Kagome

Say something.

You're just standing there, looking at me like that. I cant stand to see that look on your face. The slight pinch of your eyebrows, the hurt in your amber eyes.

To know I did it to you…

I forced your hand.

I knew what the outcome would be, and still I asked…

'Don't go.'

You were about to leave, about to go to her.

Again.

Normally, I let you go,

Any other day, I would clench my fists and turn my back.

But not today.

I don't know why, there wasn't anything about today that drove me over the edge.

It was a typical day. We traveled, hunted shards. I stopped you from hitting Shippo and Sango actually did hit Miroku. You caught the game, I cooked you dinner. In fact, you could say it was even a better day than most.

No one was hurt when we found that lizard demon. We added another fragment to our growing collection.

I even got to spend some alone time with you.

So why did I have to rock the boat?

Why did I have to follow you? When I saw the soul collectors overhead, a chill ran up my spine. It wasn't because I knew they were carting off the souls of the dead.

It was because I knew they would take you.

She doesn't need them to carry you off; you leave on your own.

It hurts.

Every time, every single time, it kills.

Do you know? You have to know.

How could you not?

My feet moved on their own.

When I saw you look up, craning your neck to see which direction they were headed, I felt a pit sink in my stomach.

I just kept thinking 'Not again. Not again.'

Without even looking back at me, you left.

As if they were the guiding North star.

And I just…

I just couldn't take it.

So I followed you.

'Don't go.'

I said it.

I cant decide if I'm glad, or kicking myself.

Say something.

Please, for the love of God, say something.

If you don't, if you take that step towards her…

"Say something, Inuyasha."

I can see that this is hurting you.

Clearly, you want to go to her.

And I know you don't want to hurt me.

"…Kagome…"

You love her.

I know that.

You love her, you love her you love her.

It keeps ringing in my head, repeating over and over until I feel dizzy.

Is your love that great?

So grand that I cant understand it? Compare to it?

I would've done anything for you. I would've gone to the ends of the Earth for you.

I would've followed you anywhere.

"I have to. I have to go to her."

Have to?

Have to?

No, you want to.

"I get it." I can feel the lump in my throat.

Am I smiling?

I feel like I must be making a really ugly face.

I don't want you to see me cry.

"Kagome, its just-"

"You don't need to explain."

"You should go to her."

"Kago-"

"Kikyos waiting." I said it louder, more harshly than I intended. Swallowing hard to gather my control, I managed to speak in little more than a whisper, "Go."

I know this isn't easy for you.

But that doesn't excuse it.

It doesn't make it any easier that you turned and jumped into the trees.

And I'm left here, alone with the night and my self hating thoughts.

I cant do this anymore.

Im sorry, Inuyasha.

My love didn't reach you.

I really wish it had.

I'm giving up on you.