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"Okay, this is definitely not the family car," deadpanned Amu, crossing her arms as she stared at the expensive and sleek looking Porsche that her parents had just walked her to. She was relieved she was discharged and could leave, desperate to figure out what her actual life was like, but she didn't expect her dad's beat up van to be switched to such a nice car.

"What are you talking about?" Yaya asked as she slipped into the back. "This is just one of the cars we take since there are so many of us." Ami patted her arm sympathetically as she slid in with the older girl.

Amu grabbed the soccer player's arm, reeling him back. "You never mentioned we were rich," she hissed, still eyeing the fancy car. From the corner of her eye, she saw the Tsukiyomi family get into their own expensive car. She already knew Nagi had been rich in her fantasy land and she wasn't surprised to see him get into another fancy car. "That would have been nice to know! What the hell do our parents do to earn this much money? And what does she mean one of our cars?"

"Amu, slow down," interrupted Kukai, laughing. "Firstly, it's not a big deal to have a lot of money in this town. It's kind of like Beverly Hills, or whatever that place is in America…and I didn't think it would be important enough to mention it. Uh, dad's a famous photographer that does a lot of portraits for things like weddings and stuff. Mom is an editor for a famous magazine and does a lot of motherly things, like homemade cookbooks and housewife advice."

"Oh, well great," muttered the pinkette, remembering those were exactly the things that people thought her parents had done in her fantasy word.

"And to your last question, I'm seventeen years old; did you really think I wouldn't be able to get my license?" Kukai questioned. "You have yours too, but…considering you thought you were twelve, it's probably not the greatest idea to let you drive anytime soon."

"Even if I did consider myself sixteen, I would probably crash the car," murmured Amu, crossing her arms. "So I'm riding with you? Where's your car?"

"Ah, I don't really have a car," admitted Kukai, grabbing her by the hand and leading her to another part of the parking lot. His sister nearly ran away, her eyes bulging.

"No way am I getting on a motorcycle," she exclaimed, shaking her head in protest. He raised an eyebrow, throwing a leg over the bike as he slipped his black helmet over his head.

"Suit yourself; you can always walk ten miles to a place you don't even know," replied Kukai, grinning when she reluctantly took the white helmet he gave her and climbed on as well. Her arms slowly snaked around his waist as he started the engine. "Hold on because I won't go easy!" Amu didn't get a chance to reply as he revved off, the wind blowing in their faces even though the visors were down. She tightened her grip around him, burying her face in his shoulder as he laughed.

"You're mean, laughing at me," stated the pinkette, which only made him laugh more.

"Oh, lighten up, Amu," he replied as they turned into a neighborhood, passing several houses. Finally, Kukai slowed down and braked in front of a two story mansion. Amu gaped. This was definitely not what she had imagined. "You look pale; are you okay?"

"Just…not what I was expecting," she replied, taking his hand as she numbly got off of the motorcycle. "This is really where we live? It's huge; it's like a hotel!"

Kukai chuckled at her expression. "Most people say that. On the right, that's the Sanjo house where Kairi lives. The left is the Mashiro household, but I guess…it's not that important…since you're not friends…" He cleared his throat awkwardly. "And uh, like I said, the Tsukiyomi family lives directly across the street."

"What do their families do?" Amu asked, struggling to take the helmet off. He gently removed her hands, helping her.

"Ah, well, Yukari is Kairi's older sister and she is an employee of Easter," replied Kukai, slipping the helmet off of her head. "She actually manages Utau, who is aiming to become an idol."

"Okay, so that hasn't really changed," noted Amu as she fixed her hair. "What about their parents?"

"Separated a few years ago and neither of them wanted to take care of Kairi so his sister took him in," stated the brunette as he led her inside. She froze, gaping at the gleaming corridor. He shook his head, chuckling, as he took her into the living room. It looked modern and yet so comfortable. "As for the Mashiro family, her parents just work really hard; they don't do anything major. Tsukiyomi Souko is a music teacher and does a lot of singing lessons. Her husband, Aruto, is a famous violinist that retired from this travelling orchestra a few years ago. Ikuto naturally plays violin as well as his dad since his family practically oozes music. I'm pretty sure that's why Utau is so hung up on him; she thinks they're soul mates or something."

Amu raised an eyebrow, watching as he flopped down on the couch. He had a frown on his face. "Kukai…by any chance, did you use to have things like ramen eating challenges with her once upon a time?" He looked at her in shock. "I'll take that as a yes…you two were practically dating in my fantasy, you know. You actually helped her get over the brother complex she had on Ikuto."

"Well, I don't think that's the issue here," muttered Kukai, crossing his arms as their mother entered the room.

"Kukai, don't put your feet on my coffee table," warned Midori. "And I told you to go help your dad mow the lawn!"

"Right, I also forgot to mention that even though we have a few maids and stuff, we still do household chores," said Kukai, groaning as he stood. "Alright, alright; I'm going." He kissed his mother on the cheek before dashing out.

Midori turned to the pink haired teenager, who looked utterly lost. She smiled gently at her. "Amu, your room is on the second floor. It's the one with the black door and pink doorknob. Feel free to dig around if you want to."

"T-Thanks," replied Amu, still looking lost as she slowly walked back out into the corridor and began to climb the spiral staircase.

She wasn't that surprised to see a long hallway that sent a chill down her spine. It looked as if all of the kids' rooms were on this ground. She guessed the rainbow painted one was Yaya's, the white one with the star and idol poster was Ami's, the green one with cleats on the doorknob was Kukai's, and finally hers was at the end of the hallway.

Cautiously, Amu opened the door and looked at the room in surprise. Her room back in her fantasy had been a normal girl's room. This room…was definitely not normal for a teenage girl with a personality disorder. The walls were plain black with no decorations and everything was in place, like nobody lived in it. That alone should have been considered weird for a teenager.

There wasn't much to it. A twin sized bed was next to the glass stained window, and the sheets were a dark pink with white polka dots and the pillows were simply white. The carpet was a cream color. A white desk and matching bookshelf was in the corner, and there were two white dressers on the opposite side, along with a closet on the other side of the door like it had been in her fantasy. A computer screen was on the desk and other than a black notebook on top of it, there was nothing to indicate the room was even lived in.

Amu slowly closed the door behind her and walked inside, looking around. She wondered what she had been like in this world. The best place was to start was the computer, right?

She walked over to the desk, gently moving the mouse to get the computer out of sleep mode. To her dismay, there was a password box. Deciding not to bother, she reached for the notebook instead and opened it to the first page as she sat on her bed.

12 May

So, today Yaya got me this diary. She said, "Yaya-chan wants onee-chan to express her feelings with somebody!"

Hm, not sure how to react to that. I know I don't really have any friends, but still. I'm kind of insulted…I guess I'm stuck writing in it?

Oh, yeah. The doctor diagnosed me with a 'personality disorder' so now there's that to deal with. I guess that explains the blackouts and memory losses…I hope it isn't too bad. I'm already a loser; I don't want to be mental either.

- Amu

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13 May

Dear Diary,

Today was super fun! I wanted to try out for the cheerleading team, but there were no open positions when I got there. I don't know why, but Utau-chan was giving me a weird look when I came in. She knows we used to do all sorts of gymnastics and stuff as kids, so I don't know why she thought it was so weird. She even scowled at me when I tried to ask her what was wrong.

Maybe she had a bad day?

Oh, and guess what? I saw Ikuto-kun today too. When did he start dating Utau-chan? I'm happy for them though, even though I wanted to confess.

What a beautiful day!

- Ran

P.S. I don't really like how light my hair is. Maybe I should dye it a shade darker?

…

14 May

Dear Lola (teehee, that's what I'm calling you now),

Today was really nice. The sky was so sunny; it was perfect for the school picnic. I would have gone, but I spent all day making the sweets and other food with the rest of the kitchen staff. It was really nice, doing something to help out.

Oh, Kairi-kun with Yaya today. She kept running in and out of the kitchen, and he was with her at one time. When she went back out, she reached for his hand. That'd be so cute if they were really dating. I think he likes her a lot, but is too shy to ask.

Hm, it's not really my business but I want to ask if she likes him back…

Should I? Maybe I can suggest to Yaya to make some sweets for him. Oh, speaking of little sisters, Ami had her school musical today. She sang beautifully, of course.

Speaking of beautiful, my hair didn't look right today, no matter how many times I tried to style it. Maybe I should dye it? I think a light green or a blondish color would look pretty.

- Su

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15 May

Hey.

I don't know why I write in this thing. It's kind of girly to have a diary, isn't it?

Anyways, today was kind of weird. I showed up to art class and everybody was giving me weird looks, as if I didn't belong there. Whatever; they can think what they want because I know I can draw well. They don't know me enough to judge.

I didn't talk to anybody unless I had to. I should say that I'm not exactly social. I like to do my own thing, which explains why I ate lunch alone on the roof today. Nobody looked for me, so I guess they don't care either.

I saw Tadase today. He didn't talk to me at all, not that I really minded. I passed him in the hallway; he was leaning in close to that Saaya girl and grinning at her. It's obvious that they've been seeing each other or "hanging out" and "having fun".

I didn't realize putting small things in loose bags of uselessness was deemed fun.

I don't know why I'm dating him, to be honest. Are we even dating? We don't see each other often or talk much. I think I'll officially end things next time I see him. Or at least find a new boyfriend to show I'm not interested in being his second plaything.

I guess that's everything worth mentioning. Oh, I need to go shopping; the clothes in my closet are definitely not in style. Speaking of style, I should probably dye my hair; the pink is too girly for me. Maybe a nice blue color? Not dark blue like Ikuto's, but blue like the sky.

- Miki

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16 May

Dear Journal,

Nothing much happened today to me.

I went to school and was confused when I found out I didn't have chorus. Or rather, the right chorus class. According to my counselor, I should be in Advanced Chorus but I was placed in the regular class. I was horrified to learn that I was actually failing that class.

I know there are other singers out there that shine brighter than me, like Utau, but my singing is above average. I should at least be in Advanced Chorus, but I guess there are reasons for why I'm not.

Hm, what else happened today?

Tadase-kun confronted me today, asking why I haven't called him. I didn't get a chance to respond before he roughly kissed me, groping me and making me uncomfortable, and said not to forget our "deal". He walked away before I could ask him about that.

Why am I dating him? He's not good for my character and he clearly doesn't have actual feelings for me; if he did, he wouldn't be out with those other girls. I know he's cheating on me; I can smell other girls' perfume on him whenever he gets close, sometimes I see lipstick on his neck or on the side of his face, his clothes are never put on right, he carries that grin around like he owns the place, and I even caught him kissing some girl in the hallway when I left class for the bathroom.

I should be honest about it and break it off with him. But what about that "deal" he mentioned? Should I be worried? I guess it's nothing majorly urgent if I'm free of any signs of abuse…but I should keep an eye on him, just in case.

Also, I know teenagers are insecure about themselves, but I've always been pretty confident about my looks. Today was different; I looked in the mirror and wondered why the pink hair didn't feel right. Should I dye it (maybe orange) or style it differently (pigtails would look cute)? Maybe I should do both?

No, Mother Nature created me like this for a reason so I should be happy with how I look.

- Dia

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20 May

I guess the last four entries are enough proof that I really am mental.

If any of my "other selves" are reading this, I'll tell you why I'm dating Tadase. He's a good guy, even if he doesn't act like it. I had a crush on him in elementary school but never confessed until eighth grade. He accepted my feelings but he's such a popular guy, he couldn't hurt his reputation by being seen with me, so we keep our relationship secret.

I hope we can change that soon.

- Amu

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Amu flipped through the rest of the diary, absorbing the information given to her from her other selves. Slowly, the rest of her memories returned and she remembered why she was. She could also remember her other life in the "Shugo Chara" world, as she liked to call it, so it hurt her head.

She learned that Nagihiko had a major crush on Rima, but he never confessed to her because the two girls hated each other. Amu vowed to fix her relationship with the little blonde, though she had no idea how to since she didn't even know why they hated each other.

She also learned that Yaya and Kairi really were dating, having gotten together a week before Amu fell into a coma. Ami got offered a scholarship to a performing school in America, but rejected it because she didn't want to be separated from her friends and family. Kukai and Utau had once been boyfriend and girlfriend, but broke it off because of unknown reasons. Shortly after the breakup, Amu had gotten together with Tadase and Utau started dating Ikuto.

As for her other selves…let's just say Amu was glad she had been cured of her personality disorder. Her split personalities were exactly like her Charas, so they naturally caused some mischief for her.

The pink haired girl wasn't sure what she was going to do. She wanted to fix her relationships, like with Rima and Ikuto, and find out these mysterious things that were never said, like why she was really dating Tadase, and do the thing she had been aiming for back in "Shugo Chara".

She was going to find her true self, and show people she was a force to be reckoned with.

Amu nodded as she closed the book, a determined expression on her face. "Yeah, I'll definitely find my true self and fix this mess!" She didn't know which one was the real world, her coma-induced fantasy or the life she was living now, but her goal was the same.

Look out world; the real Hinamori Amu is about to shine!

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I don't own Shugo Chara.

So…yeah. That's about it…we see how Amu really lives. Not much to this chapter; don't worry though. There will be fated meetings coming soon.

Hm, why IS Amu dating Tadase? Something fishy is going on there…I wonder what? No seriously, even I don't know…like I said, I kind of wing it.

Anyways, don't hesitate to tell me about any mistakes you found or what you really thought about the chapter!