Hey, I didn't think anyone would read this, but thank you for all the support. :)

I didn't like the Nathan St. Germain/ Lyndon James plotline. So Maya's killer is unknown for now. And Nathan never existed.

Emily sat there too in shock to be present in her surroundings.

Is Spencer "S" ?

Does she love me?

Why did she kiss me ?

Emily had so many thoughts that she didn't notice Aria approaching her.

" Hey Em" She cheered.

" Oh, hey Aria" She exclaimed.

Aria sensed the vibe she was getting from Emily.

" Em, is there something wrong?"

Emily just sat there staring blankly at the ground as she unconsciously touched her lips. Aria nudged her gently, hoping to get her attention.

" Hello? Emily, are you okay?" She questioned.

Finally Emily snapped out of her trance, and looked up at Aria.

"I'm sorry Aria, it's just that..." She spat out.

"I'm at a lost for words now. Aria, Spencer... she kissed me."

Aria was more surprised than Emily was.

" What do you mean Em?"

Emily explained what had happened, and about 'S'. By the end Aria was more surprised than ever.

" I just don't know what to think." Aria said.

" Do you think Spencer is 'S' ?" Em asked.

" Maybe. But it could be someone else. I mean you guys didn't have a fight or anything. It just doesn't make sense."

" But why would she kiss me?"

" That is question you should probably ask her Em. It's weird though, I would have never pegged Spencer to be that bold and brave." Aria chuckled.

" Me either. It was so unexpected. We were just talking, and then she said she needed to tell me something. Next thing I know her lips are on mine."

" Well, I think you should go talk to her. Because sitting here trying to figure it out will drive you insane." Aria said as she patted Emily's thigh.

" Thanks Aria, I'm going to find her" Emily said as she stood up ready to search for Spence.

It took Emily half the day before finally finding Spencer at the Brew, sitting contentedly sipping a black coffee.

" Hey" Emily said timidly.

Spencer choked on her coffee at Emily's presence.

"Hi" she replied.

" So, can we talk? " Emily asked.

"Uhm, sure." Spencer stuttered gesturing to the empty chair across from her.

The awkward silence in the room was deafening. Neither one of the girls wanted to start the conversation, but they both knew that it needed it happen.

"Spence, I'm not mad. I'm just confused. Will you explain to me why you kissed me? "

Spencer stared at the ground, trying to work up the courage she needed.

"Emily, I...I... I've been... ugh " she rambled.

She took a deep breath, trying to compose herself.

"Emily, I've tried to hide my feelings... for a long time now." she breathed.

"Em, the first time we met, it was like I never felt more alive and needed. I finally felt a purpose. You gave me a purpose Em. And I wanted to tell you. For years, I've wanted to. But I could never find the courage or strength to. And when I did, you were out and in love with Maya. I couldn't tell you, when you were already in love with someone else. I would never stand in your way of happiness. Then Maya left, and then there was Paige and Samara. I never really stood a chance. When Maya died, I wanted to tell you more than ever. But I could never take advantage of your state. So, I waited. Waited for you to be ready, to be whole again. But I was an idiot and lost my chance to Paige. I love you ,Emily. I always have and I always will be. I guess, I got tired of waiting." Spencer confessed.

"Spence, I... you could have just told me." Emily gasped.

"I would have understood if you just told , are you 'S' ?"

"Am I who" She responded.

"Never mind. So this whole time, you had a crush on me?" Emily questioned.

" It wasn't just a crush Em. The day we met in Alison's backyard, it was like something changed in me. You glanced up at me with that smile and it burned into my mind. That night all I could think about was this swimmer with that adorable smile. And then magically the five of us were best friends. I tried hard to let go. I had convinced myself it was a silly crush that would pass. But it didn't. The closer we got, the harder I repressed my feelings. Alison eventually figured it out, and she tortured me, constantly threatening me to keep it a secret. So I tried to move on. Lying to myself. Trying to love someone I possibly couldn't. Toby, Diego, kissing Wren and Ian. All lies to distract my mind from you. No matter what I did, I could never get over you. Look Em, I can understand if you feel uncomfortable and disgusted. I'm sorry, I shouldn't have kissed you."

Emily placed her hand on Spencer's had gripped it tightly.

"Spencer, I just can't believe it..." She paused.

Emily stared straight into Spencer's hazel eyes taking in every spec and detail.

"I love you too."

Spencer's smile was enchanting.

" But not in the way you love me" Emily continued.

Spencer's heart sank to the bottom of her chest and slowly ached in agony.

" I don't want to hurt you Spence, and I can't lie to you. I love you, as my best friend. And I think that's what we should stay. I'm still with Paige, and what about Toby?"

"Toby and I broke it off last week. I wanted to tell you, but I wanted to wait until I told you how I felt."

Spencer glanced at their conjoined hands and smiled for a moment, but then the pain overwhelmed her.

" I think its best if we just stay friends. Goodnight Spencer."

Emily slowly got and let Spencer's hand drop hard on her lap. When she reached the door, she gazed at Spencer, now drenched in sadness. Her heart constricted at the sight, but she looked away shaking her head.

Spencer laid in bed with mixed emotions. She was glad that she finally told her worst fear was true. Emily didn't feel the same way, and it broke Spencer's heart. She feared this and it was the main reasons why it took Spencer so long to confess her feelings. she sighed hoping that the pain would subside. But it never did. There was an emptiness in her chest and a numbness in her mind. She couldn't feel anything. And all she could think of was her.

She's just a girl. She reminded herself.

She's just a girl.

"Who am I kidding. She's the girl." Spencer whispered before rolling to her side, falling into a dream of hope.

Sorry for the long update.I'm not sure if I want to continue this story. No one seems to be reading it anyway.