chapterONE.

A flash of dirty blond hair darted outside the coffee shop's oversized window distracting me from my ever so depressing thoughts. Impatiently sighing I looked down at my watch 12:15. He was fifteen minutes late. "Hey Mariah sorry I'm late. Traffic," the blond boy hastily sat down across from me giving me an identical smile that I loved so dearly. But he wasn't my blond that I was in love with.

"Kevin it's cool, you're here now. So you wanted to talk to me about something," I asked trying to get straight to the point so I could go home and mope. He smiled and went down to his messenger bag and pulled out a pile of papers neatly stacked and binded together. "Yeah I wanted to talk to you about a project I'm working on that I think you would be perfect for". He handed the script to me, which read 1600 Hollywood. Interesting.

After reading the first four pages I looked up to Kevin who was patiently waiting for my response. I nodded impressed and captivated, it was a truthful and appealing story about a group of people working in the entertainment business. "Very gritty and raw. I love it. Is it a indie film your working on". Kevin licked his pink lips and smiled, liking my critique. "No more like web series. Do you think you would like to be apart of the cast," Kevin offered me. Unsure I shook my head, I'm not very fond of getting parts handed to me. I wasn't sure if he considered me for the role because of my acting skills or because I was involved with his little brother.

"Kevin I don't know. I like to get roles fair and square not because I use to see your brother. Sorry," I declared handing him back the script. Looking down he stuffed his hands in his pockets. "Look Mariah this isn't about Kendall or your love life. I just feel like you the perfect fit for this character. Cassie's spicy, sarcastic, funny, and an actress trying to make it. If you don't relate to that I don't know who can. You're the best actress for this role. You know it and so do I. Just read over the script and if you decide yes just come to the cast and crew meeting next Friday," Kevin explained taking a napkin from the table and writing on it. He then handed it to me. "Here's the address. Just think about it okay". He put his hands on my shoulders reassuringly.

"So how is he," I ask looking elsewhere afraid to make eye contact. Kevin chuckled keeping his hands on my shoulders. "He's fine, a little distracted but fine. You know you can call him sometimes. He is single". I chuckled still not making any eye contact as he removed his hands. I already knew Kendall was single after doing my weekly late night check up on him online but hearing it from Kevin made it so much better. After our last encounter together five months ago I was in dying need of him like he was my addictive drug and the Internet was the best dealer I could find. "Fine I'll look over this script and if I love it I'll be at the meeting if I don't I'll catch up with you another time. I see you around Kevin". I turned to leave before my nerves started to show.

"Hey Mariah," I stopped dead in my tracks and turned, "Kendall's not the only one who misses you, we all do". Kevin smiled warmly as I nervously grinned. I missed them all too especially Kendall.