A/N:: hey dudes!! Fanchick hereas is u could get rid of me…
So yes, this is chapter two. I just noticed something totally weird….i only write about depressing stories. Huh.
I really do think this is a very random idea, and I believe that I should have better things to do than type endlessly about SOMETHING on my computer, but I really don't wanna try. so, here I sit; social life crumbling as we speak.
Anyway, its still from Rin's POV, and its just at the part where Rin is facing 'God' so…. ya…
Plz R and R!!
I froze, unable to breath any longer. I was caught in this one second that passed like hours as if I was a deer caught in a headlight.
He lifted my hair and stroked it, just like Haru always did. Until this basterd ended my happiness. I shoved that thought out of my head as well. It was my own fault for a being a burden, a nuisance, a bother.
"Well, I am very happy you came to see me, I was waiting very patently for you." he cooed. I was going to be sick, I knew it. The only positive thought in my mind was that if I did get sick, hopefully I got HIM sick as well, and then I could run out of this wretched place.
I said not a word, fearful of what might come. He set my hair down again, but didn't move an inch from where he stood. His hand found its way to my arm, and he dug his clawish nails into me.
I didn't even cringe at the pain, even though it was tremendous and I could feel blood going down my hands, onto his clean wooden floors.
He chuckled at me, and released his death hold on my arm. "We've grown up some, haven't we?" I still remained quiet, the blood pulsing through me.
"Now, Rin, I think you must have some idea why you're here, do you not?" even if I knew and had the courage to say anything at all, my lips stayed pressed tightly shut, still caught in that second that was passing much too slowly.
"Well? Anything?" he waited for a moment, as if he loved the feel of my fear crawling all over me, and permeated the small room.
He took a step closer now, and I involuntarily tensed up. "I shall tell you why. It is because I wanted to make sure you where still keeping from my zodiac; you do remember what happened last time, right?" he barley touched the scar on my shoulder, but it was enough to send shivers down my spine.
He chucked mercilessly again. Would this ever end? "plus, I just wanted to see if you still respected me. Fear is the best form of respect, you see."
I wanted to scream, but I kept quiet, letting myself crumble underneath his invisible hammer. I waited until the final crush would come down, tearing me to pieces.
"You really aren't necessary, are you?" he held my shoulders tightly. "You are horrible. No wonder Haru said he hated you."
That was awful. I felt my heart crush much worse than it had when my parents said I shouldn't come home. Much worse than falling out that window, and worse than staying in that hospital.
I suppose I knew it all along; but that day when I was at Gure-nii's house, I thought different when Yuki said Haru still loved me. But, I guess I would hate someone who left me for no reason. I did, anyway.
But, still. Hate? I'm the worst. I am the most evil person alive. Worse than the hatful man holding my shoulders. But, I thought Haru had loved me in spite of all that.
I guess love really is just some stupid lie.
I turned quick on my heels, and I ran out of the room, out of the house. I heard Hatori calling after me, but I barely heard. I ran faster, and faster, letting my speed overtake me. I allowed myself to feel as fast as I did in my other form, and even more than that.
Out of the gates, out of the area, I stopped in the woods. As if on cue, it had started raining when I was in his house. I just now noticed that my long hair was wet and sticking to me, as well as my clothes.
I found a low rock, and sat under it. I curled my legs up to my chest, and laid my head down on my knees. I was now sure of what I had thought so many times.
I am a nothing. Worthless, horrible, unneeded. All I could blame was myself. For all the pain I've received in my years, none was as great as now.
I sat still, and fell to sleep, waiting for new, redeeming hope.
Hey, that's it. Again, short I know but, whatever. So sad….I wonder what will happen next….you know as much as I do, so leave an idea with your review!! Later,
Fanchick