Hey guys! finally right? i've been trying to get this thing written so i can move on, sorry for the wait and thanks for being patient! sorry its short... like i said i've been trying so hard it just wouldn't write itself like the first chapter did, but anyway!! read review and please don't hate me for it being so short for such a long wait!!
I think I'm insane… honestly I do. I think I'm losing my mind! Wanna know why? No I don't think you do. It's all in my head, literally. I keep having these… thoughts not normal kinda thoughts either, oh no no. Not even about a normal person! No that would be too convenient! No their about someone not expected. Stupid jonin! He bosses me around at training and in my thoughts! Even my dreams! He's trying to take me over!
I'm seriously thinking that I've lost my mind. Who has thoughts like mine about their sensei? Their GUY sensei, other than girls? Really I don't know why! These thoughts are not natural at all because well, they just aren't. I'm thinking of him in more than a teacher student relationship and you are NOT supposed to have feelings for your same sex sensei, right?
But it might be a little easier if once in a while he would pay attention to something, someone else instead of that damnable book! Stupid porn anyway… it might not be so bad if he actually paid attention to me… or even nice to me. But he's always so harsh about everything, I almost feel like he hates me. That makes it the worst because I can't tell someone that hates me that I like them more than I should.
I haven't told anyone about any of this however, how could I? most villagers don't like me anyway, why give them anymore of a reason? I don't need MORE problems than I already do, so this secret is staying a secret.
I would love to tell him and have it turn out like a movie, very doubtful, in fact impossible. But I can wish, right? Maybe one day he'll figure it out on his own. I doubt it, but things change, right?