This is a continuation of chapter one. I didn't want to post this as its own document, since both are pretty much about the same thing. I hope you enjoy my interpretation of Roxas's thoughts after he left the Organization and Axel. I didn't want to do a part about Namine, she really doesn't matter to me like Kairi. I find both of them like Sirens, distracting our boys from their true, almost homosexual, objectives D: Heathens!

One we are Nobodies, Two we are whole
Chapter 2: Roxas

"Nobody would miss me..."

It hurt him more then he thought, but he had to do it, he had to find himself. Roxas never looked back, but he heard what Axel said as the portal to darkness closed. A tear slipped from his eye as he wrapped his arms around himself. Axel was the only one he could call a friend. The older boy always gave him a helping hand and taught him everything he needed to know to just live. Axel was his everything.

Things at the castle, though tough, were everything he needed to be what he thought was 'happy'. Axel was everything to him: his friend, his father, his brother and his most cherished person. His emerald eyes always softened on him and only him, never anyone else. And his smile... Axel always smiled just for him. Everyone else treated him different since he too was a Keyblade Bearer. He was much more special then the others and he hated it.

Xemnas never allowed him to do much, and let the others do things for him for a time. Once he learned his real self was alive, he had to see for himself. That strange boy, Riku, mistook him for this... this other self. His whole self. He grew bitter when Xemnas denied him, and took it out on Axel by denying him being near the boy. Roxas knew it hurt Axel, but he had to break him now or he would never let him go. He had to run away. He didn't want to be a Nobody with no past. He wanted to be a somebody… anybody.

Roxas's only hope was that Axel would forget him, and the day he met DiZ and the strange man, he accepted his fate to enter the make believe world where he would have a heart. It was too keep him safe. He never meant to forget Axel when he reappeared, he truly didn't know who he was but seeing the hurt in his eyes and in his voice, he knew he had to be someone special to him. It wasn't until later, after meeting Namine, he knew what he was missing. He didn't have a past. He let his anger out on Axel again, just before he rejoined Sora.

Sora... his other self was truly remarkable. Nothing ever let him down, and his passion drove him to search for his friends and help those in need. Why couldn't Roxas be more like that? Put others before himself and not care what became of him? Seeing the others from Twilight Town, the real Olette, Pence and Hayner, sadden him, and tore at Sora's heart. Though Sora was allowed to see them again, Roxas wouldn't, and so he cried. They didn't know he existed. Again… he was a nobody.

Much time past and before he realized it, Sora was fighting along side Axel. He rejoiced seeing his friend again and only wished to be free again to talk to him, to hold him again and be near him. But when Axel released an attack that drained his life force, Roxas felt something stir inside him. The only way he could describe it was that his heart was breaking.

'Axel!' he thought broken-heartedly, 'What have I done? My friend, don't go... don't leave me! I'm sorry, I'm so sorry... don't die, don't die!' At last Axel told Sora his final words, making Roxas weep deep within Sora. He betrayed his friend, the only one he ever loved. How could he do that to him? All Axel ever did was take care of him. If it hadn't been for Namine, maybe none of this would have happened. Namine had filled his head with silly thoughts and led him back to Sora's heart. If she hadn't… then maybe… maybe… Axel could have continued to live on. Even so, Roxas couldn't blame her. She was only trying to fix the mistake she helped create.

While Sora continued his journey in search of Riku and Kairi, Roxas began to understand that what Xemnas searched for wasn't something to be found on the outside, but within. The darkness within Xemnas was what his heart created, and it blinded him from discovering that. Kingdom Hearts connected everyone to one another, it wasn't a place to seek power or obtain something he thought the Nobodies lacked.

In truth, the Nobodies did not lack anything but half a heart. They were born from strong hearts which at their final moments of existing created the Nobodies. In a way, it was that heart's last chance of staying alive, to exist without their living bodies and be forgotten. Nobodies didn't have hearts because they were hearts. That was how they were created, and that was how they were able to feel the way what they did. They had half a heart, and it was complete when they found another nobody to be with. Together, they completed each other. Maybe that was why Xemnas never understood it. He didn't have anyone to complete him.

In the end, with nothing else to lose, he made amends and loaned his powers to both Sora and Riku to defeat Xemnas. The two boys reminded him a lot of him and Axel, always together. He helped him home, to Destiny Island where he would at least be with Namine, a special Nobody like himself. She was the last one of his kind, the only one who knew he existed. But he never felt whole again. He was only half of something special.

Without Axel, he couldn't be whole again.

Re edition of ROXAS. I like how this turned out compared to the first version. Maybe it's because I had a while to think things over and finally get what I had been thinking straight. I think I might end up doing a Namine sometime soon… the only thing is I don't know a lot about her because she's definitely not my favorite person, nor is Kairi. But it would be interesting to me how I'm going to interpret her thoughts from what we know about her. Please review!