My Dearest Bella,

I don't even know if I have the words to express to you the way I need you right now. The long nights here are driving me crazy. I'm just happy Emmett and Jasper are here to keep me sane. It was a good idea about the guitar too, it keeps us entertained. I really love and miss you so much that it hurts. Captain Massey thinks its dangerous to be over here like this, of course he is kidding but he said one day I will just up and decide to blow up the whole god damn desert while I hide under a rock so I can get back to you. He might actually have a good idea. Stop rolling your eyes, I was only kidding.

So Jasper tells me he is planning on asking Alice to marry him when he comes back on leave. He told me not to tell you, but I know I can trust you not to tell Alice, right? Just kidding, I know you won't.

I can't wait for leave. Me and you for two whole weeks of passion. I wish I could of seen the blush on your face when you read that. I should of said something more like, hot dirty sex, but that's not what it is when were together. We love each other too much.

I've been getting sent on convey missions lately. Now don't freak out. I'm perfectly safe. If anyone should be worrying it is me. I mean I just up and left you without any protection from those mean twigs. Just kidding, you know I love you.

I wish I could explain it in words at how much I long just for you to touch me. For me to hold you in my arms. If only for a second. I miss the way you smell. The strawberry scent that lingers in your hair from your shampoo and that Bella scent. I'm not sure of what it is exactly but I do know that without it I feel incomplete. Without you I feel like half of me is gone.

I can't wait to get back to you. I need your touch so bad. At nights when I know the guys aren't listening I start to think about you and I cant help but cry. You're my everything. The one person in the world that can keep me calm when I'm fixing to snap, the one person who is able to see through my bullshit. You're my everything.

Without you I wouldn't be able to live. You're my Juliet and I'm your Romeo.

I just hope you still feel the same once this is all over. I know I shouldn't doubt what we have. But so many guys have been getting dear john letters. Its so fucking wrong. Just the other day a buddy of mine named Phillip got a letter from his girlfriend. He was so excited until he started reading. She explained to him that some dick named Tommy some how found a way into her heart. Something about comforting her while Phil was gone. I almost wanted to do what the Captain said just so I could put Phil out of his misery. You should of seen the guy, he couldn't even stand up. He was going to ask her to marry him when he got back. He even had the ring. Spent a fortune. I just thank it is so sad.

It makes me want you close to me even more. I miss the way you are so clumsy. It was my way of being a hero. Your own personal hero. I love and miss you more than you can imagine.

Love Always and Forever,

Edward