OK, so here's chapter 3. tell me what you think

Chapter 3: A New Life

It didn't take them long to finish off the CD with the new song. When Friday came around, all of Bad Luck was ready to take a much deserved break. Hiro gave Shuichi a hug before they split, shuichi heading back to Yuki's. When he got home he sat down at the table with his own Laptop, he had gotten it a few weeks ago. When Yuki had asked, Shuichi said he wanted to play with the music on his own sometime and it was easier do to with a computer.

He had found an apartment in Kyoto. It was away from Tokyo and all the way across the city from the shrine so there was no way he was going to run into any one that might know him. He had found a doctor there that was willing to keep his secret, and make sure he stayed healthy and Yuki teaching him how to cook. It had been slow going at first but eventually the blond had come to expect the pink haired man next to him in the kitchen.

Shuichi was right now looking at the sight on Baby names, he wasn't sure weather or not to give this baby an American name or just stay with Japanese. He was making a list of all the names he liked:

Eirian~ Welsh-Bright, uni

Erin~ Irish-Irish, girl

Yuna~ Japanese-kindness, girl

Yukiko~ Japanese-child of Yuki, girl

Yudai~ Japanese-brave, boy

Symphony~ American-musical piece for orchestra, girl

Layla~ Arabic-night, girl

Lee~ English-field, uni

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He looked at the list, there where a few strange ones on there, but he liked them all a lot. Layla was one that he really liked, but he would have to think more on it later, it was getting kinda late. He and Yuki had had dinner bout 3 hours ago. Shuichi got up from his spot at the table and closed his laptop. He walked over to where his shoes and pulled out the pill bottle with the morning sickness pills. He took 2 and then hid the bottle again.

As he head to bed he poked his head into Yuki's study, seeing the novelist starring at the screen with a cigarette, he smiled softly.

"Goodnight, Yuki" he said softly. Yuki looked over at the doorway his pink pop prince was standing in. He nodded saving his progress and fallowing after his lover to the bed room.

He couldn't explain it but he had the feeling that Shuichi wasn't going to be here much longer. He kept telling himself he was being paranoid. He knew the man loved him. He couldn't shake the feeling though. Maybe the doctors had said something more, that he wasn't sharing. Yuki stripped off his cloths not bothering with night cloths. Shuichi was laying on the bed, looking almost asleep cuddled up in one of Yuki's button downs, from the pile on the floor.

Once he was under the covers he pulled Shuichi closed to him. The smaller man curled into his chest, and Yuki wrapped both arms tighter around him. Although he could never manage to say it out loud, he loved him...more then anything. He didn't know what he would do if he ever lost him. He glanced down at the sleeping shuichi.

"I love you shuichi" he said kissing the top of his head before letting sleep take him.

Yuki did not sleep through the night though around 2 in the morning, he was awakened by Shuichi whimpering from some sort of nightmare. He held him by the shoulders.

"Brat wake up" he snapped

***dream***

Shuichi was sitting in a yellow sunny room in a rocking chair. He looked down in his arms as a tiny little baby, with a tuff blond hair, and piercing gold eyes. A tear rolled down his cheek. She looked so much like him, how was he supposed to do this all alone.

He rocked her until they both fell asleep. When he opened his eyes next though she was no where in sight, and the room felt cold. He stood up fast looking around the changed room, slightly. He started to move things in a panic to find his baby. When he didn't find her in the room he moved on to the rest of the house. He must have searched the whole house, half way through starting to cry, begging for her to come back to him. When he opened the only room that he hadn't searched the bathroom attached to his bedroom. The minute the door was all the way open he screamed in horror at the sight that greeted him.

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Shuichi shot awake with a scream tears pouring from his eyes and sobs from his mouth. He screamed again as he felt arms wrap around him. Once he realized that it was Yuki, who just kept telling him it was a dream, he was right there, and he was safe, he threw his arms around the blond, sobbing into his shoulder.

Shuichi couldn't get it out of his head, the image was burned into his mind. When he had opened the door to the bathroom, Yuki had been laying on the floor an empty pill bottle next to him. But that wasn't what made Shuichi scream, in the tub under the water was a small strawberry blond boy. He wasn't moving, the bathroom was still. His first instinct had been to go to the child, not Yuki.

Shuichi tightened his arms around Yuki. That dream what told him something...he would always choose his baby over his lover. And it helped to cement that fact that he needed to leave, and he needed to do it soon.

"Tell me what happened" Yuki said softly, running his hands up and down the boys spine. He was turning into a sap, a few weeks ago he would have just thrown the boy out of bed.

"It was a dream, that's all it's not important" Shuichi said softly into his shoulder. Yuki raised an eyebrow at that. Normally if he ever asked him to share anything he was in for a long haul.

"Tell me" he said again this time being a little more forceful about it. Shuichi sighed and snuggled closer to him.

"Please yuki, it was just a stupid dream" Shuichi said closing his eyes. He gave in and just laid back down the other man still in his arms. Yuki fell asleep about a half hour later, shuichi though laid awake, he had to leave...today. he wasn't sure his resolve would last if he stayed much longer. But, for right now he was content to lay in his lovers arms for the last time.

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The two remained like this until around 7. Shuichi couldn't hold still any longer, and honestly he was surprised that he had been able to hold still for almost four and half hours. He may have drifted in and out of sleep a few times but he never fell back to sleep. Shuichi had to get up, now.

He went to the bath room and got dressed, as he packed a small bag leaving most of his stuff here. He looked at the shirt he had been wearing, it was Yuki's...he put it in the bag. Once he was packed he gave Yuki a kiss on the lips, being sure not to wake him. He placed a note, telling Yuki everything and a demo CD of More too it now, on the table. He left the apartment tears rolling down his face as he headed for the train station.

"I love you, Yuki" Shuichi said softly before boarding the train

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