hey y'all! So I'm going to be gone on vacation, so I'm leaving you with 2 more chapters instead of 1! But thank you for your reviews, follows, favorites, and most importantly just reading this story. Now, enough blubbering...
carry on -K
Raven's memorial was just 2 days later. Outside Titans tower, was an obsidian raven, perched upon a granite branch. The small statue was surrounded by the remaining Titans as well was many mourning Jump City citizens. People laid, flowers, picture, candles, and poems in memory of the lost Titan.
Robin spoke soft words of comfort to the crowd, and Beastboy noticed that not a single eye was dry. Besides his own...he-he had grown numb. His chest began to hurt and he recalled when they had brought her home.
She was so broken, so fragile, he carefully carried her to her room. Beastboy laid her on her bed and stared at her blue hued lips, his glance trailed to her eyes. Ravens beautiful amethyst eyes that he would, never, EVER see again.
he was so mad at her.
"You survived everything till now...you lived through the end of the freaking world, things couldn't be easier than a battle with Slade..." he stopped when he realized what he was saying. Why was he blaming her? HE was the one who wasn't there. HE was the one who mauled the sladebot, not bothering to see if SHE was okay because HE was too angry. He felt guilty.
leaving her room he sighed and watched as the door slid shut. Beast boy ran his hand through his hair and let out a deep breath he didn't know he was holding. Feeling a knot in his stomach he cried.
Beastboy expected, one of the team to find him there on the floor, crying; but no one showed up. He could faintly hear an alien weeping, so he knew Star was in her room. Cy was probably in the garage, and Robin...he was in that damn evidance room.
When Beastboy explained that it was a sladebot, the boy wonder snapped. While Beastboy could understand his obsession now, he wasn't going to become like that. The thought of Robin, endangering himself, and the team, obssesing over this, just angered Beastboy, and before he knew it, he was standing in the doorway, watching his leader, read a single article over and over and over and over.
"Robin..." Beastboy muttered and the boy turned around.
"wha-" he was interupted
"cut it out." Robin was speechless
"Beastboy...what-what are you talking about?" he stuttered
"stop obsessing before you hurt us all...especially a certain alien girl whos tears probably aren't exclusively for the death of...of..." he gulped "of a fellow team mate."
"what about Sla-" Robin started
"What about him? we find him...but together...and not today. Now we need to take care of ourselves...and uh...funeral arrangements."
Robin said nothing but just nodded. But when Beastboy turned to walk away, the boy wonder muttered something.
"what?"
Robin turned sharply and got into beastboys face. and said with a deadly whisper "her name, is Raven. She's not JUST a team mate...and we can't just handle funeral arrangements, she was RAVEN, and we need to handle RAVEN'S funeral arrangements. You haven't said her name, not once sense we came home. SAY. HER. NAME!" Robin commanded with great anger riseing up in him.
Beastboy glared at his "friend" and growled. "Raven, Raven, Raven, RAVEN, RAVEN ROTH! raven..." with a final glare beastboy shoved his way out of the room. then he felt it. one tear, than another, than another, then another, and suddenly he was at his rock.
The rock he sat on after "the beast" incident. slowly and carefully sense tears were impareing his vision he climbed ontop and wept.
"having that thing inside you doesn't make you a monster. It's knowing when to let it out that makes you a man."
'a man, I feel like a child' the changeling thought as the memory faded, but a new one replaced the silence quickly.
Beastboy left the highschool crushed and angry. Terra was lying, she knew him. She knew all of them...she lied, again. when she had denied knowing him he smelt it, it was faint bu the smell of fear and guilt. the putred stench of a went to the tower and stomped off to his room, but he crashed into something while focusing on his inner rant. looking up he saw Raven, now on the floor, and a book laying on her head.
"oh sorry I-" she saw who it was "Beastboy! where have you been?!"
Beastboy stood up and brushed himself off "I saw-nevermind... 'night Raven." the empath flinched
"I thought it was rea." she muttered. She was about to pick herself up when a gloved hand reached down to her.
this was the beginning of a very close friendship between the two. Beastboy became lost in his memories nd drifted to sleep.
"beastoy! help!" raven screamed as she tried to run towards the changeling. She tripped and fell, hitting her head on the pavement, causeing a large cut on her temple.
"Raven!" the changeling ran towards her and held her in his hands "Not again rea! not when i just got you back! I'll save you! but you have to help me, how can I save you rea?" Beastboy pleaded as Raven looked at him with soft eyes
"just don't forget me! I'm still here, just healing. You dont know it...I dont know it. But you have to find me!" her body faded and her voice disapeared
"Raven no! you aren't makeing sense! What do you mean! Raven!" but she was gone, and everything grew dark
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAGH!" Beastboy shot up off the rock screaming.
'j-just a nightmare...' he thought holding his head. his whole body was screaming at him now, he needed his bed, REAL sleep so he trugged to his room, to tired to 'dream' anymore.
Beastboy snapped out of his daydream to hear Starfire say her parting words. it was his turn next.
"Raven, was not willing to go to the mall of shopping but-" beastboy smiled at starfire's mindless talking, but then he saw robin ushering her away and nod at him. here we go...
"Raven...was a good person, she was born into a destiny of evil and distruction. but gave everything for the well being of others and the rebuilding of humanity. not many knew all that she did, but raven not only saved this city countless times, but she saved the whole world twice, and the Titans lives multiple times. but there were little things too. she recycled, she volunteered at the children hospital. and nobody knew, nobody but me...i knew her, she was...she was my raven...my best friend." he couldn't go on he put his head in his hands took a deep breath, thnked the crowed for comming and left.
that night he was out side, it was late, around 2:40am he had that dream again. the one of Raven saying odd things. he sighed "Rea, i miss you" a tear rolled down his face. and he remembered a night that Raven did something she never did. she came to his room
*knock knock knock*
Beastboy stirred in his sleep at the sound
*knock knock knock*
"ugh, whose there?" he called sleepily
"B-beastboy? it's me...Raven..."
his eyes shot open 'okay, im awake!"
"rae? whats wrong?" he called pulling his covers off
"there...theres a storm, its kinnda freaking me out and I was uh-" she stopped when his door slid open beast boy was in front of her shirtless. she blushed and froze. he smirked
"rea, dont be afriad of a storm," he threw his arms around her "I'll protect you fair maiden" he joked, but she was still frozen. she shook her head and nodded "can...could...will...Beastboy?" she stuttered
"yeah?"
she blushed hard "could you maybe sleep in my room..."
now he blushed "uh...su-sure rea..." he quickly grabbed his pillow and blanket. and carried them down the hall to her room where her door was open. he walked in and shut the door. it was dark but her curtains were open and the lightning lit the room, she was on her bed, her eyes shut tight, and her body shuddering. Beastboy got an idea. he morphed into a toy schnauzer and climbed onto the pillow beside her. circling a couple of times he laid down, resting his head on her shoulder.
they slept like that all night. the changeling opened his eyes and wiped at a few tears. he sighed and walked into the tower, but bypassed his room and went straight to Ravens. morphing into a toy schnauzer and falling asleep on her pillow. before he fell asleep he could have swore he felt a pair of arms hold him as he drifted to sleep.
daawwwww! well I'll post the next chapter soon! read and review!
carry on-K