Matt the Radar Technician- he had to think of himself that way because if he even thought of his true identity he'd not be able to do this- sat alone at a table in the cantina at Mos Eisley. There was a drink on the table, but he hadn't touched it. He'd been waiting two hours, and his Resistance contact had yet to show up.

Fifteen more minutes. Fifteen more minutes and then I'll go.

He had been telling himself that for an hour.

Finally, she comes.

Her? They had to send her?

A dark haired girl in white, pretty, with a light saber on her hip and a medal staff on her back. She stood in the doorway, waiting for her eyes to adjust. It didn't take long. She'd grown up on a desert world like this.

Finally she stepped inside.

He raised his arm up to help her find him.

She walked smoothly over, confident and graceful. "Hello. I'm-"

"Rey. I know." He didn't look in her eyes. He didn't dare look in her eyes.

Force, but he wanted to look in her eyes.

"And you're-?"

She didn't know him. Didn't recognize him. Good. "Matt. Matt the Radar Technician that's all you need to know."

"All right. Sorry I'm late. I ran into some First Order troopers on the way here ..."

"I don't want to know."

"Right then. Maz Kanata said you wanted to help the Resistance. How?"

He slid a data chip across the table to her. "The First Order has some supply dumps cached through the outer rim worlds. Fuel. Food. Water. Medical supplies. Not a lot, but enough to keep you going. They're only guarded by Droids and the chip has the access codes you'll need to get by them."

"Thank you." She took the chip and tried to catch his eyes. "You're helping us. Why?"

"Years ago a girl asked me to leave the First Order. I made the biggest mistake in a life full of epic mistakes: I didn't. She's with the Resistance."

Don't look in her eyes. Force don't let me look in her eyes …

"Why don't you come with me? I'm sure she'd want to see you again ..."

"It's too late. She found someone else."

"I'm sorry."

"So am I."

"Kylo Ren … have you seen him? How is he?" There was pain in her voice, and it took all his strength not to look up again.

"I've seen him. He's the same. Filled with pain and anger and regret. Alone." He let himself look up for a moment. "So terribly alone."

Their eyes met.

His name- his true name- was on her lips.

"You should go now. It's not safe for you here."

"Come with me."

"I can't. We both know why."

She bites her lip and nods. "Goodbye … Matt."

"Goodbye, Rey."

She didn't look back when she left. She didn't dare. If she let herself do that she knew she wouldn't be able to leave him at all.

She walked through the doors and stood underneath the double suns of Tatooine, pretending that it was the bright sunlight that made her eyes water.

He knew.

He knew she had chosen someone else, and he still helped them. Helped her. He still cared for her.

He still loved her.

She wanted to stay, but she didn't. She couldn't. She had made her choice the same day that he had made his.

"Oh, Ben," she whispered. "If only you had come with me. We could have been happy."

But he didn't. And they weren't. And nothing could change that now.

She left him once more. As she always had. As she always would. She left him behind her along with part of her heart, part of her soul.

And with his gift of life clasped tightly in her hand, Rey made her way back to the Millennium Falcon. Back to her friends. Back to her husband.

Back to Poe.

Author's Note: I loved Poe in the Force Awakens. He was one of the bright spots in the movie. I love Poe with Finn. I didn't like how Poe acted in TLJ and I don't like him with Rey. But I'm willing to bet that's what happens in the last movie sadly. "Matt the Radar Technician" was a SNL Skit where Kylo Ren went on the TV Show Undercover Boss.