A/N: Another small detail that I don't know if will make a difference but seeing as Nikolas and Mr. Craig is a possible part of Alexis' storyline. Mr. Craig is for one NOT Jerry Jacks. (I hated that "twist") and Mr. Craig is not blackmailing Nik and Robin. However Robin & Patrick are broken up.

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"Alexis?"

Alexis turned at the sound of her name.

"Jason?" she asked surprised.

He was the last one she had expected to see. Especially not right now. "Did you want something?"

"I wanted to ask you if you wanted to dance." Jason asked her, and it sounded like he was almost embarrassed to ask, but Alexis didn't think embarrassment was an emotion Jason Morgan even possessed.

"I was under the impression that Jason Morgan doesn't dance" Alexis couldn't help but smirk at him. He was Jason Morgan after all.

"You're right, I don't." he smiled back, "But I've just spent the last twenty minutes listening to Spinelli go on and on about how Stone Cold should ask the Goddess mother to dance because the Goddess mother is too much of a lady to ever dance with the Jackal."

That brought a laugh to Alexis, a laugh she realized she had needed more than she had thought. "So, you asked me to dance to shut up your little friend, huh?" Alexis teased.

She knew that Jason wasn't like other people, he didn't think or even react like normal people. It was actually one of the things that Alexis had liked with Jason from the first moment, that and the fact that he loved with all that he was, because that's what Robin thought him.

Jason shrugged in response to Alexis' "accusation".

Alexis gave out a little laugh, "So do you want to dance? Or did you just want to get away from Spinelli?"

It looked like Jason hesitated for a moment before he reached out his hand. Alexis took it, without a moment of hesitation. She needed to get away from her own thoughts for a while, they were too destructive.

Jason took Alexis in his arms, and Alexis felt a slightly familiar feeling of safety. And it surprised her, but she didn't want to think about it. Maybe she knew why it was familiar as an image popped into her mind, which included a lot of rum and the island of Puerto Rico.

Alexis looked at Jason and saw a look in his eyes that were way too familiar, "You feel like you lost her too, don't you?"

It looked like Jason was taken by surprise by Alexis' forwardness, though Alexis couldn't see quite why, she had always been rather forward when it came to Jason.

Jason looked at her before he said, "It's different this time" as if that should explain everything, and actually it did, because Alexis felt it too.

It was different this time, because Jax wasn't Sonny, and Carly though she might look as the next blonde bimbo to enter Jax' bed, Alexis knew better. Carly had more spunk that anyone Jax had ever fallen for, including her own daughter.

Alexis had seen Jax with Chloe, the fashion designer, Brenda the supermodel, Courtney the lost prey, innocent women that needed Jax' knight in shining armor attitude. Carly didn't. Sure, Carly needed to be saved, every once in a while. But even if Alexis hated Carly, she couldn't deny the fact that Carly was a strong, willed, woman that probably didn't need anyone. Except Jason.

Alexis hated to admit or think about it, but she and Carly was the same that way. Alexis never needed anybody to save her, she did that herself, and she didn't really need anyone. Except Jax.

But she didn't want to think about that now, quite frankly she didn't want to think about anything, not Sonny, not Carly, not Jax, not all the people she lost, she just wanted to be right here, no matter whose arms she was in. It felt peaceful.

And she should have known it wouldn't last.

"Jase! What are you doing dancing with her?" Alexis could hear the disgust in Carly's voice.

"Carly, he is the best person and I am the best person, and I believe it's a tradition for the best people to dance together" Alexis said, so quick that Jason couldn't get in a word.

It always surprised Alexis have fast she could come up with comebacks when it came to Carly. It was something she couldn't explain, or maybe she could. They Cassadine blood in her had only grown stronger and stronger the last few years, and she wasn't about to let herself be talked down by common trash like Carly.

Alexis was about to throw another remark when she saw Jax approaching and remembered that she had promised him to be nice to Carly, at least for the day.

"He's all yours" she said instead, and left Carly and Jason on the dance floor together and soon they were dancing.

Alexis saw that Jason was not happy about it, but she has yet to see Jason Morgan deny Carly Benson and whatever last name is appropriate for the time anything. So of course he would dance with Carly if she asked, even if he hated dancing.

But he had asked me, the thought penetrated Alexis' mind, like it meant something, which it obviously hadn't. He'd only asked her so that Spinelli would stop bugging him. And she was Sam's mother, and even if Sam had moved on with Cruz, Jason had loved Sam and by extension Jason had cared about what was happening to Alexis during her cancer. That was all.

Alexis went for her champagne glass and poured the entire content down, she was sick of all this thinking. She was sick of all the happy people around her, she needed something stronger.

She went over to the bar and ordered tequila even if she knew it would only make her feel crappy tomorrow. She was done living for tomorrow, if nothing else; the cancer had thought her that. You know besides the fact that her husband was a cheating jerk who really didn't care about what happened to her.

Alexis swallowed the drink, thinking about Ric really just made her want to drink even more. Funny how scumbags like Ric can do that to you. How she wishes she had been smart enough to NOT fall for Ric Lansing. But that was too late.

Maybe she was doomed to be miserable, that why she only fell for guys who didn't deserve her, like Ric, guys who break her heart, like Ned and Sonny or guys who don't see how much she really loves them, like Jax. Alexis needed someone else; she needed some good old fashion fun.

Fun, she had forgotten how to have fun. She was never the fun one anyway, and then again how could she? With the way she was raised, it was a wonder wasn't in Shadybrook along with Laura Spencer.

She needed more to drink.

"Give me another shot, and leave the bottle" she asked the bartender.

"My wedding is that crappy huh?" Alexis hadn't heard Jax sneaking up on her, and looking at the bright smile on his made her want the tequila even more.

"My life sucks, Jax. That got nothing to do with you or your bridezilla". Ouch, maybe she had a little bit too much to drink already. But if she had, she didn't care.

"Alexis, should you be drinking...You know with your..."

"My dying of cancer, divorcing my sleazebag of a husband, and watching my best friend marry the woman I can't stand?" Alexis interrupted him before he could finish, "I think that's exactly why I am drinking."

Jax looked at him with those eyes that Alexis both loved and hated, right now she hated them. Because she wanted them to look at her the same way they had looked at Carly hours earlier when he had said "I do".

"Why can't I find a man like you, Jax? Someone good, nice, who loves me for who I am?" Alexis had been careful to say LIKE you. This was really not the time to tell him that it's been years and years since she only looked on him as a friend.

"You will, you just haven't been lucky enough to see him." Jax said, and smiled. "Or maybe he's roght in front of you and you just haven't noticed.."

Maybe HE hasn't noticed, Alexis though. And she was going to say something when Jason came up to them. "Carly wants you" he just told Jax in a voice that confirmed what Alexis already knew, Jason was as thrilled about this marriage as she was. Maybe even for the same reasons.

"I have to go, it's her day after all" Jax said, apologetically.

"It ain't her first, and it won't be her last" Alexis muttered after Jax left.

She turned to Jason, "Care to join me?"

He shrugged again, Alexis had noticed he usually did that when he wasn't too sure what it was expected from him to say or do.

"Only if we can do it somewhere else than here." He said.

Alexis smiled, she was too drunk to care where she went or who she went with, took her purse and left.

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A/N: It might seem a little sudden on Jason's part to just leave with Alexis. Next chapter will be inside Jason's head to explain some of his motivation to make this make more sense.