, I can't let this go
When I got you right where I want you
I been pushing this for so long
Kiss me, just once, for luck
These are desperate measures now
I can't let this, I can't let this go
Forever, for worse or better
My poor heart will only surrender
Go forever, for worse or better
My poor heart will only surrender, now
(Desperate measures)
I can't let this, I can't let this go
When I got you right where I want you
I been pushing this for so long
Kiss me, just once, for luck
These are desperate measures now
(Desperate measures now)
I can't let this, I can't let this go
When I got you right where I want you
I been pushing this for so long
Kiss me, just once, for luck
These are desperate measures now
(Desperate measures now)
I can't let this, I can't let this go
Alec was glad the day was over. He was tired and his head hurt for multiple reasons. The main one being he had no idea what he was going to do about Magnus. He wanted to do something, he just didn't know what.
He was currently laying on his bed, staring up at the ceiling but not really seeing anything. His mind was on something else. Someone else. No matter what he did Alec could just not get the older boy out of his head. He wanted Magnus desperately like a man who was stranded in a desert wanted water.
With a groan Alec rolled onto his stomach, his head buried in his pillows. He laid like that for a while before the need to breath made him sit up. He rubbed at his face and thought about how the day had gone.
Magnus had pretty much been in all of his classes and Alec had to sit next to Magnus in each one. Magnus was a lot smarter then people gave him credit for. In fact, in their maths class Alec hadn't understood but Magnus had managed to help him figure out what to do. And Alec was supposed to be the nerd.
Of course, when Magnus had gotten up out of his seat to go sharpen his pencil, the bin, of course, was right at the front of the classroom and while Magnus had practically strutted over to it, Alec had gotten a good look at his perfect ass. Alec secretly liked how tight Magnus' skinny jeans were, they made his butt look amazing, which effectively gave Alec a little...problem. Somehow, he managed to calm himself down before Magnus sat back down next to him and questioned him on why he was blushing like a tomato. That only made him blush more since Magnus had actually noticed. Alec hadn't answered him and furiously scribbled down notes.
The rest of the day hadn't been very eventful. Every lesson Alec had with Magnus he would take the chance to ogle at him and quickly avert his attention back to his work whenever Magnus caught him. However, Alec couldn't help but wonder why Magnus was even glancing at him in the first place but it made his heart flutter.
A sharp knock on his door jerked him out of his thoughts and before he could say 'come in' his sister Isabelle walked in and looked at him.
"You okay? You seem kind of pale," she said, studying him.
He shrugged. "I'm always pale," he replied.
She rolled her eyes and sat down on his bed beside him. "God your room is so boring," she said, looking round.
He frowned and scanned his room. (A/N pic on profile) It was a pretty ordinary room, though everything was pretty much black and white. It was slightly messy too but Alec wasn't really bothered about that.
"What's wrong with it?" he asked.
She looked at him. "It's got no colour! That's what's wrong! I keep telling you that you should let me re decorate," she said, flinging her hair over her shoulder.
"If I let you do that I'll never want to come in here again," he stated. "I like my room how it is."
She sighed but let it go. "All right fine," she grumbled.
He chuckled. "What are you doing here anyway?" he asked.
"Am I not allowed to see my big bro?" she asked innocently.
He sent her a look.
"Okay. You caught me. Jace brought Clary home and they are boring the shit out of me," she told him, folding her arms across her chest.
"And you think I'm better company?" he asked.
"They won't stop making out."
"Ah, I see."
"So anyway, what's up? You look like your thinking hard about something," she said.
He didn't answer her. Could he tell her? He flicked his hair out of his eyes and she gasped.
"Alec!"
"What!"
She placed a hand over his forehead and he winced, flinching.
"There is a bump on your head!" she stated.
Oh yeah. Since he couldn't get Magnus out of his head he'd banged his head against a wall repeatedly.
He shrugged. "It's nothing is. It wasn't hurting until you prodded it," he grumbled.
"Sorry bro, your not getting away with it. Tell me," she said stubbornly.
Alec debated on whether he should tell her.
"Uh..Just got bored in Maths," he lied.
She arched a delicate eyebrow at him. "So you slammed your head on the table? That hardly seems like you."
He shrugged. "I was tired," he said, which wasn't really a lie.
"Alec..."
He tone made him look at her.
"You know you can tell me anything right?" she murmured and took his hand in hers, squeezing it.
He nodded slowly. "Of course," he said.
"Then tell me what's bothering you," she replied, patting his hand.
He didn't answer right away. "You wont think of me any differently?" he asked, his voice quiet.
She shook her head. "Of course not, your my brother Alec. We're family remember? I'll be here for you when ever you need me," she told him.
He sighed and raked his free hand through his hair. That was slightly reassuring...Well, he might as well tell her. Knowing Isabelle she'd find out sooner or later.
He looked away and chewed on his lower lip, a nervous habit of his, before answering. "...I'm...I'm gay," he said, his voice barely a whisper and he closed his eyes. He felt slightly better now he wouldn't have to hide it any more.
When she didn't answer he suddenly realised it was a bad idea to tell her but when he opened his eyes and looked at her she was smiling, her eyes watering slightly.
"Alec...I know," she said softly.
His eyes widened. She knew? But how? He never told anyone! Was it...that obvious?
"I've known for a long time but I didn't say anything because I wanted you to tell me. I admit it's pissed me off that it's taken so long but I'm glad you trust me enough to tell me," she said and wrapped her arms around his neck, hugging him tightly.
Stunned, he slowly hugged her back.
"Was I that obvious?" he mumbled.
She shook her head. "It took me a while to find out. But you gave away a lot of signs."
"Signs?"
"You've never dated. You check out other guys with out realising and you stare at Magnus a lot..."
His eyes widened like saucers with the mention of Magnus.
"Isabelle...?"
"Yes?"
"I...um...I think that...I.." he stuttered, not sure how to tell her about his feelings for Magnus. But he did feel like he could tell her anything now. "I... I think I like Magnus," he whispered.
She pulled back to look at him. His eyes were on the floor.
"Like like like him?" she asked.
He slowly nodded.
She squealed in delight and gave him a bone crushing hug.
He didn't see why she was so happy. It was obvious Magnus didn't feel the same way. Realising he wasn't as happy as she was Isabelle pulled away again.
"Let me guess, he doesn't know your gay?" she asked.
He shrugged, chewing on his lower lip again. "I don't know. I've never asked him," he said, trying to make a joke but failed as Isabelle wasn't laughing. Or giggling. Or whatever.
She gave him a blank look before grinning widely.
"What..?" he asked, slightly suspicious of her expression.
"We're just going to have to get him to want you," she said, now giggling as idea's were already forming in her mind.
"Uh...How?" he asked, a little dumbstruck.
She rolled her eyes. "For starters, you should invite him to go clubbing with you."
His eyes widened and he shook his head. "No way! You know I can't dance!" he said, looking utterly horrified.
She stood and faced him, one hand placed firmly on her hip. "You want him to notice you?"
He nodded.
"You want him to want you?"
Another nod, only this time he hesitated just a bit.
"Then you need to step out of your comfort zone. Show him you're willing to try new things for him. Plus, it will be fun!" she giggled. "Besides, you'll look so damn hot he wont care whether you step on his feet or not," she said.
"You sure about this?"
She nodded. "Desperate times call for desperate measures."
He was staring at the floor again. He was scared to death at the thought of dancing but excited at the same time since he'd be dancing with Magnus. Taking a deep breath, he looked up at Isabelle, determination clear in his eyes.
"All right, I'll do it."
Ah, sorry to leave it there XD I just could help myself lol :) But if I get a lot of reviews then the next chappie may be put up tomorrow. And trust me, you will love the next chapter ;) The only reason why this one is up now is cause I've been thinking about this story all fucking day and yesterday. Plus I just want to get to the good stuff soon. Oh and sorry for any mistakes...
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