"I will always love Jo."
He loves her; Kendall Knight loves Jo Taylor. Just hearing those words echo throughout my malfunctioning mind, is like having a poisonous knife being pushed deeper to my withering heart; creating the unbearable wound bigger and deeper, the pain slowly consuming my bleeding heart. I pull my knees closer to my chest, my arms wrapped tightly around my midsection; my nails digging into the now broken flesh, small streams of blood dancing their way down my naked body. Soon pain is consuming my whole body making me burry my face deeper into the white, soft pillow; a barrier that keeps the world from knowing my pain and my sobs of heartbreak.
I let my nails dig deeper, my legs are brought closer, and the sudden movement leads my pulsing and aching hole to sting with unbearable pain; quickly feeling liquid trail down my bruised cheeks. I let a sudden scream escape my plump lips –skin broken and bleeding- as the white pillow accepts the cries of heartbreak with open arms. I shiver and tremble; the cold wind from the AC taunting my bare skin with its ghostly cold hands, making me try to find that warmth, that security, the protection and love that I crave for so much. Soon, a headache starts to form, a twisted and painful pounding starts to appear; leaving an aching feeling against my skull.
Suddenly a screech of a cry escaped my lips, the stings and pain becoming too much, leading my nails to dig deeper; now breaking more of my flesh and letting my red blood flow out of the open wounds. The pounding in my head becomes unbearable that I can't even stand anymore which is slowly making me go crazy; and all because Kendall Knight couldn't love me back, couldn't love his best friend, he couldn't love the nerd named Hortense Logan Mitchell.
Soon, the pain, stinging, and heartbreak became a blur; taking over my now uptight nerves and malfunctioning body. The trembles and shivers becoming more frequent, the loss for air leading me to let out sudden gasps; my lungs pleading and begging to breath. I started to feel my heart race, beating out of control and letting the pieces fall to a black hole as the wounds that the beating organ carries became deeper. I let another scream escape, this time of heartbreak and fright.
Then everything stopped and became a sudden blur. I felt a warm hand upon my bare shoulder; my body quickly taking in the warmth to at least heat up my now cold blood. Soon I felt arms being wrapped around me, as I felt being lifted –along with the blood and cum stained sheets- and was being held close, my face buried into the crook of a warm neck, my hands quickly clutching to a shirt covered chest, still the heat was vibrating off of this body and wrapping around my cold body like a fuzzy warm blanket. I let out a painful whimper when this person's hand lightly touched my sensitive bottom, only to move under my legs. I was soon carried away from this nightmare, from the place my heart shattered completely and where my nightmares began. Where I was left by the one I love.
"Don't worry Logan, Carlos and I will take care of you, I promise" James softly whispered as he carried me to his room, where his lover waited for us.
That led me to let out a whimper as I clutched onto the taller brunette tightly as I was lead to be comfort by my two best friends, while all I wanted was to be held and comforted by Kendall. That's all I want, that's all I need, and that's all I desire for, to be held by my Knight and shining armor but he wasn't that, he was just my beautiful monster.
Author's Note: I know this was suppose to be a one - shot, but this small story is a prompt that has been asked by someone for me to write on tumblr and asked me to continue so... TADA!
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