AN I am so sorry I haven't updated in such a long time. I have been sick for a while and my workload at school is just barely bearable. ) I have missed writing. And I just want to say THANK YOU to everyone who has reviewed the first chapter. I hope this one is to your liking, and like before, PLEASE tell me what you think. X forever, Lorianna Kim

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Twenty things no one (not even James Potter) knew about Lily Evans Potter

20. Lily never liked her name. When she was young, she liked to imagine herself to be a beautiful princess with violet eyes and long shiny black hair with a name like Cordelia or Aurora. She never liked Lily. It was just too plain, too perfect, too pure.

Another reason she did not like 'Lily' was because her grandmother's name was also Lily. Everytime the old lady come to visit her family at their small apartment, senior 'Lily' would look at Lily's mother and said, 'Jesus Christ, I can't believe you left me and all our fortunes for this!'

Agatha would look down at her old worn out shoes and did not say anything. But at night, Lily heard her crying in her room.

Lily never liked her name.

19. But Lily loved how James says her name. She never told anyone, because everytime James call her 'Lily-flower', she would scowl and hit him. She never quite understood why, but she liked the idea of people thinking she hated the nickname. Maybe it was because of the first time James said it.

They were first years, just came through the journey across the lake. All the students stood waiting outside the Great Hall when James strutted over to her and Severus. Severus sneered, but Lily looked sideways to ignore him completely.

'Hi, I'm James' was his introduction. 'We met on the train. I thought we could...you know, get to know each other properly. Not to start on the wrong foot'

'I'm Lily' she said curtly. Her mother taught her never to be openly rude.

'Lily...' he smiled cockily, and his hand flew into his mop of untidy black hair. 'Like Lily-flower?'

'No. Like Lily 'Lilly''

'Like Lily-flower' persisted James. He seemed wholeheartedly convinced that her 'Lily Lily' is every single bit the same as his 'Lily-flower'

Lily rolled her eyes.

The door opened and McGonagall appeared, beckoning briskly for them to come in. Lily put a hand on Severus' arm. 'Let's go, Sev'

As the pair of them walked ahead, she heard James said, 'I'll be seeing you, Lily-flower'

Severus had sniggered disdainfully, but Lily did not say anything at all.

18. The first time Lily ever felt like her heart had been broken was when she was four. Her father had picked her up and twirled her around in the air while Petunia clung to his trousers.

'You'd come back, won't you?' she had asked.

He smiled and his smile made the corners of his eyes crinkled. 'I promised, didn't I?'

'You're going to be gone long?' asked Petunia.

'I don't know' he said. 'I don't want to go, but I have to find myself a job, or else I won't be able to take care of my pretty girls.'

'You'd come back?' Lily asked again.

He set her down on the ground and kissed her on the forehead. 'Of course I would'

Lily watched him kissed her mother goodbye. She watched him walk away.

But he never came back.

17. Lily had hit her sister once. Just once in her life. It happened when she was six. She was making a Father's day card for dad when Petunia saw it.

'Why are you making that?' sneered the older girl. 'You know perfectly well that he would never come back! He is now probably off somewhere shacking a woman half mother's age who has enough money to make him a rock star like he always wanted!'

That was when Lily hit her. Lily struck her so hard that next morning, Petunia had red marks on her right cheek.

16. Lily was so shocked after it happened that she cried for hours.

15. Lily never told Petunia directly that she loved her. Not once. She thought that she never had too. She always assumed that Petunia knew all along.

14. Petunia told Lily she loved her once when she was seven. The day Petunia told her was the day when their mother had shut herself in her room, weeping nonstop, and they all realized that father was never coming back.

13. The first time Lily met Severus, she felt sad. And she never exactly knew why.

12. The first time Lily met Remus, she caught herself smiling right away. And she never exactly knew why.

11. The first time Lily met Sirius, she felt butterflies. She never told anyone because she was not supposed to have this irresponsible and indescribable feeling; and also because Sirius was a complete jackass in her opinion.

10. The first time Lily met Peter Pettigrew, she felt pity. And she knew exactly why. Unlike everyone else, even Severus, he had no one coming to see him off to Hogwarts every first of September, and he had no one coming to pick him up everytime the Hogwarts express reaches platform nine and three quarters.

9. The first time Lily met James, she felt safe. And she never exactly knew why. But she later decided that this feeling beat million of fluttering butterflies any day.

8. On every fifth of Novemeber, Lily would bake a cherry pie. James asked her why and she would always say because she felt like it.

The truth was the fifth of November is Severus' birthday. And since they were children, Severus had always loved her cherry pie.

7. James was her knight in shining armour. She was the damsel in distress, locked up in a crumbled old tower with an estranged sister and a depressed mother. The first time he kissed her, she felt as if he had climbed up the tower, pick her up in his arms, and flew her away from all she had ever known.

One time after they broke apart, she blurted out 'I love you'

He smiled, and his eyes twinkled under the silver moonlight. She held her breath, but he said 'I love you too. Always have and always will'

He fingered a strand of her red hair. He kissed her nose and then her eyes, and whispered in her ears. 'Marry me, Lily-flower'

She didn't say yes, but she cried instead.

But James knew her answer anyway. That was the moment Lily knew she had found her other half.

6. On her wedding day, Lily looked in the mirror and that was the first time she felt contented with her red hair and green eyes. Marlene was her bridesmaid and she handed Lily her bouquet of wild Lily of the valleys.

'Look at my best friend' Marlene had said. 'All of your dreams are coming true in just a few seconds'

The day after Lily heard the news that Marlene was murdered, she went to her best friend's grave by herself. She did not know why. All she knew was that she never wanted to leave.

But she knew she had to, so she left a lily on Marlene's grave in her stead so that a part of her would always stay with her best friend.

5. Sirius was the man who escorted Lily down the aisle. Everyone thought it was because he was her dear friend. He was, but Lily had also asked him for another reason.

Everytime Sirius smiles the corner of his eyes would crinkle up just like her father.

4. At one point when Lily was pregnant, she seriously considered naming her baby Clark if it were a boy. She chose Clark because Petunia had idolized the Muggle movie star named Clark Gable when they were young.

She never told anyone, because James had an uncle whose name was Clark, and Clark Potter hated his nephew with all his guts.

Lily never knew why. Personally, she could not imagine anyone hating James.

3. When Harry had not been born, Lily had secretly hoped that he would have James' hazel eyes instead of her green ones. She had never liked green. But when Harry opened his eyes for the first time, Lily realized that green was just perfect.

His eyes were the same as hers. And that gave her a secret comfort that no matter what happens, he would always have a small piece of her with him.

2. One evening the three of them were sitting snuggle together on the sofa. Tears were running down her cheeks. Fear dominated her mind. James hugged and kissed the top of her head.

'Do not worry, love' he had said. 'We would be alright. We would live until we're old and gray. I promise you I would live to be at least a hundred years old'

After he said that, Lily made a silent wish that she could live to be only one hundred minus one day so she would never have to live a single minute of her life without James.

1. She did not get her wish in the end after all.

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