I turn to see my mum and dad behind me, encouraging me to say something and to shake his hand. But I can't, I won't. I felt betrayed by own parents. They are the people who are programmed to love me for who I am, no matter what. They claim to want to 'help' me but no one understand me anymore- I'm a broken toy and I can't be fixed. No amount of pills or therapy can help me now, I'm too far gone.
I run to my bedroom and slam the door hard. I jump onto my bed and pull the covers over my head. 'Why do they do this to me? I don't want to talk,' I think to myself. 'Don't they know I'm trying my best, isn't that good enough?' I begin to sob uncontrollably.
*FLASHBACK*
DIIIINNGG! It was 3pm on a Friday afternoon and the last bell had finally sounded. I packed up my fluffy, pink pencil case and put it into my bag whilst exiting the Spanish classroom. I walked past my locker, exit out the main entrance and into the car park of Hollywood Arts where the gang stood, gossiping about a girl named Stephanie's' costume party tonight. "Hey, Lil Red" Andre greeted me. I giggled and waved back. I joined Andre, Robbie, Jade and Tori in the excited chatter about this party tonight, discussing our costume ideas before being interrupted by a hysterical Trina with a bloody nose, calling out for Tori from across the car park. Much to her dismay, Tori left to go check on Trina with the help of Jade claiming to be an expert with blood leaving myself, Robbie and Andre alone in the car park. It was getting late so there was only three cars left, one being Andre's party van. My plan was to walk home the 5 blocks so I called out bye to the boys as I began to walk the direction of my house. "Hey Lil Red. As if you thought we would let you walk home by yourself at this hour. Get in. We'll give you a lift," Andre called. "KK" I replied.
I climbed into the purple party van and jumped on the comfy seat in the back, covered in bright pillows. Andre started the van and pumped the radio to full blast. I closed my eyes and sang along to my favourite song 'Five Fingers to the Face' whilst fiddling with one of the pillows on the seat. I didn't even notice that Robbie was sitting next to me until he asked what I was wearing to the party tonight. "My unicorn onesie," I replied happily. I closed my eyes and began singing again. "I think you should wear nothing. You are so hot." With that statement my eyes snapped open, I turned to a smiling Robbie who was sitting a little too close to comfort. I stood up, looking out the window for the first time since I got into the van, realising Andre had driven us in the complete opposite direction to my house."Hey! Where are we going? I need to get home to get ready for this party tonight," I asked confused. "Relax Cat, we are going to have our own party tonight." That's when I noticed the large bulge in Robbie's pants.
*END OF FLASHBACK*
