Chapter Two

The next morning I awoke felling a little better. I went into the bathroom to shower; when I looked the mirror I noticed my eyes looked tried. I noticed how my blue eyes looked very bloodshot. As though I had been hung over. I hadn't had a drink for the last few days. My hair looked like rats nest. I combed my long fingers through my brownish blonde hair. After my shower I got dressed. I put my on jeans and a t-shirt. I had decided today that I was going to make a visit to see my sister Alice. I always could go to her for comfort and right I needed one of her special hugs.

I called her on my cell "Alice" I said as I heard the phone being picked up.

"Edward, It's so good to hear your voice. How are you?" She said with a smile in her voice.

"Not to good," I replied rubbing my nose, "I was wondering if I could come over and talk."

"Sure, of course. I'm always happy to see my older brother."

"Thanks, Alice."

I pressed the end button then put my shoes and jacket on and for the door. Alice lived in a large house with her husband and her three kids. Her and husband lived in a five bedroom house near the school where their kids went. It was a two-story house with a large back yard. I knew her kids would not be home at this time of day for they would be in school. I love my niece and nephews very I just that this would be a good time for to talk to because wouldn't be distracted and didn't really want to have to deal with a bunch of kids running around.

She had married Jasper after graduating high school because she had gotten pregnant. Jasper felt it was the right thing to do. Jasper was older then Alice by a year. She loved him very much. As walked up to the door and rang the doorbell. I waited for my sister to answer. As I stood there I heard the door unlock and the door opened.

"Hi, big brother?" She said with a smile hugging me.

"Hey Alice," I smiled back.

"Come in, Come in. It's so good to see you. Are you ok you look pale?"

"I'm fine. I just want someone to talk to right now."

"You know you can always talk to me Edward."

"I know that's why I came."

"So what's on your mind?"

"A lot of things."

"Well let's talk at the table. I'll make some coffee."

We walked into the kitchen and I sat at the table. It was round with six chairs. There place mats in the center, which had just been cleaned from breakfast. A napkin holder was sitting next to them empty. My sister kept her house very clean. She was always very clean even when she was a child. I remember her room was always cleaner then mine. As Alice brewed the coffee she grab two cups from the cupboard and placed them on the counter. When the coffee was done she poured some in each cup. She put two spoons of sugar in hers and some milk. She left mine black because that's how I like it.

She brought them to the table and sat down. I started talking to her about what happen the other day and yesterday. I told that I felt sick to my stomach I even told her how I had busted out crying after I left work early. I mentioned I went to Tanya's grave and remembered our plans to get married, where we were going to have the wedding. She shook her head and placed her on mine as tears rolled down my face.

"Hey it's going to be OK Edward." she aid with concern.

"It's been at least five months since the accident," placing my hand around my mouth sighing cry fully. "I just can't seem to let her go."

"Oh Edward, you need to try. I know it's been hard on you and I know you loved her."

"I just don't what to do." I said in a cry full voice.

"Maybe you to get out with friends or something to get your mind from thinking about Tanya."

"Maybe your right" agreeing with Alice." I should call some the guys and go tonight. It would get me out for awhile."

I continued to talk to my sister for a while. It was good to talk to her she always new how to cheer me up. We about when we kids and laughed at the good times we had. The mud pies we made and how our mother would yell at us for getting our clothes dirty. I finished my coffee and left my sister house after about couple of hours. Once in my car I got my cell phone and called Eric. He had been my best since I was 12. He always talked to me no matter what even if I didn't call for while. I dialed his number and it rings.

"Hello" Eric answers.

"Hey Eric it's me" I said.

"Hey man, what's up?"

"I was calling to see if you had any plans tonight?"

"Na, just the same old same old. Why, What did you have in mind?" he asked.

"Well I have been thinking about Tanya lately and was wondering if we could some the guys together and go out?"

"Sure man absolutely. I'll give Tyler and Mike a call and will meet at McDuffy's." He said.

"Ok, sounds good Eric. See you there." I said as I hung up.

I sighed with relief sat in my car for while watching the neighboring kids walk home from school.

I met my friends at McDuffy's around 7 o'clock. I took a taxi because tonight I was going to get drunk and possibly find some girl to take home and have sex. I hadn't gotten laid in over five months and tonight I didn't care. Before I left my apartment I made sure I put plenty of condoms in my wallet. I saw my friends waiting for me at a table. They waved me over, Tom handed me a beer and we started talking like old times. Tonight was a guy's night out, no girls. I shook hands with all of my friends that I hadn't seen in while.

"Hey Ed, how's it going?" Mike said as he greeted me.

"Good" I replied back.

"Eric tells you been thinking about Tanya." Said Emmet.

"Yea, I have been thinking about her a lot." I said to him. " I just can't seem to let her go, I don't know why."

"You loved her man. It's okay you'll find someone else." Eric said put his hand on my shoulder. "Will help you. After all what are friends for."

I smiled and said: "Thank you, Eric."

"Hey what do you say we order another round?" Emmet says emptying his glass. We order another round of beer when Mike holds his glass up and says:

"Let's toast a cheer to our good friend Edward, who we love like a brother, May he find love and happiness again."

"I am his brother." Said Emmet looking at Mike.

"I know" Mike replied back. "Can we just make our toast without you reminding us?"

"Fine."

"Cheers" we all said tapping glass together.

As the night went on and several beers later, we came across some girls who had came over to our table and talked with us. One of them for a second looked an a lot like Angela, but I quickly realize she wasn't. Her personality was completely. We all got pretty wasted before heading home. As for me I ended up taking the Angela look a like.