Ever since the day you » went away « and left me lonely and cold
My [life] just hasn't been the same oh baby, no
When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go
I just broke down ©

Going crazy ~ Natalie.

She was sitting against the headboard of the bed, her mug of coffee –which went cold after the hours of holding it and not drinking- probably got stuck to her hand by now. It was clear from the look in her eyes -which was the blue color in them now pale instead of the bright usual shade- that she was lost to reality. Her fears were growing and she felt as if she lost her grip to reality. Her mind was processing too fast even for herself, and she was finding it hard to follow her thoughts. Klaus was everywhere, even after his death: he was in her mind, dreams and even in her house.

How can that happen? She knows for sure that he was dead, but she still couldn't believe it, and the only explanation that came to her mind was; that this was her way of graving, after all, she lost her father along with Tyler because of him and his selfishness and in that second of thought her phone started buzzing loudly, the sound vibrating against her nightstand and through the room causing her to jump in her place, the duvet which was covering her lower part slid off her body at the same moment she lost her grip on the mug, causing it to land on her thigh, the coffee spilling everywhere. She let out a loud curse and reached for the phone, pressing the answer button with roughness then yelled a "Hello".

She waited for a second until Elena's sound reached her ears, causing her to stumble back on the bed, the wet part forgotten as she listened to her best friend.

"Where are you today? Why didn't you come to school?" The girl was clearly anxious and Caroline was able to make out the tune of worry in her voice. Clearing her throat just in case, she allowed the words to leave her pink lips in a calm tune.

"I didn't feel okay, Elena, so I stayed in bed" She took a deep breath, waiting for the reply with a prayer that the girl on the line will let it to go, but she clearly didn't pray hard enough.

"I'm coming to check on you then" and then her reply came fast and immediate.

"No need, Elena. I'll just take a nap and then I'll be all fine" She closed her eyes, not waiting for a reply "Elena, my mom is on the other line, I have to go" and as soon as she finished her sentence, she disconnected the call and threw the phone on the bed, her eyes darting to the brown spot on the creamy sheeted bed.

She let out a sigh of annoyance and slid of the bed, pulling the sheets off, carrying them down the stairs, washing them before she went back up with new ones to change them. Then her blue gaze went to the window, and spotted that same figure out of it. She flashed to the glass in a blur, watching as Klaus' gaze met hers and flashed her his charming smile.

And as before, one second he was there and the second he wasn't, causing her to blink a few times as she stuck her face against the cold glass, waiting for another flash to tell her that she was still herself and that she wasn't losing her mind, but there was nothing.

Seconds passed before her sensitive ears caught a sound from down stairs followed by the feeling of a hand on her shoulders. She couldn't help the scream that left her lips before she bit down to stop it in its middle. Turning around, her eyes met his and she couldn't blink. They just stood there, staring at each other and then to break the silence a she allowed a whisper to escape her lips with an uncertain tune.

"Are you real?" She scanned his face with her blue eyes, waiting for his reply, something –anything- to help her feel better.

"No, I'm not" The answer was clearly not the one it was aiming for, but it was still an answer, it made her believe more in herself, even if she was clearly going crazy.

"Did you miss me, love?" A smirk twitched on her face as he reached to brush a golden curl of her face while she debated his question, thinking of an answer in her mind.

"N…." She started to whisper a -no- when she realized something, he was dead, and she had nothing to lose. "Yes, I did"

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