My Savior

by Kisses.in.the.dark95

After Mason's death and the events that unfolded in Frostbite Rose can't forgive herself and blames herself for everything that happened. Lissa doesn't understand and starts pushing her away and Dimitri isn't much help and looks at her with pity in his eyes, who is going to be the one to help Rose become her old self again? Rated M for language and adult themes

2. Chapter 2

My Saviour Chapter 2

I do not own vampire academy or any characters.

Authors note: sorry it took so long to update I had no idea where to go from there but I hope you all enjoy this story and don't forget to review love KissesInTheDark95

After my shower I got myself ready for training with Dimitri. Even if he didn't think that I was well enough to start training again I was ready to start again, I needed to start training again. I needed to be a better guardian, I can't let any one else die because of me. I got dressed in my gym clothes, packed my bag for the day and put my headphones on and left the dorm. I was early for once making it to the gym 30 minutes before our training session was supposed to start. I walked in and flipped the light switch on and chucking my bag somewhere in the corner. I decided to stretch before Dimitri arrived and turned my music up loud.

About 20 minutes went by and I felt someone taping on my shoulder, I pulled my headphones out and turned around to come face to face with Dimitri and all my friends standing behind him.

"Rose we need to talk." I just gave him a look and he continued. "Christian told me about earlier, we're all here for whenever you need to talk. You have Eddie, Mia and Christian who were all in that place with you maybe you can all get together and talk about, or Lissa she's your best friend or talk to me Roza I'm always here for you."

"I don't need to talk to anyone." I grumbled at them.

"Little Dhampir, I can see your aura it's black, dark brown, murky red. You need to stop blaming yourself." Adrian spoke up from the back of the group.

"I wish I could see Rose's aura it sounds interesting but I'm here for you Rose you can always talk to me you know that." Lissa's usual cherry voice said.

"See Rose you have so many people who care about you and want to help, please let one of us in, talk to us, explain what's going on." Christian pleaded walking towards me.

"None of you understand, you were with me in the basement you know what he was like but you weren't in the room with me and Mase!" I chocked on his name holding back to sobs that wanted to consume me. I couldn't do this tell everyone what a failure I am. I know that they blame me as well. "I can't do this, you don't understand." I mumbled as I put my headphones back in only for Christian to walk over and pull them out again.

"I can't Chris! I can't talk about it, I can't forget it and I can't bring Mason back! I killed him, I killed Mase!" I admitted it out loud and let the sobbing consume me I was pulled into someone's arms and they tried to rub soothing circles on my back. "It's all my fault, he came back for me, it's all my fault." I kept mumbling over and over again.

"Rose it's not your fault! None of us blame you for what happened. I tried to Mason back but I was too weak, we all knew what was going to happen if he went back in for you, I tried to stop him but I couldn't. I wanted to go back for you as well and try and help but Mason ran through before me, he knew what he was doing and don't for one minute think that it's your fault you didn't kill him you tried to do everything you could to save him." Christian whispered into my ear as he rocked us back and forth. I looked up at him and could see the unshed tears glistening in his eyes.

"You don't understand though, I could've fought them off when we were in the house and gotten their attention back on me but I didn't I was a coward and now one of my friends is dead, don't you dare tell me this isn't my fault!" I yelled as I pushed out of his arms and ran past everyone. I kept running until I was out of the gym and standing near the boundary line. The reads kept running down my face no matter how hard I tried to stop them. I looked up and that's when I saw him. Mason was standing about 6 feet in front of me staring at me with those sad eyes. I tried to move towards him but someone caught hold my wrist and pulled me back towards them. "Did you see him?" I asked turning around to see Dimitri with his wrapped around my wrist and Christian, Adrian, Lissa, Eddie and Mia standing there.

"See who Rose?" Dimitri asked.

"No one, never mind." I pulled my wrist free and started to walk away, maybe I was going crazy and was hallucinating him standing there at least it was friendlier then the Mason in my dreams.