A/N: Sorry for the delay in posting. Had family to take care of, chores, wedding arrangements and well I just couldn't find the time. Thank you to the people who have reviewed this story so far: Shrek, Tenshi Yami – Angel of Darkness and iggle731. Also my thanks to all that are following this story.
Chapter Two
The trip home on the Hogwarts Express was horrible without Hugo. Jack was extremely bored and he missed Hugo's presence greatly. He hoped that Hugo would still come to his family Christmas party, otherwise he might not see him until school started again.
The next day he received an owl from Hugo, he opened the letter and immediately read it:
Jack,
I thought I'd send you a quick letter to update you on the situation, I wouldn't want you worrying.
Richard Nott – you know Rose's ex, that wanker I punched. Well that bastard tried to force himself onto Rose at the party. He cornered her and took her to an empty classroom. Rose was so scared and she keeps crying and shaking. I don't know what to do, I just hug her and tell her that everything's going to be okay.
Anyway Scorpius must have realised she was missing and thank Godric he found them in time, heaven forbid if he was any later, Rich would have r-raped her.
Well as you can imagine Scorpius went fucking mental and beat the shit out of him. Rich had been expelled and Rose seems okay.
Try not to worry on my behalf, I'm fine. If I ever bump into Nott he will regret being born!
Anyway mum says I can still go to your party, so that's some good news. I'd better go this was only meant to be a quick note. Rose and I are going into muggle London, meeting Al and Scorpius, doing some Christmas shopping and just hanging out.
I think Rose wants the comfort of her two best friends.
Bye Jack, I'll see you soon.
Hugo
Jack frowned, Rich Nott was scum and he hoped he would get what was coming to him. It doesn't bear thinking about, if Scorpius hadn't got there in time – well no it doesn't bear thinking about.
He was happy that Hugo was coming to the party still, but he felt a bit jealous that Hugo was in muggle London and he hadn't invited him, and even though he knew it was stupid, he felt a bit jealous because Hugo would be with Scorpius. Yes he knew he was being silly, but he couldn't help his feelings.
After their shopping trip Hugo retreated to his room to wrap the last of his presents, and to wrap some for his dad too – idiot still hadn't got the hang of it.
He thought over the interrogation Scorpius had given him over lunch, "What was with all those question?" he said out loud.
Scorpius knew Jack and he knew Jack was his best friend, he never asked questions before. Then he asked about Jack's sister – strange.
Thinking about Jack's sister, Gemma, Hugo could admit that yes she was attractive, but Jack's family were an attractive bunch – genetics. She had the same eye colour as Jack and even had similar dimples, she was a very pretty girl. He just never even looked at her in that way, then he frowned, he knew what she looked like, but not in detail.
Whereas he could describe Jack's face and eyes in detail, every feature and how his face looked when showing different expressions. Now what could that mean? I mean of course I know his face very well, he's my best friend, I share a dorm with him, I go to classes with him, I eat with him and well I spent all my time with him. I was bound to have his face stuck in his head.
Hugo could easily call up Jack's face in his head, see him laughing, smiling and well just being Jack. He's his best friend, nothing wrong with that.
He finished he wrapping and took his dad's gifts to him, "Here dad. You know mum will say you're lazy for getting us kids to do it." He warned.
His dad laughed, "Yeah I know, but you don't mind helping me out do you?" and Hugo shrugged and said no he didn't mind, not really.
"Dad?"
His dad looked up at Hugo's questioning tone, "Hmm yes Hugo?"
Hugo sat at the kitchen table and looked at his hands, his dad sat opposite, watching him in silence, "Do you think it's unnatural for me to spend so much time with Jack?"
Hid dad smiled and kindly said, "No Hugo. It's not unnatural. You're away at boarding school, away from family and comfort, it's very natural to seek comfort and familiarity with a best friend. It would be very lonely otherwise. I spent all my time with your mum and Harry."
Hugo looked up, "Yeah but you hung out with others too, like um...Nev and um what's his name Dean and that Irish one. I do speak to others and I do play chess and hang out briefly with others, but really 99% of my time it's me and Jack. I just thought maybe it's too much?"
His dad squeezed his hand, "Hugo. Tell me, are you happy when spending time with Jack?"
Hugo smiled, "Yeah dad, very."
"Well then don't worry about it. He makes you happy and you like spending time with him, don't make it into a big deal. Don't give up that happiness because you're worried over something silly"
Hugo stood, "Thanks dad" and he left. Ron replayed the conversation over in his head, yes Hugo was remarkably close to Jack, he was very attached to him. He wondered if there was more to it, that Hugo hadn't told him, well it will come to light eventually and he would be there for his son if needs be.
Hugo spent the time leading up to Jack's Christmas party, thinking about their friendship and he concluded that he missed him when he wasn't around, and he wasn't going to stop spending time with him. So what if people thought it was weird.
He arrived at Jack's mid-afternoon and they wasted no time in catching up, they were both sat on Jack's bed, feet dangling over the side and backs against the wall. They had been laughing and joking all afternoon. That was when Hugo decided, even if it was unhealthy for him to be with Jack 24/7, he couldn't stop even if he wanted to. He craved his company and presence, he was like a security blanket, like the one he had as a toddler.
"Did you see the secret Santa present I got? It was beautiful, dad said it was a top of the line one. I wonder who would know me well enough to know I love chess."
Jack shifted a bit, "Um well your always playing chess in the common room and well its common knowledge that you love it" he awkwardly offered as an explanation.
Hugo smiled at his friend's awkwardness, "Yeah but my secret Santa might not have been from Gryffindor, so they wouldn't have seen me play in the common room. Hmmm to spend over the limit set was above and beyond too. I wonder if someone was trying to tell me something."
Jack stared ahead, blimey Hugo can be so cute but stupid at the same time. "Hugo stop trying to guess who it was and just enjoy the present. They might have asked Rose or someone about you and got an idea of what you'd like, I dunno."
Hugo shrugged, "Yeah I guess you're right. You're always right" and he laughed and nudges Jack shoulder with his.
Jack smiled, a carefree happy smile, it felt good to have Hugo's sunny personality around him again.
Suddenly Hugo declared, "You know Scorpius was grilling me the other day, asked if I fancied Gemma" he turned to look at the familiar face of Jack, he was frowning slightly.
"And? What did you tell him?" his stomach was tying up in knots, he felt sick. Please don't fancy my sister, I couldn't bear that. Please, Please, Please. Jack chanted in his head.
Hugo looked thoughtful, "I said that yes she is an attractive girl…."
That sickly feeling increased in Jack's stomach. Oh please not my sister.
"….But…"
Yes, But what Hugo?
"But I said no I'm not attracted to her. Never bothered looking really, doesn't interest me. Besides she's your sister – that would be weird. I'm mean I don't grill you to see if you fancy Rose" he watched Jack waiting to see if he would declare a huge crush on Rose.
Oh thank Merlin. He doesn't fancy Gemma. Oh thank fuck for that. He looked into those beautiful blue eyes, "Rose? Nah not my type."
Hugo's stomach dropped. Not his type, as in red hair and freckles. Rose was just a female him, and she wasn't his type. Well what does it matter anyway, why am I upset that Jack doesn't think the Weasley look, isn't his type.
"Oh. What is your type?" he really wanted to know, but was worried.
Jack laughed, "Well that's for you to figure out my friend. But Rose is definitely not my type." And he climbed off the bed, "Let's go get a snack" and he left the room, with a confused and a bit disappointed Hugo following behind.
That night Hugo tried to forget about their conversation earlier. Why am I so bothered by it anyway? What does it matter if Rose isn't his type, it's not like I want him and Rose to go out. Merlin he was confused.
He sighed heavily, Jack noticed and put his hand on his shoulder and looked up at him, "Hey Hugo, what's wrong. You seem distant." Jack sounded concerned and Hugo noticed he relaxed the moment Jack had touched him, seeing those hazel eyes full of concern and aimed at him, it was nice.
"I'm just feeling sorry for myself again, don't worry about me. I just. I dunno? No one seems to be interested in me, am I really that boring and unattractive?" he complained.
Jack laughed, he actually laughed and Hugo frowned at him, "It's not funny Jack. I'm being serious."
Jack stopped his laugh, "Sorry. It's just ridiculous that's all. Many people are interested in you Hugo, you're oblivious. As for being unattractive, that's the most stupid thing you have ever said." Jack was just about to point out how attractive he was, when his sister who had overheard stepped in.
"Hugo, Jack's right. You're a good looking guy. Many girls in my year and even your year like you. You just need to open your eyes a bit. That Michelle girl was flirting quite heavily with you at that party and you didn't even notice" she laughed.
Jack shot her an annoyed look, "What?" she asked her brother. He shook his head, "Nothing, I'll tell you later. No go away, it was a private conversation" he snapped.
She stalked off, before Jack could say that maybe boys likes Hugo too, Hugo stared speaking, "Yeah maybe Gem's right. Michelle does seem to like me. Maybe I can just get some practice with her, until the right girl comes along"
Jack rolled his eyes, "Hugo, for one that would be using her. Also what do you mean by practice?"
Hugo flushed red, "I – I want to maybe practice kissing and other stuff. I hate being one of the only inexperienced people in our year." He grumbled.
Jack scoffed, "You shouldn't succumb to peer pressure. You should go at your own pace, when you're comfortable and with someone you are happy with. Not necessary someone you love, but at least a step up from Michelle, who you have no feelings for what so ever" he reasoned.
Hugo gave a small, lopsided smile, "Yeah your right Jack. I'll see how things go, maybe I'd find a girlfriend or something."
Jack frowned, "Maybe" and they carried on as if Hugo hadn't just caused Jack a world of pain. Hugo wants a GIRLFRIEND, Jack get that in your thick head. He's straight and he will eventually meet a girl and then what? You'll be devastated, you need to get over it! He told himself.
That night Jack was wide awake, fully aware that Hugo was on the floor and fast asleep, most likely dreaming of girls and other straight things. He needs to sort his life out, he decided by this time next year, he will come out, not just to Hugo, but to everyone – no more hiding. He will get over his gigantic crush on Hugo and he will maybe date someone. Even though there weren't many openly gay people at school.
He turned on his side, hands tucked under his head. He looked down at the oblivious and utterly gorgeous Hugo. He was on his back, proper starfish position, long legs hanging off the camp bed, mouth hanging open and softly snoring. Jack watched him for some time, watching his chest rise and fall, his eye lids move and flutter. His pale eyelashes, brushing his cheek – oh how he wanted to kiss him.
He sighed and turned on his other side, facing the wall. He soon fell asleep, but Hugo was still on his mind and of course in his dreams.
(Time Skip)
To Jack's relief Hugo didn't go after Michelle and was content to hang around with him instead. Hugo was also in a good mood, as his sister Rose had finally got together with Scorpius Malfoy, Jack was happy too. He liked a happy ending and well it gave him hope, if they could sort it out, then maybe he could find someone.
It was now April and Jack had decided to be honest with everyone and tell them he was gay. He wanted to tell Hugo first, he was his best friend after all. He was pacing in the dorm, worried that Hugo would end their friendship or look at him with disgust, and well he didn't think he could handle a negative response from him. Everyone else, well they could sod off – but Hugo, no he needed Hugo to be okay with it.
Hugo laughed as Jack was pacing in front of him, "Jack stop pacing, you will wear a hole in the floor. Just say what's on your mind, before you explode. I don't fancy cleaning up your brain off the walls" he chuckled and waited for Jack to tell him.
Jack stopped pacing and started biting his nails. Hugo climbed off the bed and pulled his hands away from his mouth, he put both hands on Jack's shoulders and looked down into his worried face, "Jack come on, your scaring me now. What's the matter?" he asked, he was worried he'd never seen Jack like this. So worked up, agitated and frightened.
Jack took a deep breath, looked up into Hugo's face, "I'm gay" and he screwed his eyes shut, not wanting to see disgust in his friends eyes.
Silence.
"Hugo? Did you hear me? I said I'm…"
"I heard"
Jack still had his eyes shut, no way was he opening them now, Hugo's voice sounded harsh and he had removed his hands from his shoulders. Jack felt cold all of a sudden – Please don't let this ruin our friendship he begged, to himself.
Silence.
He opened one eye, peaking over at Hugo. He had his back to him and was quiet. Jack opened both eyes, he could feel anger bubbling up inside him. Why hadn't Hugo said anything? Why was he being so cold? Why was he being so rude?
"Hugo. Say something. Anything." Jack said to the deadly silent room.
Hugo remained facing away from him, "How long have you known?" he asked, voice croaky.
Jack frowned, "Well it's not like I woke up one day, declaring I Jack Cooper decide that I'm gay from this day forth. Blimey Hugo. I don't know, some time I guess. I'm have no interest what so ever in girls. I don't find them attractive, some of them actually repulse me and well I noticed that I seem to ignore how girls look, but I didn't ignore how boys look."
Jack sighed, "You can't even look at me. Hugo your my best friend, don't shut me out just because I'm gay" his voice had risen and he was close to shouting.
Hugo spun around, "What! I'm not avoiding looking at you. I'm not homophobic or whatever – it's just a lot to digest. Fucking hell Jack, give a guy a moment to come to terms with it. Why couldn't you have told me when you figured it out? Like you said I'm your best friend."
Hugo felt hurt, Jack had kept this HUGE part of him a secret. Not only did he feel hurt, he was confused, upset, worried and oh so many things. What if Jack starts dating guys and he no longer gets to spend time with him.
"Why are you telling me now?" Hugo asked, looking into Jack's worried hazel eyes.
Jack shrugged, "Fed up with hiding. This is who I am, why should I fight it, or be ashamed of it. I deserve a chance at happiness and to experience normal teenager relationships, I wouldn't get that chance if I remained in the closet"
Hugo nodded, "I understand. Sorry if I seem weird, just adjusting. I'm proud of you Jack, it must take a lot of courage to have done that. It doesn't change anything, your still my dorky best friend" and he gave a nervous smile. Which Jack returned with his own equally hesitant smile.
It wouldn't be until a lot later on that Hugo would feel a small glimmer of hope. He didn't recognise it at first, and he promptly ignored it once he identified the feeling. Why would he care if Jack was gay? Why would that give him hope? It's not like he was gay or anything and well he didn't like Jack in that way.
Jack had informed the rest of his dorm mates, most seemed alright. If they weren't they didn't say so. Soon the gossip spread and everyone knew of Jack's sexual preference.
Hugo had spent many hours thinking over the new development. He couldn't understand why it mattered so much. He was still trying to digest it really. He even questioned himself, but didn't spend long thinking on that and again shoved those thoughts out of his head. He wasn't gay. He found girls attractive and he was normal, like most people.
He didn't fancy man anyway, he only ever noticed Jack and well that was different. He was frustrated at himself. Frustrated, because in spite of his best efforts to get rid of his wayward thoughts, he continued to have compelling thoughts towards Jack. He chose to ignore those thoughts. Jack had just announced he was gay and he was getting confused, doesn't mean anything.
He didn't like feeling different, he wanted to be normal and to fit in. Above all, he feared that he was somehow different, that he was abnormal and he didn't want to disappoint people.
(Time Skip)
A few weeks had gone by since Jack's declaration and Hugo found he would stare at Jack. He seemed so much happier now, like he could finally be himself. Seeing him so open and happy, it was nice. He smiled and laughed more – it made him smile more.
Jack had never felt so good. Once the gossip settled and everyone was used to Jack being gay, he felt a huge amount of relief.
Michelle had told Jack she knew he was gay, because he turned her down. He snorted and pointed out that even if he was straight he wouldn't have touched her. She wasn't happy and called him a few nasty names, Jack just laughed in her face.
Hugo struggled with the many emotions, feelings and thoughts that swirled around his mind on a day-to-day basis. He didn't know what to make of them, but he just couldn't face up to what it all meant. He was adamant he was straight, end of.
Jack still had his huge crush on Hugo, but he was trying to be more subtle. Hugo had only just found out that he was gay, no way was he going to drop the bomb on him – admitting he fancied him. Not a chance, no way!
However Jack soon noticed that Hugo would watch him more, not just a quick glance, but full on staring. Staring at his lips, into his eyes and even when he would be getting changed. He smiled to himself, Hugo seemed to be struggling with his own sexuality. Jack's hopes increased despite his best efforts not to get carried away.
Jack was a tease and would purposely take his time changing, he would draw attention to his lips and would touch Hugo more and his touches would linger. He was trying to gage Hugo's reaction to these subtle changes in their friendship.
Hugo didn't know what was wrong with him, Jack had just put his hand on his knee to stop him from bouncing his leg. Jack had left his hand on his knee for longer than necessary and well Hugo could feel his body reacting to it. He didn't know what to do so he panicked and flinched away from Jack, when he went to touch him again. Jack looked hurt, but Hugo wanted all the touching to stop, it confused him and he couldn't understand all these mixed feelings.
"Hugo? You have been on edge lately. Are you okay? You can talk to me you know." Jack asked Hugo one evening, after Hugo spent ages staring at his homework but not actually looking at it.
No way can I talk to you Jack. No way, am I going to admit that I have these fucked up feelings. At least Jack was certain of his sexuality and was confident in it. Hugo felt lost, confused and ashamed. If he admitted he might be gay then he wasn't, well then that would cause so much hurt, pain and upset. It was best to just assume he was straight. Maybe experiment with girls, after all he hadn't had much experience with them.
Hugo was painfully aware that he wasn't like other people. This made him become withdrawn and lonely, he was convinced that he was the only person to feel this way. He had learnt to hide his true feelings, he acted as others wanted and expected him to act, for fear of being ostracised, ridiculed or rejected by loved ones and friends.
"I'm fine Jack. Just thinking maybe it's time I started looking for a girlfriend or something" he offhandedly said. The idea scared him, but he needed to be with a girl and see if he could live a normal life.
Hugo believed that if he was with a female his confused feelings would go away and it would become clear. He would be attracted to women and he could go on as normal.
Jack stiffened, "What. Since when? You – you fancy someone?" he stammered out.
Hugo was oblivious to Jack's plight, "No I don't fancy anyone. But if I wait until I fancy someone, I might be like 40 or something. I just need to go for it, maybe the attraction will come later" he calmly stated.
Jack sat forwards, "Don't be so stupid Hugo. You can't force attraction and besides, you need to be somewhat attracted to you know – to be aroused enough to take things further" he said quietly.
Hugo blushed, "Well I won't know until I try will I" he snapped.
Jack glared at him and stormed off to the dorm room. About an hour later Hugo joined him, "Jack? You calmed down now? What's your problem anyway" Hugo demanded.
Jack jumped off his bed, face contorted in anger, "You. You're my fucking problem. Why are you torturing yourself, your even considering forcing yourself to find a girl attractive to prove a point? It is beyond stupid" he yelled.
Hugo balled his hands into fists, "Don't call me stupid. You have no idea what I've been thinking, don't lecture me. What are you trying to say Jack? Just tell me" he snarled.
Jack laughed, "Fucking hell Hugo. Can't you see it? Haven't you figured it out? You're gay or bisexual at least!" he shouted.
Hugo's face drained of colour, he was mortified. He could admit that, yes, Jack was right, but he wasn't ready for that. So instead he laughed, "Fuck you Jack. I'm not gay, just because you are, doesn't mean everyone else is. I'm not trying to prove a point by finding a girl. I'm just getting on with it, there is nothing wrong with casual sex or whatever. You don't need to be all loved up first, it's not a fucking Disney movie. Wake up Jack – live is a bitch. You're not going to find prince charming and be swept off your feet. Get over it. I'm just considering my options, I don't want to graduate still a virgin. I might as well get it out the way" Hugo had lowered his voice but it was still firm and angry.
Jack groaned in frustration, "Fuck off Hugo. Leave me alone and go find some whore to ruin your life" he snapped and he climbed back onto his bed and spelled the curtains closed.
Hugo stayed rooted to the spot for a while, then he said out loud, hoping Jack would hear, "Fine. I will" and he stormed out.
Jack collapsed against his pillows and started at the ceiling. He never really ever argued with Hugo and he had just basically accused Hugo of being gay. Which he denied, it was obvious he was at least bi – why couldn't he just admit it. He was angry at Hugo, it was like Hugo was ashamed of his true feelings and that was weak. But to be at the stage where you're ready to come out to your friends and family, you had to be able to admit it to yourself first. Clearly Hugo was in denial and was refusing to admit, even to himself that he was gay.
Now he felt angry at Hugo for his stubbornness to admit his true feelings, sick – what if Hugo did get with a girl, which led to feeling jealous and scared. He sat up, pulled the curtains back and decided to go find Hugo to apologise.
He stepped into the common room and his worst fear was there right in front of him. Hugo was enthusiastically snogging a girl, not just any girl, skanky Michelle. If Hugo was so adamant about kissing a girl, he could have some taste or class, Michelle was a known slut. But then maybe that's why Hugo picked her, she was easy – she wouldn't argue.
Jack started shaking and he felt sick, Hugo hadn't even noticed his arrival. His tongue was thoroughly jammed down bitch face throat. He had to get out of there, he fled the common room and ran, didn't know where, just ran.
He came to a stop by the lake, he slumped against a tree and sat on the grass. His heart ached, he knew he had a crush on Hugo. But he didn't think he'd be this upset at seeing him with someone else. It hurt like hell and he couldn't go back to the tower.
Roxanne Weasley watched as Hugo's friend, Jack, ran passed her and outside. He looked very upset. She decided to go check on him. Any friend of her cousins was a friend of hers.
Approaching the figure of Jack, she joined him on the grass, "Hey" was all she offered as a conversation opener. He could either tell her to go away or open up, she waited.
He turned his head to her, he looked as if he wanted to cry. "Hey Roxanne" he said, she noted his voice was small and sad.
She smiled weakly, "So you wanna talk? Or we can just sit and watch the lake." She offered.
She knew Jack reasonably well, they were in the same year at school and well he was Hugo's best friend, all the cousins made it their business to know all the other cousins business.
She was aware that he had recently come out and wondered if he was being bullied or something.
He sighed, "Just being silly, ignore me. I have a crush and well it's not nice when your feelings aren't returned"
She nodded, "Yeah been there, Sucks big time. You need to move on to someone who will return your feelings, you deserve happiness Jack. What does Hugo say?"
She didn't miss the fact that he had tensed at Hugo's name, but she chose to pretend she hadn't noticed. "He's busy with Yo-Yo knickers" he sneered.
Roxanne laughed, "Yo-Yo knickers, what's that? Who's that?" she giggled.
Jack smiled, "You know a muggle Yo-Yo, goes up and down, well so does her knickers, so she's yo-yo knickers. You know, as in a bit of a slut. Oh and I am referring to Michelle, in Gryffindor, our year" he finished.
Roxanne laughed, "Oh that's funny Jack. I'm telling dad that one, yo-yo knickers" and she laughed for a bit longer, once she calmed down she added, "I never liked Micelle. She slept with my best friend's boyfriend. Skanky cow"
Jack nodded his agreement, "Well Hugo doesn't seem to mind. He's trying to reach her tonsils with his tongue" he huffed.
Roxanne realised what this was all about. Jack had said he had a crush and they didn't like him back, he was gay and he was clearly upset that Hugo was kissing some girl. Poor Jack.
"So how long have you been in love with Hugo for?" she asked without hesitation.
He gawked at her, "W-what I'm n-not in love with Hugo" he stammered.
She shook her head, "You don't fool me Jack. I won't say anything don't worry. You need someone to talk to about this and well, it can't be your idiot best friend can it" she reasoned.
He chuckled, "Yeah that idiot. Fine, Hugo was the reason I discovered I was gay in the first place. I had very strong feelings for him, not sexual, just more than friendship. Then I started noticing how his hair looks in the sun, how his eyes are like a clear blue ocean and oh fuck I have it bad." He hung his head in his hands.
She patted his knee, "Definitely one love sick dude" she not so helpfully said.
He raised his head, "He's just perfect Roxie, he's funny, smart, modest, and attractive and he's my best friend. He doesn't have a clue I like him. Obviously he knows I'm gay now, but that's it."
"You need to tell him Jack" he shook his head, "No way. Not a chance" he determinedly said.
"Jack, I think Hugo's gay. I've noticed things about him and well maybe you'd be surprised" she countered.
Jack could wish all he wanted, yes Hugo might be gay or bi, but even if he was, he was refusing to admit it and when he does, he might not even want Jack anyway. No it was too many 'what if's', he couldn't take that risk. He told Roxanne so and she reluctantly agreed.
"Okay, so what you do is just wait it out. Hugo will wake up and realise he's gay, hopefully sooner rather than later. Or you find a nice scrummy quidditch player and ravish him until Hugo is ready to man up and admit who he is" she declared.
Jack laughed, "Yeah maybe" they then spent half an hours discussing all the 'fit' boys in the school. Jack felt a lot better, he said goodbye to Roxanne and made his way back to the common room.
Thankfully Michelle and Hugo were no longer kissing. Michelle was scheming with her other slutty friends and Hugo wasn't in the common room. Jack shrugged and went up to their dorm room.
Hugo was lounged out on his bed hands behind his head and a thoughtful expression on his face.
Jack ignored him as best as he could, which wasn't very well. He was drawn to his damn face – but he acted like he was ignoring him.
"Where did you go?" Hugo asked moments later.
Jack shrugged and put on his pyjamas. "Nowhere, just getting some fresh air" he coolly replied.
He climbed into bed and watched as Hugo looked to be having an inner battle with himself.
"Look Jack, I'm sorry. We seem to be snapping at each other a lot more now and I hate it. I hate fighting with you. It's just, you need to stop assuming you know what I'm feeling. Don't judge me if I want to kiss a girl, who I am not in a relationship, so what. Stop judging me and looking down at me. Okay." He sighed and continued, "I promise I won't argue with you about it anymore, juts try and understand how I feel"
Jack's eyebrows shot up, "Hugo"
"Yeah"
"Don't patronise me. Have you even thought about how I feel, no I guess you haven't" and he closed his curtains and ignored him.
Hugo was stunned, Merlin tonight has been an emotional roller coaster. First he fights with Jack and Jack accuses him of being gay. Then he decides to go find a girl and kiss her to prove to Jack he likes girls. Michelle was in the common room and he didn't hesitate, he walked up to her and just kissed her. She was soon kissing him back and they were full on making out in front of everyone.
He pulled away embarrassed, he mumbled an apology and returned to his room. Jack wasn't there, he hadn't seen him leave. Then he felt guilty, as Jack would have seen him kissing Michelle – and that just made him even more confused. Why does he care if Jack saw or not.
The main confusing thing was, the fact that he hadn't really felt anything whilst kissing Michelle. Maybe he needed to fancy the girl first and that was why he wasn't aroused or even a tiny bit bothered.
Now Jack had returned and was still mad at him, he didn't know what he had done. He hated arguing with Jack, he wanted to just hug him and promise him the world, just so Jack would talk to him again. But that only made him even more confused- so he ignored the horrible sinking feeling and went to bed.