CHAPTER ONE

LACK OF BOND

Wyatt's screaming could be heard through out the Halliwell's manor. The manor was big, what with a kitchen, conservatory, dinning room, master bed/bath, two medium bedrooms, four smaller bedrooms, guest bathroom, second upstairs bathroom, an attic, a basement. But with a baby's scream the manor didn't feel big. It felt small.

And to a claustrophobic person like Paige, it felt like the walls and the ceiling were coming towards and on top of her. Paige loved her nephew very much; she would lay her life down for him. But sometimes his screaming sends Paige into herself, where at times she can not bring herself back.

Paige would never tell this to Piper, or Leo. It was their son's screaming that was causing her panic attacks. When Paige feels an attack coming she would orb to the Golden Gate Bridge, where she instantly calmed down.

Piper knew the truth through. How could she not. She had seen her younger sister's eyes when Wyatt screamed non stop the first time. Piper felt bad for Paige, but what could she do? Wyatt was only eight months old. The only way Wyatt could communicate was to use his lungs. And boy, did Wyatt have a pair of lungs.

Piper asked Leo once where Paige had gone during one of Wyatt's screaming fits. Leo told her the Golden Gate Bridge. Piper was relieved. Leo had taken her to the top of the bridge once after they had admitted their love to one another.

The height of the bridge freaked Piper out, so Leo never took her there again. But Piper knew that Leo continued going there. Leo told her once that the top of the bridge was the most peaceful spot in all of San Francisco.

Piper knew that Leo had taken Paige to the bridge when Paige first learned that she was ½ witch and ½ white lighter. Piper was happy that Paige found the Golden Gate Bridge as peaceful as Leo did.

Piper had a new love for the San Francisco landmark bridge. Not only did the bridge keep her husband in the same city as her, but it kept her new found baby ½ sister also. Piper didn't worry when Leo or Paige orbed away for some alo9ne time, she didn't have to fear that they could be any where in the world; Piper knew that Leo and Paige were on top of the Golden Gate Bridge.

Piper wished the same peaceful place for Wyatt.

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Wyatt's screams hit an all time high and Paige had just orbed out of the conservatory.

"I feel bad for Paige." Phoebe said as she gathered her lap top and her purse.

"I wish she would just tell us that this isn't helping her claustrophobic." Leo said as he watched Piper rush out of the room.

"Paige thinks we would hate her if she admitted that Wyatt's screaming triggers her claustrophobic." Phoebe turned a worried frown on her face, to face her brother – in – law.

"I wish we could tell her that we know." Leo shook his head. "Than we can reassure her that we don't blame her for her attacks."

"Paige is stubborn and very closed off when it comes to something personal like this." Phoebe cringed as Wyatt hit an even higher note in his screaming. "You son sure does have a pair of lungs on him."

Leo couldn't keep the prideful look off his face.

"Look, we'll figure out how to reach Paige. It'll take time, but we will find the way." Phoebe said as she grabbed her keys. "I have to get my column in, or I'll have both Elsie and Jason on my butt. And let me tell you, it's not a pretty picture."

Wyatt's screams became louder as a very frustered Piper came back downstairs with the eight month old baby in her arms.

Leo stood to his feet and walked into the family room towards his wife and son.

"I don't know what's wrong with him. He didn't need to be changed, he's not hungry, and he's not tired." Piper shouted over Wyatt's screams.

Phoebe left the manor with Wyatt's screams echoing off the walls.

"Here let me take the little guy." Leo said taking Wyatt from Piper's arms.

Wyatt suddenly stopped screaming in fact Wyatt stopped fussing all together. He just stared up into his father's eyes.

"How did you do that?" Piper looked wide eyed at her husband and now silent son.

"He just wanted his father is all?" Leo said making funny faces at his son.

Wyatt let out a giggle. He reached up with his tiny hands and touched his fathers face.

"I'm his mother. I carried him for nine months. He heard my voice first. Why didn't he calm down when I went up to him?" Piper sat down on the couch. "Why haven't I bonded with my son when he came out of me?"

Leo sat down and put Wyatt more secure under the cook of his right arm. "A lot of mothers don't bond with their newborn babies right away."

"I bet mom bonded with Prue, Phoebe and I right away. I'm sure mom even bonded with Paige, before she had to give Paige away." Piper looked at the wall where the picture of Patty and five year old Piper was hung.

"You are right; Patty had the instant bond with you girls." Leo nodded. "Even Paige."

"I thought you didn't know about Paige, before Paige found us again." Piper looked accusing at her husband.

"I didn't know beforehand. But afterwards I talked to Patty." Leo said. He shook his head. "And no I can't tell you want Patty said. Paige is the only one who has the right to know."

"Than why doesn't she?" Piper demanded.

"The time hasn't come yet." Leo replied.

"I hate it when you get cryptic." Piper rolled her eyes.

Leo shrugged his left shoulder. Wyatt had fallen asleep. "Well, you don't have to worry. It's not up to me to tell Paige about the past."

"Oh?" Piper raised her eyebrows.

"That's all you are going to get out of me." Leo leaned forward and kissed his wife's right check. "I'll get this little guy back in his crib." He whispered before orbing upstairs to the nursery.

Why can't I have the emotional bond with my son? Like Leo. God, even Phoebe and Paige have bonded with my son. Piper leaned back against the couch and closed her eyes. What kind of mother am I? Silent tears fell from her eyes.

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END CHAPTER ONE

Author's Note: You got it. This story is based on the episode "Sense and Sensibility." But it will have my own twist to it.