Within the Heart of the Ocean

Chapter Two: Like the Girl in There

Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter or the RMS Titanic.

Okay so if you were wondering, the dress that I love (the first one) it is like Ginny's but it is a slightly darker green and has a red ribbon not a pink. So just to let you know.

Okay, so the first few hours didn't go as planned. Neither did the last while we were docked at the harbor. I guess my luck has just run out or something.

We were nearly ready, and we still had a few passengers left.

" Lily come on!" James said tugging me out the door.

" James! What's going on!" I asked, not protesting but not obeying either.

" We're about to set sail. Don't you want to wave to England?" he asked, still pulling me up a flight of stairs.

I sighed, boys. But I obliged allowing him to pull me to the highest point and shout as we looked over the ocean, and the people below. There were hundreds, some of them screaming and others crying.

They cheered. I smiled and waved.

Did I mention my dresses? No? Oh well I have common dresses, like a light grayish-blue, yellow (which clashes horridly), a few green ones, and some black ones with a touch of color. But for this trip, I got four brand new dresses. One of them is a light green all floaty with a pink ribbon around it. The second is a deep midnight blue with sparkles, so it looks like the night sky. The third is a deep emerald green, it flows much like the blue one, but it has a red band around it and no bows. It is like a darker color, and more professional of the first one. The last one is a emerald green ball gown, with gold stitchings and down the sleeves. The gold makes it glimmer in a very beautiful way. I hope there is a ball. In the light of chandeliers, it would just shine like the moon and the gold would shimmer like the stars.

I wore the first one, it was simple and light. Fanciful? Hmm...a bit more so than usual, but not overpowering. In my eyes it suited me best of all.

I tripped on the last stair, my heel caught on the stair. James luckily caught me and then pulled me up to see over the edge of the ship.

" It's amazing," I whispered in awe. The sun shone on the waves, which glittered like moonstones. " It's beautiful, I love it. James, do you ever think about coming back to England?"

James hesitated. " Not really. I mean, why come back? Then of course, my family is all here or in America. I don't see why you would want to come back."

" Well I guess it has to do with it being...home. You know? But they say you can't go home again...too many memories and too much pain. My home isn't much...just a small cottage really. But it was where I grew up. I don't think I'll ever call anywhere else home. And the Titanic is brilliant. I'm thrilled to be one of it's many passengers." I looked down at the water, sparkling and blue reflecting the blue sky.

I sighed. " Do know where the sun sets on the ship?" I asked.

" I believe the front, I'll take you there later. I have seen it before on the water. Reflected on the water it looks dazzling," James replied.

I rolled my eyes. " James I can walk you know. I don't need your help. I can see the sunset later, and I'm sure that I can find the front of the ship perfectly fine."

" Well I'll come with you anyway," he argued. As though I can't walk on my own.

I resisted the urge to step on his foot. " Says the one who can't even find his fiancee."

" I can too! I just-you know haven't found her yet," James argued.

I glared at him. " Right. I know where my fiancee is and why don't you go back to yours?" I asked.

He sighed. " She's so boring though."

" And yet you're marrying her?" I asked.

He nodded. " I don't have a choice. Kind of like you. Except my fiancee isn't very nice. Well...she's nice enough once you get to know her. But she isn't nice to anyone else. Sometimes I think she just likes me for my money."

" I wouldn't be surprised if that is why she likes you, I mean you're rich. What girl would be daft enough to hesitate to try?"

" Is that a complement Miss Evans?" James teased.

I rolled my eyes. " Head out of the clouds Mr. Potter."

" Funny, I've never heard you call me that. I like it, but I really prefer James," he said with a grin.

" Oh shut up," I replied, holding a hand over his mouth to prevent any other words from slipping out.

He grinned and pulled my hand back to say, " Don't you want to see the sunset with me?"

" Yes I do. But not with you, I'm going with Severus," I replied turning and walking away. Then I turned back for a second, thinking that I hurt his feelings. " You could always take Madeline."

" Right." He nodded, looking less enthusiastic. " I'll do that I suppose."

I noted the evident drop in his tone.

" See you I guess," I said with a wave. Then I practically ran back to my cabin which I shared with Severus. Why was this happening? Could I actually be starting to like him? Yes, apparently I do. Despite being engaged...ahem, don't think you heard that right? Well you did. I am engaged to Severus, and yet I'm falling for the filthy rich boy named James Potter. Great, what could be worse? Oh right, there's this little whittle bitty detail. He's engaged too! Now what?

I can't exactly go up to a rich boy and say, " I'm falling in love with you, so please don't marry Madeline." That would be a lovely, rather charming conversation don't you think?

So instead I have to act as though his sweet smile and shining eyes have no effect whatsoever on me.

I walked out, this time dressed in a lavender simple dress and walked down to see the sunset. Severus said he would meet me there. That never happened.

I got there, and Severus was there. But he was kissing another girl, she had blonde hair and green eyes.

It wasn't that much of a shock, but I never thought he would do that to me.

" Severus!" I shouted, pulling him away from the blonde.

" Lily-" he protested.

" No. I knew you were like this, but I didn't think you wouldn't care about me.

I turned to see James walk up and start to talk to the blonde. " Hello Madeline."

" Wait-this is Madeline? You're fiancee?" I asked James sharply.

" Yes, I told you that Lily," James replied.

I turned on Madeline, giving her a fake smile. " Miss, can I please speak with my fiancee? Alone."

" Oh. Of course," she said backing away to James, looking terrified.

I turned on Severus in an instant.

" I don't want your excuses Sev. I just want the truth. Can you give me that at least? I know you mess up with a lot of girls, and you were my friend. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I ever thought you wouldn't do that to me. I thought our friendship was worth more than that, but I was wrong." I cut him off before he even opened his mouth.

" You know me Lily. You know I do this. So why are you so surprised that I did this to you?" Severus asked. " I thought you knew me."

" Well excuse me! Sorry that I thought my friend might care!" I shouted.

" Lily calm down!"

" That's rich!" I snapped, my hurt fueling my anger. " I'm not going to calm down! I thought you would care and like me. You're my fiancee! And then you went and kissed some other man's fiancee! I can't even believe I said yes to you. Congratulations Severus, that's a record. Breaking two hearts with one kiss."

Severus glared back. " Lily! You married me knowing that I was like this!"

" No, I married you thinking that you loved me. I married you thinking that our friendship might actually be worth something, that it might mean something to you. I thought that my friend might change. I thought that our friendship would matter. But you know what? I've realized something! I don't love you. And I don't want to marry you. Because the last person I want to end up with is a cowardly cheater who doesn't even love me. My love is worth more than that," I snarled, turning and marching away.

" Lily-" Severus began.

" No. It's over. I'm done trying to be your perfect girl. I just want to be me. Can't I just be that Severus?" I said taking the diamond ring off my finger. " I think you'll want this back for the next girl. I can be your friend, but I can never be your lover Sev."

I turned to the sunset as it was fading.

" At least the stars are worth looking at," James said from next to me. I swung around, nearly whamming into him in the process.

" Where's Madeline?" I asked, realizing that she had vanished.

" Gone."

" Gone? Where?" I asked.

" Packing. I sent her packing."

" Can I ask why?" I asked cautiously.

" If you must know." He sighed and turned away from the fading light to face me. " She cheated on me Lily." He held up a finger as I opened my mouth to argue. " And I don't just mean when Snape was kissing her there. I recognized him plenty well. He's known Madeline for nearly three months now. I have seen her kiss him before. She's not faithful. And at first she said she was sorry and everything. I didn't believe her...and now I have my proof."

I stood gaping for a moment and then managed to close my mouth. " So you aren't mad?"

" Mad? No. But come on, I have to show you something," James said, taking my hand and dragging me toward where the First-class cabins were.

I ground my shoe into the deck. " Hold on. I can't go in there," I said pointing to the sign that clearly said: No Second or Third Class Passengers Allowed.

James shrugged. " You're with me, I'm First-class and I gave my permission."

" You're crazy," I said shaking my head.

" Maybe, but I have to show you it," he said pulling me into what I assumed was his cabin.

He dropped my hand and walked over to a safe, which he began to twiddle the dial. After a click, he pulled out a piece of paper? At first I thought he had gone mental, but then I saw it was a picture.

And a beautiful one at that. It was the night sky.

The canvas was painted a deep midnight blue, and shining in the sky was white stars, and then even more amazing was the moon. There was the faint outline of a palm tree and then there was the ocean. I could see the rippling waves, with white foam , soft water and the gentle shine of the moon. The reflection looked so real.

I turned to stare at James. Hazel eyes met green.

" It's amazing, where did you learn to paint so well?" I asked.

" It's natural talent," he replied to the floor.

" Do you have any others?"

He replied by pulling out another, this time of a woman. She had long golden curls cascading down her back. Bright blue eyes shone back at mine. There was a calm beauty about her, with trust that shone deep in her sapphire eyes. She wore a sky blue dress that flowed like water, and I peered at the butterfly clip in her hair.

" You're a brilliant artist, don't go wasting your talent."

" I probably going to make another while we're on the Titanic, I'll let you see when I'm done," he offered.

" I'll model."

" What?" he asked in shock.

" I said I'll model. Draw me like you drew the girl in there. You're a great artist and I want my picture. But not looking like a fragile doll. I'll see you later."

" Great, I'll see you tomorrow."

Oh and I have one error in the whole chapter. Really sorry about that. When Severus and Lily were yelling about being married, they really aren't YET, but they consider themselves married. Well, did. Until now.

And here's a clip from chapter 3: Gambling Promises

"Since laws were made James! That's when! I can't just kiss you and expect you to stick around." - Lily Evans.